My current g/f and keyholder is much more active in participating in my chastity than my ex was. As a result, I've grown more and more comfortable with her authority and my desire to submit to it. So I don't feel as rebellious about being in chastity. Perhaps its just maturity, perhaps it is gratitude, perhaps its habit - since as a part of the reality of things, she keeps a key hidden around so that when I go to yoga, she tells me where it is, I unlock myself, go to class and then lock back up after. If I were to misbehave, the disappointment it would bring to her is enough to discourage me from doing it. Either way, in the last year my chastity has incorporated more and more of the "honor system" - but sometimes... I can't help myself.
Last night, after 5 days of chastity and some really hot denial play, she left me unlocked when we went to bed.
This morning, she told me that she woke up in the middle of the night to find the bed shaking. I was masturbating, but fully asleep. She told me to stop, and I did. But today, I'm locked back up again - with both the top lock and the second "no way to pull out" lock that fits through my frenum piercing.
I suspect that she won't allow me to sleep without it tonight
Its not the first time that in the middle of the night that I've done that, and in the past, I have told her that I need to sleep in lockup as I don't trust myself. Last night I thought I'd be ok without it, I guess not.
Anyone else a sleep masturbator?
