A Love/Hate Relationship with this CD!!

[wishful4]

I seem to be developing sort of a love/hate relationship with this CD. She has kept me locked continuously since the beginning of the year except for a two week vacation in March and a week or so this month. When she realized my yearly urologist visit wasn't until Sept ( she thought it was late Jun), she promptly had me lock back up. My quandary is this. Being retired, I am always locked at home and sleep in the device every night. She doesn't like me driving a vehicle while wearing the CD and will sometimes unlock me for a few hours a day from time to time if we are driving somewhere. It is understood that I am to re-lock when we return home or complete what we are doing. The thing is, I hate to go back in the CD after being out for several hours and sometimes delay putting it back on. I think she notices, but generally doesn't say anything. However, yesterday, when I told her I was re-locked, she said, "About time!". When I am back under lock and key, I am glad to be there and wish she hadn't unlocked me in the first place. However, when I am unlocked, I would like to stay unlocked and possibly get a chance to self pleasure. Of course, she is careful not to allow that. I know I need to re-lock but hate to do it. But when I am under lock and key, I love it and love how it makes me feel. The fact that I hate to re-lock bothers me. Is this sort of a love/hate relationship?

[wmpwiwlw]

Why do you need the device off to drive? lol. I have the same thing going on before but that was usually after an orgasm. Chastity almost seemed silly to me after the device was off and I had been allowed to orgasm. As soon as the device went back on grudginly I was in a total different state of mind(which of course she loves). For me personally I think it boils down to just being childish somewhat. I like my play thingy and the option to touch and watch it get hard. I love masturbation but in reality I cannot control it, so when I'm locked up I know its whats best for me. After the device is on the horniness sets in and all I can think about is how to please my wife. So for me thats how it goes.

[wishful4]

Why do you need the device off to drive?

That's one of my KeyHolder/spouse's rules for playing the game. I have tried to convince her it's not a big deal being out and about locked, but I suspect she is concerned about the device distracting me while I'm driving or getting in an accident and needing medical attention resulting in us being outed. We live in a very small community where everybody knows everybody else's business or thinks they do. She doesn't wish to share our kinky game with anyone. Who knows, she may change her mind at some point. However, she is in charge now and it's her way or no way.

[wmpwiwlw]

ah ok i see why. Well you might want to remind her of HIPAA laws prevent people from talking about medical situations if something were to happen. Just saying. Though in a small community I can see why should worry. Its hard to keep secrets.