I was awaken on Saturday morning by the sight of my naked wife hurridly coming into out bedroom and across the floor to our bed, giggling the whole time. She hopped in bed and was facing me before I could say anything. "(our son's name) is up but he's in the living room watching tv" is the first thing she said. I haven't seen her like this in a long time. The first thing I thought of when we bagan to fool around was "crap, I'm locked, I wonder how this is going to play out, should I tell her or leave to go to the bathroom to take it off?". All these things were going thru my head as we both started to really get aroused. As we went along I could feel her knee come up under my balls and start rubbing them and moving them around. This continued up to my locked cock which she played with with her knee. At this point I assumed that she could feel the hardness of my device, so she must be ok with it. I was wrong. I felt her hand slide down to grab my penis, and then it grabbed my device. "eww, you have that on again?"......... "yeah, I didn't know this was going to happen this morning"..."well I didn't think I had to make an appointment"....."it's no big deal, I can take it off in like two seconds". With that I rolled to the edge of the bed and grabbed the key and was unlocked right away. I rolled back into bed and we continued on from there. She once again grabbed my penis and started stroking it. Eventually we both came, and we had PIV sex for the first time in quite some time. We finished and layed there in bed for quite a while. It was really nice.
She never brought up the device situation from the morning, and our day went on as usual. I know she was grossed out at first, because for whatever reason the device really grosses her out, but at the same time I think it was good to show her that even though I might be locked, I can be unlocked right away for fun. I'm still hoping that over time she will stopped being turned off by the device and understand that it's not something I'm doing to keep from having sex with her. Maybe this showed her that.
[newbie] Starting again
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked. 
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Sunday was pretty uneventful, we were both busy doing this and that around the house. I decided to lock myself back up in the morning (after having worn it all night Saturday, but taking it off when I got up) because my wife and kids were leaving the house and I didn't want to be tempted to play with myself even though I had just had sex the morning before. At any rate, I wore it all day and all night, just taking it off to go to work on Monday. I must admit that I did sit in front of the pc for a while on Sunday surfing some milder porn, but I've really been trying to eliminate that all together. Baby steps I suppose.
Monday evening I was once again alone at home, so I put it back on when I got home from work. I try not to wear it to work because I've found it to be too big of a distraction. So Monday evening I had it on, and did some surfing, but nothing too much. It was really hot in our house, so my balls were really hanging low all night. I've found that when this happens that they can actually get in the way when I pee sitting down and they can end up getting wet. Oh well.
I went to bed a short time after my wife, so she was asleep when I got to bed. In the middle of the night I found her in the perfect spooning position, so I settled in nice and tight behind her with my device settling into the space between her cheeks. I couldn't really tell if it was more or less poking her at this point, but it sort of felt like it was and she was doing some readjusting of her position, so it very well may have been. We slept in that position for a long time, and when I awoke in the morning she was already up and showered. I got my coffee and by the time I got to the bathroom she was pretty much done getting ready and was just finishing up curling her hair. We chatted for a minute and then she left to get dressed. I was just about to strip down to get in the shower with my device when she left, so she wasn't able to see it on me which I had sort of been wanting to do. Just to get that done and over with. Instead I took my shower and put the pieces in the usual place, got out dried everything off an started getting ready myself before she came back in. Not much to report after that. On a side note, I did have some of the strongest erections I can remember having in a while last night. My penis was really straining and my balls were stretched to their limits. I had a pretty good burn going on the bottom of my sack as the skin was really being stretched. It had pushed my device far enough away from my body that I could get my entire hand wrapped around my shaft behind it. It was a little painful, not bad at all and only from the skin stretching, but yet I wanted it to last because it felt so good being that hard. Instead of rolling over on my back which seems to deflate things at a faster rate, I rolled over on my side/stomach and felt the hardness linger for a long time. I fell asleep in that postion, but was woken up a couple of more times throughout the night with more erections, although they were not nearly as strong as the first. I'm not sure if that's what was going on when I settled into the spooning position with my wife, but I remember being aroused from the feeling so I may have been in a semi-hard condition with her.
I contimplated wearing the device to work but decided against it,being too much of a distraction. I plan on wearing it at night/evening whenever I can.
Monday evening I was once again alone at home, so I put it back on when I got home from work. I try not to wear it to work because I've found it to be too big of a distraction. So Monday evening I had it on, and did some surfing, but nothing too much. It was really hot in our house, so my balls were really hanging low all night. I've found that when this happens that they can actually get in the way when I pee sitting down and they can end up getting wet. Oh well.
