I guess one of the best things that came out of our little conversation last night was her calmness and her "matter of fact" tone when she told me that she knows full well that I wear a chastity device and that it's ok. It's our "normal" now and it's no big deal.
And although she is still turned off by it to a certain extent, she is fine with me wearing it every night in bed and is ok with possibly seeing it or feeling it at night. Obviously she doesn't want it around when we are fooling around, but I'm ok with that too. We don't always have PIV sex, so sometimes I don't cum at all and only make sure she's satisfied.
I feel much calmer and don't feel like there must be something wrong with me, this is who I am and my wife accepts that.
I love her so much.
[newbie] Starting again
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked. 
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Last night my wife and I went out with some of her co-workers. At first she was going to go out by herself but then she told me she wanted me to go with her. I'm not sure if that was because she would be having a beer or two there or because she hates to drive after dark or both, but it's also possible that she wanted me to go because she wanted to be with me. It seems that lately we've been very close, closer than we have in a long time and it's great. At any rate, we went out and then came home, the kids were still up so we watched tv with them for a while before retiring for the night. I had already put the HT back on when we got home, so I also went straight to bed. We did our usual cuddling and then went to sleep. About 3am I woke up with the usual nocturnal erection, but it wasn't uncomfortable or anything. In fact it felt nice. I noticed that my wife was facing away from me so I rolled over and settled into her back side. I felt my erection pressing up against her butt, at least that's where I thought it was since I was still locked in my device and by sack was being stretched. It was a great feeling, and while she was sleeping at first she did wake enough to get a drink of water from the glass on her nightstand and settle back in. This morning was uneventful as I got up before she did and left for work. I decided to leave my device on today since I was feeling particularly horny and don't want any mistakes.
We are going out of town later today thru Monday and I've been considering taking the device, but since we will be in the same room as the kids I think I'll leave it at home. I know there probably won't be any opportunity for fooling around, so I'll have to be on the honor system.
I couldn't be happier with the way things are going right now. I know we could be farther along but I'm good with where we are. I may suggest to my wife to try doing a ruined orgasm at some point. I think it would be a nice fill-in between my actual orgasms.
For what it's worth, it's been 12 days since my last orgasm (handjob) and 18 days since our last piv.
Pretty horny right now. I hope I can get thru this weekend.
We are going out of town later today thru Monday and I've been considering taking the device, but since we will be in the same room as the kids I think I'll leave it at home. I know there probably won't be any opportunity for fooling around, so I'll have to be on the honor system.
I couldn't be happier with the way things are going right now. I know we could be farther along but I'm good with where we are. I may suggest to my wife to try doing a ruined orgasm at some point. I think it would be a nice fill-in between my actual orgasms.
For what it's worth, it's been 12 days since my last orgasm (handjob) and 18 days since our last piv.
Pretty horny right now. I hope I can get thru this weekend.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
I survived the long holiday weekend without any slip-ups. We were busy most of the time, and were sharing the hotel rooms with our kids, so it was actually easier than I expected.
We did our fair share of cuddling in bed and we did get some nice caressing in, but didn't go much further than that for obvious reasons. I've noticed that I get much quicker and stronger erections compared to the almost non-existant ones I use to get in the past. I swear it takes only the littleist thing from my wife now to set me off. I have to believe this is a direct result from not watching porn anymore and wearing the device to stop any masturbation.
When we got home finally last night I put the device back on before I went to bed. We were both exhausted and it was really hot in the house so nothing happened between us, just sleep. I did wake this morning with a nice hard erection which I had to let settle down before I dared get out of bed. I like those, and anymore they seem to be happening alot more often.
It's been 17 days now since my last orgasm, which was only a hand-job but still felt good, so we'll have to see how far I go. MY wife and I both have this coming Friday off from work, and now the kids will be in school so it might lead to something although it usually doesn't.
We did our fair share of cuddling in bed and we did get some nice caressing in, but didn't go much further than that for obvious reasons. I've noticed that I get much quicker and stronger erections compared to the almost non-existant ones I use to get in the past. I swear it takes only the littleist thing from my wife now to set me off. I have to believe this is a direct result from not watching porn anymore and wearing the device to stop any masturbation.
When we got home finally last night I put the device back on before I went to bed. We were both exhausted and it was really hot in the house so nothing happened between us, just sleep. I did wake this morning with a nice hard erection which I had to let settle down before I dared get out of bed. I like those, and anymore they seem to be happening alot more often.
