[cuyahoga] Chapter Two

[cuyahoga]

Nice encounter last night. It had been an evening on the couch, and “yeah, we can watch one more episode…” So when we laid down and cuddled, it was pretty late for two people that had to be up early. She started touching me gently, and said that we needed an evening soon where we didn’t watch one more.

A few minutes later, she was still teasing me, and then muttered “fuck it”, rolled on to her back and moved my hand down to her mound. She was ready, and horny, which was pretty surprising, and then it didn’t take much work from my fingers before she was close, which was also surprising.

She pushed me onto my back and then slid her clit along my cock trapped between us, working herself closer and closer. Then she slid me into her, and kept fighting to hold off her own orgasm as I edged a couple of times. Finally, she pulled off of me, and went back to grinding her clit on my cock. I had to fight to not orgasm while she came.

Then we cuddled to sleep, and it was wonderful. No begging for an orgasm from me, just a mutual understanding that I wasn’t going to cum, which is a cool way to fuck.

No mention of the cage yet. No idea why.

[cuyahoga]

Saturday night, she gave me a present. A lubed hand job, tons of teasing, and tons of edges, until she finally, and very slowly, dragged me over the edge into a full orgasm.

Then a reminder that I’m still on restriction.

[cuyahoga]

Last night was a date night to celebrate a milestone in our marriage, and ended with a long and sexy entanglement where I was permitted another orgasm. I know that I will definitely be denied for the next three weeks or so, when we have a special trip planned.

[cuyahoga]

We had a couple of fun sexual encounters over the past weekend, no mention of orgasm for me. I really enjoy having sex with her and the subject of my orgasm just not coming up. Just mutual understanding that it’s not going to happen.

In one week, we will leave for our special trip together. We’re celebrating our anniversary. This tease was prompted as a special anniversary/ birthday gift for me. With the two orgasms in the middle, it’s definitely been more like two short teases.

There’s been zero mention of the cage. That’s making me sad and a little resentful. I don’t want to be, but there’s a lot of history here, and it’s hard to ignore it. I have a feeling this tease ends on that trip, and we go back to vanilla. That’s going to be hard to swallow, and I really don’t want to try to have another fruitless conversation about it.

I’m not in a good mental space right now (re: chastity / orgasms / sex).

[cuyahoga]

Special trip, lots of sex, couple of good orgasms. Not sure where we stand, but I’m pretty sure the denial period is over.

Did not use the cage at all, and I really don’t want to ask why. I don’t think there’s any answer that won’t just make me sad.

[cuyahoga]

I’m very sad (don’t worry; not that sad). There’s been no mention of anything. Feels like square one, and I have no desire to hash this out. No desire to open communications on this. I can feel myself going into my cave, disconnecting, giving up. I don’t know how to move forward, or move on. I’m stuck.

[cuyahoga]

Sad to worse. Absolutely no mention of it. No acknowledgement to even say, “Hey, I know, but …” There was even a situation over the summer where we were guests in a friends’ house, and we had sex, but I really didn’t want to leave a mess on the sheets. So I held off, and the next morning, she teased me a bit. When we got home, she had a chance to keep it going, and clearly told me to orgasm. That was July.

At that point, I really thought there would at least be some acknowledgment. Even if she didn’t want to play, at least let me know that she knew it was something important to me.

So our vanilla sex life has continued, and I have gotten sadder and more withdrawn. So a few days ago, while we were having sex, I decided not to orgasm. She did tease me a bit the next morning as we cuddled, and then we had sex again a couple of nights later, where she didn’t try to control it, she just asked if I was going to, and let me tease myself with her body for a bit when I said I didn’t want to.

Monday morning when she left for work, I put the cage on. She didn’t notice last night when we cuddled, but she did this morning. She touched it, barely, a couple of times, and then abruptly ended our cuddling saying she wanted to wake up and get coffee before she had to get ready.

Her only question was to ask when I put it on, and no other comments. She did pat it when we hugged and kissed as she left for work.

I have no idea where this is going to go. I’m thinking about the chaster app to take some determination of time frames out of my knowledge, to hide the duration from myself. I haven’t decided how long to go without an orgasm, or how much to wear the cage. It’s still too early to tell whether this will even be a good experience with this. Caging myself is generally not what I enjoy, but I waited for 14 months.

[ARK]

Glad to see you back.

Hopefully your journey goes well. Go slow and enjoy the little accomplishments.

[InversionOfControl]

Agreed, welcome back. Wishing yall the best

[Tongue+groove]

14 months is a lot of patience. Congratulations your moving forward. She did touch it and question you about it.