I went to bed a short time after my wife, so she was asleep when I got to bed. In the middle of the night I found her in the perfect spooning position, so I settled in nice and tight behind her with my device settling into the space between her cheeks. I couldn't really tell if it was more or less poking her at this point, but it sort of felt like it was and she was doing some readjusting of her position, so it very well may have been. We slept in that position for a long time, and when I awoke in the morning she was already up and showered. I got my coffee and by the time I got to the bathroom she was pretty much done getting ready and was just finishing up curling her hair. We chatted for a minute and then she left to get dressed. I was just about to strip down to get in the shower with my device when she left, so she wasn't able to see it on me which I had sort of been wanting to do. Just to get that done and over with. Instead I took my shower and put the pieces in the usual place, got out dried everything off an started getting ready myself before she came back in. Not much to report after that. On a side note, I did have some of the strongest erections I can remember having in a while last night. My penis was really straining and my balls were stretched to their limits. I had a pretty good burn going on the bottom of my sack as the skin was really being stretched. It had pushed my device far enough away from my body that I could get my entire hand wrapped around my shaft behind it. It was a little painful, not bad at all and only from the skin stretching, but yet I wanted it to last because it felt so good being that hard. Instead of rolling over on my back which seems to deflate things at a faster rate, I rolled over on my side/stomach and felt the hardness linger for a long time. I fell asleep in that postion, but was woken up a couple of more times throughout the night with more erections, although they were not nearly as strong as the first. I'm not sure if that's what was going on when I settled into the spooning position with my wife, but I remember being aroused from the feeling so I may have been in a semi-hard condition with her.
I contimplated wearing the device to work but decided against it,being too much of a distraction. I plan on wearing it at night/evening whenever I can.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Last night and this morning were pretty typical for us, with the exception that there really wasn't any cuddling to speak of but there certainly were some pretty major nocturnal erections. It may be all in my head, but I swear I'm getting these major erections at night alot more than I have in a while, certainly since I decided to sleep locked again. Believe me, I'm certainly not complaining. It's nice to see just how hard and big I can still get (if only these translated into our intimate times) and they seem to be stretching my sack pretty well too. The pressure and "discomfort" is actually enjoyable as I wrote in my last entry, with only the occassional hot spot/skin stretching being the only painful part. I usually end up with one spot that feels like its on fire and is going to tear or something, but when that happens I simply moisturize that part and the pain goes away.
My wife was up again before me, but I awoke while she was fiddling around in the bedroom at about 5 am. It was when I awoke this time that I doscovered that I was in the middle of a pretty serious erection and it would probably be best if I stayed in bed until the swelling went down. This took about 5 minutes or so, maybe longer, then I got up. I haven't used the Guardian Anti-pullout device in quite a while. WHile I liked the fact that it kept eveything in place, it seemed to take up too much room in the tube so when I did get erect it would be quite painful. Maybe that's the point but I really don't need that in the middle of the night.
I've found that if I put my device on too early in the evening, then I tend to not want to do things with my family/kids in fear of someone bumping it, accidentally touching it, or whatever. This isn't a good situation so I've made the decision that I will either put it on when I go to bed or when the kids go to bed. Right now they stay up later that I do since school is out, so I'll need to put it on when I go to bed.
My plan right now is to keep wearing it at night, and whenever I am alone and might get the urge to masturbate. I don't plan on wearing it to work again, or during any times when I wouldn't be masturbating anyway...like in public or with friends/family. There is no benefit to that. What's the point.
I've been thinking about what device-wise is really turning my wife off. I'm not sure if it's the color (black), he style (enclosed), the material (bioresin), or just the idea of this thing encasing my penis. I know it's the device since she has told me that "it" turns her off and she doesn't want to know when I'm wearing "it" or to touch "it". She even said "eww..." the other morning when she accidentally grabbed it. I would like to try a Stainless device but I am a fan of the totally enclosed versions (Steelheart) and not the Jailbird type but am wondering if my cock was somewhat touchable and she could see it if that would be better. I'm not far enough along in this journey to worry about something like this, but it has crossed my mind.
My wife was up again before me, but I awoke while she was fiddling around in the bedroom at about 5 am. It was when I awoke this time that I doscovered that I was in the middle of a pretty serious erection and it would probably be best if I stayed in bed until the swelling went down. This took about 5 minutes or so, maybe longer, then I got up. I haven't used the Guardian Anti-pullout device in quite a while. WHile I liked the fact that it kept eveything in place, it seemed to take up too much room in the tube so when I did get erect it would be quite painful. Maybe that's the point but I really don't need that in the middle of the night.