It's been 17 days now since my last orgasm, which was only a hand-job but still felt good, so we'll have to see how far I go. MY wife and I both have this coming Friday off from work, and now the kids will be in school so it might lead to something although it usually doesn't.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Well, sure enough, our Friday alone together turned out to be uneventful. We got up to get the kids off to school and then got right to work cleaning the house and doing other chores. It was fine really, and I wasn't that disappointed because it's happened before so I knew what to really expect.
The rest of the weekend went pretty much the same, with only a little bit of play in the morning but then nothing. My wife really didn't seem to be in the mood at all over the weekend, so it turned into me playing with her but nothing really coming back the other way.
On Friday during our cleaning of the house I was just wearing sweat pants so it was very obvious that I was wearing my HT due to the unusual bumps and bulges in the front of my sweats but she never mentioned anything. I'm sure she noticed as it was pretty obvious.
On Saturday morning we had to get around because we all had to be somewhere, so I went into the shower first and put my Holy Trainer up on the shower doors after I had cleaned them thoroughly, same as I ever do. When I got out and dried off and started getting around she walked in to take her shower. The parts to my HT were still up there laying on the doors but it didn't seem to phaze her at all. We were just chatting away and obviously she had seen them. I decided to leave them up there the whole time we were in there together to see if there was any mention of them but there wasn't. I'm taking this as a good sign that she is really comfortable with seeing it and being around it.
Sunday morning is out traditional play time as she tends to like to fool around in the morning and Sundays are our only mornings without having to be somewhere. We layed in bed and I began to fool around with her, but I could tell she wasn't really in the mood. She let me play around some, which got me pretty aroused but then everything just sort of fizzled out. One thing I noticed was that I leaked a considerable amount of precum which, after I put on some underwear, made quite a pool in them and actually leaked thru to the front of my underwear. Apparently it had collected some in the HT and when I stood up all of that leaked out. For whatever reason, I really find precum to be a turn on, don't ask me why, and I have noticed that I have been producing alot more these days.
For those keeping score at home I have been about 22 days since my last O which was from a HJ, and 29 days since my last PIV session. I've been proud of myself that I still seem to be abstaining from looking at porn and haven't masturbated in a long time. I was home by myself on Saturday afternoon and ended up playing with my penis until it was nice and hard but then made myself stop before I went to far, and then immediately locked myself back up. That was probably to furthest I've gone in a long time.
The rest of the weekend went pretty much the same, with only a little bit of play in the morning but then nothing. My wife really didn't seem to be in the mood at all over the weekend, so it turned into me playing with her but nothing really coming back the other way.
On Friday during our cleaning of the house I was just wearing sweat pants so it was very obvious that I was wearing my HT due to the unusual bumps and bulges in the front of my sweats but she never mentioned anything. I'm sure she noticed as it was pretty obvious.
On Saturday morning we had to get around because we all had to be somewhere, so I went into the shower first and put my Holy Trainer up on the shower doors after I had cleaned them thoroughly, same as I ever do. When I got out and dried off and started getting around she walked in to take her shower. The parts to my HT were still up there laying on the doors but it didn't seem to phaze her at all. We were just chatting away and obviously she had seen them. I decided to leave them up there the whole time we were in there together to see if there was any mention of them but there wasn't. I'm taking this as a good sign that she is really comfortable with seeing it and being around it.
Sunday morning is out traditional play time as she tends to like to fool around in the morning and Sundays are our only mornings without having to be somewhere. We layed in bed and I began to fool around with her, but I could tell she wasn't really in the mood. She let me play around some, which got me pretty aroused but then everything just sort of fizzled out. One thing I noticed was that I leaked a considerable amount of precum which, after I put on some underwear, made quite a pool in them and actually leaked thru to the front of my underwear. Apparently it had collected some in the HT and when I stood up all of that leaked out. For whatever reason, I really find precum to be a turn on, don't ask me why, and I have noticed that I have been producing alot more these days.
For those keeping score at home I have been about 22 days since my last O which was from a HJ, and 29 days since my last PIV session. I've been proud of myself that I still seem to be abstaining from looking at porn and haven't masturbated in a long time. I was home by myself on Saturday afternoon and ended up playing with my penis until it was nice and hard but then made myself stop before I went to far, and then immediately locked myself back up. That was probably to furthest I've gone in a long time.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Last night I swear every time I woke up I had a nice full nocturnal erection going. They don't hurt at all and I end up just feeling very full down there. The Holy Trainer gets pulled away from my body and stretches my scrotum skin out until my balls stop everything, but I've noticed that my skin has apparently stretched out enough so that it's no longer painful. It's quite a nice feeling to be honest, and I can reach down and sometimes wrap my fist around the exposed base of the erection. The only issue at that point is that I can't lay on my stomach until things settle down, so I'm forced to lay on my back or side in the meantime. At that point I try to cuddle with my wife and find a nice warm soft place to rest my device until things settle. I'm sure she can tell what's going on, and has been known to adjust her position from time to time.
I'm still working on getting her more and more use to being around the device. I've noticed that I'm more relaxed wearing it around her now and am not as concerned about her seeing/feeling it now.
I'm still working on getting her more and more use to being around the device. I've noticed that I'm more relaxed wearing it around her now and am not as concerned about her seeing/feeling it now.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Last night and this morning I discovered that I'm still getting more frequent erections, and I'm not sure if that has anything to do with the length of time I've gone without an orgasm, or the fact that I'm being careful not to play with my penis in any way, or that I'm not watching porn videos anymore... but whatever it is I'm certainly not complaining. I woke this morning with the beginnings of one and as I got up and started getting around it actually grew instead of going away.
Anyway, after I got out of the shower I dried off the HT and decided to reassemble it and place it on the shelf we have in our bathroom where we put out coffee and all that. I put the two pieces together and then set it there so it was sitting on the bottom of the base ring and on the bottom tip of the tube, just like it would be oriented while wearing it. It was just sitting there next to my coffe cup as I went on to shave, brush teeth, etc.. It was about that time when my wife walked in and got ready to jump in the shower. She set her coffee on the other side of my device so the HT was in between the two cups. The HT was placed so it was pointed toward the door and in a location where it was obvious. She didn't miss a beat and seemed to thing nothing of it, and went on about her business. I finished up and went to the bedroom to get dressed. I was dressed when she came in wearing just her robe. She came over to my side of the bed as I was getting my shoes on and started rubbing my back asking me how I felt today since I was under the weather on Monday night. This was a nice gesture and unexpected since she isn't normally like that, especially in the morning when everyone is trying to get ready. It told her I was feeling ok and stood up. She was wearing only her fuzzy robe and was obviously naked underneath. We took just a minute to touch and caress a little, and then it was business as usual. One thing to note is that she then got dressed in a nice skirt and blouse which is something that I have been encouraging her to wear more of since she looks so great when she wears skirts. This is also probably unrelated, but it's possible she wore this because she knows I like it.
While I don't think the two things are related in any way, the device being assembled and placed on the shelf and her being affectionate later on, it was nice to see that the device doesn't appear to be an issue for her anymore and definitely doesn't detract from her feelings toward me. It's possible that she is starting to see the benefits of me wearing the device since I am much more affectionate in bed now and cuddle alot more with her.
I think we are in a good place right now, with her seeming to accept the device and be comfortable being around it and having me wear it. I am cautiously optimistic that things will take the next step with her interacting with the device while it's on me and maybe taking pleasure in teasing me while I'm wearing it.
Anyway, after I got out of the shower I dried off the HT and decided to reassemble it and place it on the shelf we have in our bathroom where we put out coffee and all that. I put the two pieces together and then set it there so it was sitting on the bottom of the base ring and on the bottom tip of the tube, just like it would be oriented while wearing it. It was just sitting there next to my coffe cup as I went on to shave, brush teeth, etc.. It was about that time when my wife walked in and got ready to jump in the shower. She set her coffee on the other side of my device so the HT was in between the two cups. The HT was placed so it was pointed toward the door and in a location where it was obvious. She didn't miss a beat and seemed to thing nothing of it, and went on about her business. I finished up and went to the bedroom to get dressed. I was dressed when she came in wearing just her robe. She came over to my side of the bed as I was getting my shoes on and started rubbing my back asking me how I felt today since I was under the weather on Monday night. This was a nice gesture and unexpected since she isn't normally like that, especially in the morning when everyone is trying to get ready. It told her I was feeling ok and stood up. She was wearing only her fuzzy robe and was obviously naked underneath. We took just a minute to touch and caress a little, and then it was business as usual. One thing to note is that she then got dressed in a nice skirt and blouse which is something that I have been encouraging her to wear more of since she looks so great when she wears skirts. This is also probably unrelated, but it's possible she wore this because she knows I like it.