I've found that if I put my device on too early in the evening, then I tend to not want to do things with my family/kids in fear of someone bumping it, accidentally touching it, or whatever. This isn't a good situation so I've made the decision that I will either put it on when I go to bed or when the kids go to bed. Right now they stay up later that I do since school is out, so I'll need to put it on when I go to bed.
My plan right now is to keep wearing it at night, and whenever I am alone and might get the urge to masturbate. I don't plan on wearing it to work again, or during any times when I wouldn't be masturbating anyway...like in public or with friends/family. There is no benefit to that. What's the point.
I've been thinking about what device-wise is really turning my wife off. I'm not sure if it's the color (black), he style (enclosed), the material (bioresin), or just the idea of this thing encasing my penis. I know it's the device since she has told me that "it" turns her off and she doesn't want to know when I'm wearing "it" or to touch "it". She even said "eww..." the other morning when she accidentally grabbed it. I would like to try a Stainless device but I am a fan of the totally enclosed versions (Steelheart) and not the Jailbird type but am wondering if my cock was somewhat touchable and she could see it if that would be better. I'm not far enough along in this journey to worry about something like this, but it has crossed my mind.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
I ended up posting a topic in General Chastity Chat about which kind of device would be less of a turn off for a wife/gf to see her man locked up in. So far the consensus has been some version of stainless. If you would like to add anything to the comments there, feel free.
It's funny how different one night's sleep can be from the next night's. The night before last I was woken a couple of times with major major nocturnal erections, the kind that push the limits of the device. Last night I slept thru the night without ever waking up at all, and when I finally got up this morning I had no idea if indeed I had an erection while sleeping. Maybe I did and slept thru it and maybe I didn't have one.
I've been doing this on and off long enough to know that my body won't adjust so fast that I would sleep thru a nocturnal without any discomfort after being waken the night before.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that the body is unpredictable, and I have to believe that last night was just a quiet night as far as getting aroused goes.
I've been doing pretty well on the "surfing the internet for things that turn me on" front, which I am finding gets easier with every passing day. Also, I haven't considered masturbating yet but it's only been a few days since my last PIV orgasm, so hopefully I can last a long time.
It's funny how different one night's sleep can be from the next night's. The night before last I was woken a couple of times with major major nocturnal erections, the kind that push the limits of the device. Last night I slept thru the night without ever waking up at all, and when I finally got up this morning I had no idea if indeed I had an erection while sleeping. Maybe I did and slept thru it and maybe I didn't have one.
I've been doing this on and off long enough to know that my body won't adjust so fast that I would sleep thru a nocturnal without any discomfort after being waken the night before.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that the body is unpredictable, and I have to believe that last night was just a quiet night as far as getting aroused goes.
I've been doing pretty well on the "surfing the internet for things that turn me on" front, which I am finding gets easier with every passing day. Also, I haven't considered masturbating yet but it's only been a few days since my last PIV orgasm, so hopefully I can last a long time.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
I had a really good weekend this weekend. On Friday after doing our weekly mowing and yardwork, and getting my daughter from soccer practice, I came home to find my wife dressed to go out and requesting me to get ready to go out as well. We went out for the evening and tried a few placed that we hadn't been before. She was in a really good mood, and seemed very loving and relaxed. I wsa the perfect gentleman, getting her anything she needed, opening the car door for her, everything like what I used to do when we were dating. It felt really nice to do those things. Nothing happened Friday night, which is fine with me really because I think it's important to be able to do things like that and not have my wife feel that it has to lead to something when we get home. She went to bed and I put my device back on and went to bed as well.
On Saturday I got up before her and took my daughter to soccer practice, letting my wife sleep in. When I got home she was up anyway, and we started our day. We did the usual weekend chores around the house but neither one of us was very motivated so we ended up taking the kids someplace they had been dying to go and then we all went out for dinner. Saturday evening we all just hung out at home after dinner and then went to bed. I, of course, put my Holy Trainer on and slipped between the sheets. During the night there was lots of cuddling and we both seemed to enjoy that.
Sunday morning rolled around and we both slept in. We were in that half-awake zone when I started feeling frisky as we layed there. I began to caress her breasts and play with her nipples which I know she loves. This went on for a while, getting more and more intense before she told me "I'm going to the bathroom" and started to get out of bed. I know that's nothing to make note of, but the way she said it was very matter of fact and for whatever reason when she said that it was more like "I'm going to be out of the room for a minute or two, just so you know....hint hint". I guess it was the way she said it and the words she emphasized that made it sound that way. I'm confident that she knows that I wear my HT every night, and I put the key in a very conspicuous place on my nightstand so I know she sees it laying there, so my immediate thought was that she wants me to unlock while she's gone.
I should probably back up a little, and if anyone has been reading my Journey thread then they know that I have been having issues in the bedroom for a while. Performance issues. So in order to hopefully change that I have been abstaining from watching porn, and have been locked as much as possible to keep from being tempted to masturbate. I haven't been able to get or stay nice and hard in a long time and I have reason to believe it has to do (at least partly) with the reasons I just posted. At any rate, before she got out of bed and while I was caressing her and playing with her, I suddenly felt a fullness in my device that told me I had a good erection starting. While I was touching her I could feel it growing until it felt pretty hard, albeit still restricted by my device. When she told me she was leaving the room but would be back, and obviously I needed to be unlocked, the thought crossed my mind as to "how am I going to get this thing off now?". While she was gone I quickly grabbed the key and unlocked. This immediately caused the ring and tube to seperate due to the pressure in the tube and I was able to easily take the tube off. I was worried about getting the ring off, but to my amazement things are still somewhat pliable in that state so it turned out to not be an issue.
When she came back in the room I had finished and was back in bed. She climbed in and we picked up where we left off. As things got more intese I knew it was time to have her have a nice orgasm, and since she wasn't initiating PIV sex I decided to go down on her. I must have performed oral on her for what felt like half an hour, and I could tell she had quite a few orgasms since I could watch her back arch and her body convulse every little while. I was still hard and was leaking a fair share of precum, and was loving every minute of it. When I felt she was done I came back up and we layed there enjoying each other. At that point she reached over and started playing with my hard member. She gently stroked it and it felt great. It was such a good feeling knowing I had a nice hard cock for her to play with and enjoy since it had been so long since that had happened. She continued to stroke me with me laying on my back and it became apparent that this is what she wanted, she wanted to give me a nice handjob so I could cum on my stomach. I enjoyed it for a few minutes, which in itself is surprising since I used to be super sensitive and would cum almost immediately, which would often leave us both disappointed. So she was stroking it nicely and when I felt like it had been long enough I relaxed and let myself cum. She stroked it harder as I came and then followed up with some slower easier strokes after I finished. It felt great. I had considered having her stop before I came to give me a ruined one but then I thought why disrupt such an intimate time.
We got cleaned up and started our day, but for the rest of the day things seemed better and every time I thought about the morning I got a smile on my face.
I'm not sure if this is true or not but I have reason to believe that she saw a definite improvement in the bedroom area over what she was used to, and then ad to that her knowledge that I am normally locked in my Holy Trainer at night, then she may have made that connection that by me being locked in chastity may have contributed to the increased performance. I'm not sure if that came out right or not, but I'm sure you get the idea. My being locked and not watching porn has led me to increased feelings toward her and getting back to my focus being on her and how sexy she is.
If she did come to that conclusion, then I'm pretty sure she won't have an issue with me being locked up anymore, at least this is was a good way to show her the new and improved me.
On Saturday I got up before her and took my daughter to soccer practice, letting my wife sleep in. When I got home she was up anyway, and we started our day. We did the usual weekend chores around the house but neither one of us was very motivated so we ended up taking the kids someplace they had been dying to go and then we all went out for dinner. Saturday evening we all just hung out at home after dinner and then went to bed. I, of course, put my Holy Trainer on and slipped between the sheets. During the night there was lots of cuddling and we both seemed to enjoy that.
Sunday morning rolled around and we both slept in. We were in that half-awake zone when I started feeling frisky as we layed there. I began to caress her breasts and play with her nipples which I know she loves. This went on for a while, getting more and more intense before she told me "I'm going to the bathroom" and started to get out of bed. I know that's nothing to make note of, but the way she said it was very matter of fact and for whatever reason when she said that it was more like "I'm going to be out of the room for a minute or two, just so you know....hint hint". I guess it was the way she said it and the words she emphasized that made it sound that way. I'm confident that she knows that I wear my HT every night, and I put the key in a very conspicuous place on my nightstand so I know she sees it laying there, so my immediate thought was that she wants me to unlock while she's gone.
I should probably back up a little, and if anyone has been reading my Journey thread then they know that I have been having issues in the bedroom for a while. Performance issues. So in order to hopefully change that I have been abstaining from watching porn, and have been locked as much as possible to keep from being tempted to masturbate. I haven't been able to get or stay nice and hard in a long time and I have reason to believe it has to do (at least partly) with the reasons I just posted. At any rate, before she got out of bed and while I was caressing her and playing with her, I suddenly felt a fullness in my device that told me I had a good erection starting. While I was touching her I could feel it growing until it felt pretty hard, albeit still restricted by my device. When she told me she was leaving the room but would be back, and obviously I needed to be unlocked, the thought crossed my mind as to "how am I going to get this thing off now?". While she was gone I quickly grabbed the key and unlocked. This immediately caused the ring and tube to seperate due to the pressure in the tube and I was able to easily take the tube off. I was worried about getting the ring off, but to my amazement things are still somewhat pliable in that state so it turned out to not be an issue.