While I don't think the two things are related in any way, the device being assembled and placed on the shelf and her being affectionate later on, it was nice to see that the device doesn't appear to be an issue for her anymore and definitely doesn't detract from her feelings toward me. It's possible that she is starting to see the benefits of me wearing the device since I am much more affectionate in bed now and cuddle alot more with her.
I think we are in a good place right now, with her seeming to accept the device and be comfortable being around it and having me wear it. I am cautiously optimistic that things will take the next step with her interacting with the device while it's on me and maybe taking pleasure in teasing me while I'm wearing it.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
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Re: [newbie] Starting again
Things appear to be 'looking up" for a possible future KH lock-up.
Keep up the good work.
Keep up the good work.
Happily secured since 4/2010 
Have worn CB3000, CB6000s, MM Jail Bird & Watchful Mistress,
DHgate A271 & 273, DHgate Full Stainless Steel Belt & DHgate HT nub
Currently wearing A273
Have worn CB3000, CB6000s, MM Jail Bird & Watchful Mistress,
DHgate A271 & 273, DHgate Full Stainless Steel Belt & DHgate HT nub
Currently wearing A273
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Thanks. I appreciate the feedback.
I write in this journal to document my journey and I know it's sort of against the rules for other people to comment but it is nice to hear words of encouragement and get other peoples take on our current situation.
I've been doing my very best to be patient and let the process progress naturally. It's very important to make sure she is ok with what is happening and that she's comfortable with the situation. Right now she seems very happy and content and is well aware that I wear a chastity device.
I have no idea where this will end up but right now we seem to be progressing at a very nice pace. I'm very happy and she seems to be too.
I write in this journal to document my journey and I know it's sort of against the rules for other people to comment but it is nice to hear words of encouragement and get other peoples take on our current situation.
I've been doing my very best to be patient and let the process progress naturally. It's very important to make sure she is ok with what is happening and that she's comfortable with the situation. Right now she seems very happy and content and is well aware that I wear a chastity device.
I have no idea where this will end up but right now we seem to be progressing at a very nice pace. I'm very happy and she seems to be too.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Last night was a little different, nothing crazy, just different.
The evening was pretty uneventful but when we both went to bed at the same time we both immediately started making out. It was strange be in one aspect because we seemed to be on the same wavelength at exactly the same time, and in another way it was different because we generally don't make out ever.
It was very intense and very passionate, we were really into each other. There wasn't much else going on besides that, which was also different. We did this for several minutes and then simply settled in with each other and drifted off to sleep. I must say that I was very turned on, and was considering pushing things a little to see of I could possibly pleasure her orally, but I could tell that it wasn't the right time for that. I was swollen inside my HT for sure, and I'm sure she knew and could probably feel me against her.
This morning was a typical morning, and she was in a good mood and seemed quite happy.
On one hand I would have liked it to go further last night, but on the other hand I'm glad it didn't so that I could show her that it she doesn't need to be concerned about things going further than she wants. She knew I was locked and things would only go so far. That's a really nice feeling for me, and I'm starting to think she likes it too.
The evening was pretty uneventful but when we both went to bed at the same time we both immediately started making out. It was strange be in one aspect because we seemed to be on the same wavelength at exactly the same time, and in another way it was different because we generally don't make out ever.
It was very intense and very passionate, we were really into each other. There wasn't much else going on besides that, which was also different. We did this for several minutes and then simply settled in with each other and drifted off to sleep. I must say that I was very turned on, and was considering pushing things a little to see of I could possibly pleasure her orally, but I could tell that it wasn't the right time for that. I was swollen inside my HT for sure, and I'm sure she knew and could probably feel me against her.
This morning was a typical morning, and she was in a good mood and seemed quite happy.
On one hand I would have liked it to go further last night, but on the other hand I'm glad it didn't so that I could show her that it she doesn't need to be concerned about things going further than she wants. She knew I was locked and things would only go so far. That's a really nice feeling for me, and I'm starting to think she likes it too.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Man that was a good read. Very detailed and heartfelt. You must be the most patient man in history. Not sure I could go that long. My journey is nothing like yours, but I just wanted to comment that your journey has been a wonderful read. I'm rooting for you man!