When she came back in the room I had finished and was back in bed. She climbed in and we picked up where we left off. As things got more intese I knew it was time to have her have a nice orgasm, and since she wasn't initiating PIV sex I decided to go down on her. I must have performed oral on her for what felt like half an hour, and I could tell she had quite a few orgasms since I could watch her back arch and her body convulse every little while. I was still hard and was leaking a fair share of precum, and was loving every minute of it. When I felt she was done I came back up and we layed there enjoying each other. At that point she reached over and started playing with my hard member. She gently stroked it and it felt great. It was such a good feeling knowing I had a nice hard cock for her to play with and enjoy since it had been so long since that had happened. She continued to stroke me with me laying on my back and it became apparent that this is what she wanted, she wanted to give me a nice handjob so I could cum on my stomach. I enjoyed it for a few minutes, which in itself is surprising since I used to be super sensitive and would cum almost immediately, which would often leave us both disappointed. So she was stroking it nicely and when I felt like it had been long enough I relaxed and let myself cum. She stroked it harder as I came and then followed up with some slower easier strokes after I finished. It felt great. I had considered having her stop before I came to give me a ruined one but then I thought why disrupt such an intimate time.
We got cleaned up and started our day, but for the rest of the day things seemed better and every time I thought about the morning I got a smile on my face.
I'm not sure if this is true or not but I have reason to believe that she saw a definite improvement in the bedroom area over what she was used to, and then ad to that her knowledge that I am normally locked in my Holy Trainer at night, then she may have made that connection that by me being locked in chastity may have contributed to the increased performance. I'm not sure if that came out right or not, but I'm sure you get the idea. My being locked and not watching porn has led me to increased feelings toward her and getting back to my focus being on her and how sexy she is.
If she did come to that conclusion, then I'm pretty sure she won't have an issue with me being locked up anymore, at least this is was a good way to show her the new and improved me.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
While there hasn't been anything to report since Sunday morning, I decided to write something just to get my thoughts down.
I have been wearing my HT device pretty much every evening/night since I bought it, and it seems that my body is adapting well. While I still get woken up every now an then with an erection trying to get out, for the most part I sleep quite soundly. I tend not to wear it to work or places during the day although I did decide to wear it today to work. It's almost comforting to know its there, and I've found that I hate to take it off to go to work.
Lately I've noticed that I seem to be much calmer and relaxed, which in turn makes the whole household more calmer and relaxed. I'm not sure if this has something to do with wearing the device, having sex twice in two weeks (which is super rare), or what, but I can certainly sense it.
It wasn't long ago that I would be tense and anxious, and quick to become irritable, but I haven't found that to be the case in the last few weeks. I think part of it is that my wife and I have become more close or intimate with each other even in our everyday lives. She's never been a very affectionate person in general, and this has presented problems in the past, but she seems to be softening up some. I know that with being locked in the device at night I tend to cuddle more, and love to spoon with her, which I know she likes and appreciates. It's funny that I do these things even though she doesn't hold the key for me. I love feeling the device settle into her ass as we spoon together at night, and I can feel her move into it.
I know it's only been a little over a week since we were getting ready to have sex and she found me wearing a device to which she responded with an "eww...you have that thing on again?" which you can read all about in an earlier post, but I think this past weekend really helped with those feelings. I believe that she knows I wear it every night for reasons I've stated previously, and I also believe that her telling me that she was going to go to the bathroom and then come back was her subtle way of telling me to get unlocked before she comes back to bed. I think that when you combine the two in that the first time I was able to quickly unlock so that we could have traditional PIV sex, and then I was also able to unlock and get ready when she left the room the second time, that it has shown her that it's not the restrictive contraption that she initially thought. This would seem to be especially true for the last time we had sex. After I took it off I was completely focused on her and her pleasure, and didn't require anything in return. I was also nice and hard and was able to maintain that while she enjoyed giving me a nice long handjob in return. I know making me feel good makes her feel good, so that was also a win win.
It will be interesting now to see how things unfold. I am just going to keep doing what I'm doing, and see where it leads. I know to think that we'll be intimate three weekends in a row is asking alot, so my gut is telling me that it will most likely be a while before we do that again. On one hand I am curious to see how I react to being denied for a longer period of time, but then again it was alot of fun these last two weekends.
While I'm not pushing anything on her at all, I want to continue to wear it like I am now and to get her more used to seeing and feeling me in it. I believe that she will continue to get used to being around it and seeing it and will hopefully won't be turned off by it anymore, and to a certain extent to get so familiar with it that she doesn't give it a second thought. That's all I really want right now.
I have been wearing my HT device pretty much every evening/night since I bought it, and it seems that my body is adapting well. While I still get woken up every now an then with an erection trying to get out, for the most part I sleep quite soundly. I tend not to wear it to work or places during the day although I did decide to wear it today to work. It's almost comforting to know its there, and I've found that I hate to take it off to go to work.
Lately I've noticed that I seem to be much calmer and relaxed, which in turn makes the whole household more calmer and relaxed. I'm not sure if this has something to do with wearing the device, having sex twice in two weeks (which is super rare), or what, but I can certainly sense it.
It wasn't long ago that I would be tense and anxious, and quick to become irritable, but I haven't found that to be the case in the last few weeks. I think part of it is that my wife and I have become more close or intimate with each other even in our everyday lives. She's never been a very affectionate person in general, and this has presented problems in the past, but she seems to be softening up some. I know that with being locked in the device at night I tend to cuddle more, and love to spoon with her, which I know she likes and appreciates. It's funny that I do these things even though she doesn't hold the key for me. I love feeling the device settle into her ass as we spoon together at night, and I can feel her move into it.
I know it's only been a little over a week since we were getting ready to have sex and she found me wearing a device to which she responded with an "eww...you have that thing on again?" which you can read all about in an earlier post, but I think this past weekend really helped with those feelings. I believe that she knows I wear it every night for reasons I've stated previously, and I also believe that her telling me that she was going to go to the bathroom and then come back was her subtle way of telling me to get unlocked before she comes back to bed. I think that when you combine the two in that the first time I was able to quickly unlock so that we could have traditional PIV sex, and then I was also able to unlock and get ready when she left the room the second time, that it has shown her that it's not the restrictive contraption that she initially thought. This would seem to be especially true for the last time we had sex. After I took it off I was completely focused on her and her pleasure, and didn't require anything in return. I was also nice and hard and was able to maintain that while she enjoyed giving me a nice long handjob in return. I know making me feel good makes her feel good, so that was also a win win.
It will be interesting now to see how things unfold. I am just going to keep doing what I'm doing, and see where it leads. I know to think that we'll be intimate three weekends in a row is asking alot, so my gut is telling me that it will most likely be a while before we do that again. On one hand I am curious to see how I react to being denied for a longer period of time, but then again it was alot of fun these last two weekends.
While I'm not pushing anything on her at all, I want to continue to wear it like I am now and to get her more used to seeing and feeling me in it. I believe that she will continue to get used to being around it and seeing it and will hopefully won't be turned off by it anymore, and to a certain extent to get so familiar with it that she doesn't give it a second thought. That's all I really want right now.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
This morning I got up and my wife was already up and getting ready for work. By the time I was ready to take a shower she was already out of the shower and standing in the bathroom curling her hair. I gathered up my things, took a deep breath because I was still wearing my device, and walked in. For whatever reason I still get a little nervous about being around her and having her see my black holy trainer on. I know she's not use to seeing it yet, and I don't want to shock her and lose any ground that I feel we've gained in this whole experience by telling me she doesn't want to see it anymore or that it disgusts her or something. Anyway, I walked in, put my things down, and chatted with her a little. More or less just trying to break the ice or whatever. I took the key out of my pocked, stripped down naked and stepped into the shower, shutting the door behind me. I'm not sure if she saw anything or not because she was concentrating on what she was doing in the mirror, and I tried to act as casual as I could. Once in the shower I removed it and washed up, washing the device and rinsing it thoroughly. When I was done rinsing it I placed it up on the shower door, knowing this was in full view of her even if she was still looking into the big bathroom mirror we have. To her credit she never said anything, and we chatted a little while I was showering. When I got out she had finished and left, so I dried everything and finished getting ready. She was in our bedroom finishing up when I walked in, and so I opened the nightstand drawer and put my device away. The rest of the morning went normally and off to work we both went.
Maybe I'm not giving her enough credit. She seems to have accepted the fact that I wear a chastity device, and that it hasn't had any sort of a negative impact on our relationship. In fact, I believe it's been a contributing factor to our increased intimacy in general, and I think this may be something that she is figuring out as well. I still want to be respectful and not push things. Right now I don't see a need for her to become my keyholder, and I don't want to wear the device 24/7. I am perfectly fine with just wearing it as much as I do now. Admittedely I would enjoy maybe some tease and denial while locked, or just to have her touch it or play with it, but right now that's not that important. What is important is that she acknowledges and accepts that I wear a device, so that we can both feel comfortable and relaxed in each others presence while I'm wearing it. I think the more she is exposed to it (not in that sense, you know what I mean... ) then the more desensitized she will be toward it, and the more natural it will seem.
Maybe I'm not giving her enough credit. She seems to have accepted the fact that I wear a chastity device, and that it hasn't had any sort of a negative impact on our relationship. In fact, I believe it's been a contributing factor to our increased intimacy in general, and I think this may be something that she is figuring out as well. I still want to be respectful and not push things. Right now I don't see a need for her to become my keyholder, and I don't want to wear the device 24/7. I am perfectly fine with just wearing it as much as I do now. Admittedely I would enjoy maybe some tease and denial while locked, or just to have her touch it or play with it, but right now that's not that important. What is important is that she acknowledges and accepts that I wear a device, so that we can both feel comfortable and relaxed in each others presence while I'm wearing it. I think the more she is exposed to it (not in that sense, you know what I mean... ) then the more desensitized she will be toward it, and the more natural it will seem.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
This morning was kind of funny in that when the alarm went off for me (my wife was already up and picking out clothes in our room) I had a serious nocturnal erection. It was so obvious that I had to turn off the alarm and climb back into bed to let the swelling go down. 
I'm happy that I'm getting these on a pretty regular basis as I wasn't sure if I was anymore and then combined with the previous lack of getting an erection when fooling around with my wife had me a little concerned. The last couple of weeks have got me feeling more positive about the whole situation. The nocturnal ones don't seem to be uncomfortable anymore either, and I haven't been woken up by them in a while. The one this morning just happened to present itself because the alarm woke me up, and anytime I wake up in the middle of the night with one it's not painful at all and I can easily roll over and go back to sleep. Must be everything is adapting well and my scrotum must have stretched to a point where it isn't drawn so tight anymore.
I did the usual bathroom/shower thing this morning but my wife and I were on different schedules so we didn't have much interaction.
I'm happy that I'm getting these on a pretty regular basis as I wasn't sure if I was anymore and then combined with the previous lack of getting an erection when fooling around with my wife had me a little concerned. The last couple of weeks have got me feeling more positive about the whole situation. The nocturnal ones don't seem to be uncomfortable anymore either, and I haven't been woken up by them in a while. The one this morning just happened to present itself because the alarm woke me up, and anytime I wake up in the middle of the night with one it's not painful at all and I can easily roll over and go back to sleep. Must be everything is adapting well and my scrotum must have stretched to a point where it isn't drawn so tight anymore.
I did the usual bathroom/shower thing this morning but my wife and I were on different schedules so we didn't have much interaction.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
This past weekend was really busy and by the time my wife and I got to bed we were both so exhausted that we just went to sleep. While this meant that our streak of fooling around on Sunday morning stopped at two weeks (not much of a streak), it also ensured that I would stay without an orgasm for at least a week and next weekend we are doing some traveling with the kids so I'm pretty sure nothing will happen then either. While Sunday morning started showing some signs of fooling around, these were cut short when the phone rang at about 8:30 in the morning (never usually a good thing) only to find out it was a telemarketer. It ended up breaking the mood and we just ended up getting up anyway, albeit with my locked cock leaking some precum.
While I still enjoy wearing my device, I'm starting to feel that it isn't entirely necessary at this point. I don't really feel the need to masturbate like I used to, and I've pretty much stopped looking for porn anymore. I think it would be smart to keep wearing it just in case, and to avoid a slip up, my view on wearing it have certainly changed. Anymore it just seems like something I do as part of my daily routine, and I don't get turned on by simply wearing it like I used to in the beginning. It's simply something I wear.
I wonder sometimes if my wife even realizes that I'm wearing it every night even though it often gets pressed into her back side when we spoon. She does see it on occasion in the bathroom in the morning, but there can be days between those times since we are sometimes on different schedules all together. I sometimes feel like an idiot wearing it because she couldn't care less if I do and I don't feel right now that I need to wear it for my own reasons. I think I'll keep doing it so that I don't want to loose any momentum that we may have going on as far as chastity is concerned. I also seem to be a calmer person in general by practicing chastity, which is a big plus.
While I still enjoy wearing my device, I'm starting to feel that it isn't entirely necessary at this point. I don't really feel the need to masturbate like I used to, and I've pretty much stopped looking for porn anymore. I think it would be smart to keep wearing it just in case, and to avoid a slip up, my view on wearing it have certainly changed. Anymore it just seems like something I do as part of my daily routine, and I don't get turned on by simply wearing it like I used to in the beginning. It's simply something I wear.
I wonder sometimes if my wife even realizes that I'm wearing it every night even though it often gets pressed into her back side when we spoon. She does see it on occasion in the bathroom in the morning, but there can be days between those times since we are sometimes on different schedules all together. I sometimes feel like an idiot wearing it because she couldn't care less if I do and I don't feel right now that I need to wear it for my own reasons. I think I'll keep doing it so that I don't want to loose any momentum that we may have going on as far as chastity is concerned. I also seem to be a calmer person in general by practicing chastity, which is a big plus.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Re: [newbie] Starting again
Alot of things had been going thru my head as you might have read in my last post here.
We hadn't talked about my wearing of the HT in quite a while and I wasn't sure if she had forgotten about it or was simply ignoring it.
Last night as we were getting ready for bed I finally brought up the subject. I can't recall the exact words that were said, but I brought it up as
ME: "I'm hoping that you can become more comfortable being around me wearing my device, because lately I've been feeling like I have to be secretive about wearing it around you because I know you aren't into it".
HER:"you don't need to be sneaky about it, I know you wear it".
That in itself was a relief, so we continued...
ME: "well if I wear it then you might see it from time to time, and you might feel it in bed"
HER: "I know, I know you wear it".
So to reiterate, I said.....
ME: "you know I wear it every night to bed then"
HER: "yes". "I just don't like it when you're wearing it when we fool around"
ME: "but you know I can take it off in like two seconds, so that shouldn't be an issue"
HER: "true".
So then I asked her if it was the color, if it woudn't turn her off so much if it wasn't black. She said it doesn't make a difference with the color, that "it is what it is".
We then rolled over, her in the lovely spooning position (which she seems to do alot these days) and me in tight behind her with my HT snuggly into her back side, and drifted off to sleep.
I was pretty aroused and relieved from our conversation, and it was so nice to hear that she acknowledged that she was well aware that I was wearing the device on a nightly basis and was completely ok with that. That when I cuddled in close to her what she was feeling was the HT and not "her" penis.
Mornings in the bathroom should no longer be a source of anxiety for me since she admittedly will see me wearing the device when I strip down, and she is ok with that.
I know this seems like a small step, but I think in the bigger picture it will make everything more "normal" between us and could eventually lead to us exploring more and going further into chastity.
Right not this is all I need. I love my wife so much for her patience and understanding. We have felt closer lately with more touching, caressing, and kissing. It's all good.
We hadn't talked about my wearing of the HT in quite a while and I wasn't sure if she had forgotten about it or was simply ignoring it.
Last night as we were getting ready for bed I finally brought up the subject. I can't recall the exact words that were said, but I brought it up as
ME: "I'm hoping that you can become more comfortable being around me wearing my device, because lately I've been feeling like I have to be secretive about wearing it around you because I know you aren't into it".
HER:"you don't need to be sneaky about it, I know you wear it".
That in itself was a relief, so we continued...
ME: "well if I wear it then you might see it from time to time, and you might feel it in bed"
HER: "I know, I know you wear it".
So to reiterate, I said.....
ME: "you know I wear it every night to bed then"
HER: "yes". "I just don't like it when you're wearing it when we fool around"
ME: "but you know I can take it off in like two seconds, so that shouldn't be an issue"
HER: "true".
So then I asked her if it was the color, if it woudn't turn her off so much if it wasn't black. She said it doesn't make a difference with the color, that "it is what it is".
We then rolled over, her in the lovely spooning position (which she seems to do alot these days) and me in tight behind her with my HT snuggly into her back side, and drifted off to sleep.
I was pretty aroused and relieved from our conversation, and it was so nice to hear that she acknowledged that she was well aware that I was wearing the device on a nightly basis and was completely ok with that. That when I cuddled in close to her what she was feeling was the HT and not "her" penis.
Mornings in the bathroom should no longer be a source of anxiety for me since she admittedly will see me wearing the device when I strip down, and she is ok with that.
I know this seems like a small step, but I think in the bigger picture it will make everything more "normal" between us and could eventually lead to us exploring more and going further into chastity.
Right not this is all I need. I love my wife so much for her patience and understanding. We have felt closer lately with more touching, caressing, and kissing. It's all good.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.
Last PIV: been a while
Device used: CB6000s, Holy Trainer V2 (part time) Black Short and Clear Standard.
Currently locked part time in a Clear Holy Trainer V2 Standard, 40mm ring.