[cshorts] My (our) journey

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Haven't felt like writing the past month. No particular reason: things are good. SL has been teasing / playing with me less on the weeknights … not sure why. But I haven't said anything, yet at least. It's her prerogative, and it hasn't been a desert.

She has been wanting PIV most weeks. A couple of times with strap-on, but mostly having me unlock and then “suit up”: numbing cream and condom, no O for me.

Today however she said lube only, then in the middle of fucking, she said “this is about you”. On her orders I started focusing on my pleasure. She still came (third time), and in fact, an extra powerful, loud O. And so did I, equally loud and powerful. As we lay in each other’s arms, she smiled and said “We squirted at the same time.”

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26 May 2024

Surprise release and O. Maybe because it was anniversary (22nd) sex? (Anniversary was 5/25, but plane from London delayed, she got home late at night.)

21 days. RESTART

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SL had me read an erotic story. Usually she cuddles alongside me when I do, teasing me in various ways, often going down on me (with or without cage). Today, though, she Liberator under my hips, got out a prostate massager and lube, then lay down on top of me and cuddled. While I was reading, she started tweaking my nipple, gradually increasing the intensity. Then switching to her teeth. Yow! After chewing on each for a while, getting me to squirm and yelp, she slid down, and lubed her fingers and my ass.

She’s become very comfortable fingering my ass and stroking my prostate, with a gloved and lubed inner. She really went to town, alternately deep play with more shallow, but rapid, stimulation of my prostate. Heaven.

Then she lubed the vibe and slid it in. My knees were up by my chest, opening me wide to her hands, the vibe, and her eyes. Her placement of the vibe was excellent, and she thrust it in and out, further stimulating my prostate. I started to thrash and my groans got louder and more frantic. I reached my arms up to grab the rails of our headboard, and spread my knees wider. And she started hitting my balls and the flesh below them! All the while doing great things with the vibe.

I was startled - she hit me harder than usual. And I started going wild, Yelping, making gibberish sounds, foaming at the mouth, squealing. She started laughing, clearly enjoying herself. And she kept it up, hitting my balls while playing with the vibe until I was practically screaming … in pleasure. Though hitting harder than usual, she aimed the worst blows just below the balls, and the pain was quite tolerable. No, not tolerable, exquisite, enhancing the overwhelming stimulation of my prostate. I swear, I don't think I'll ever have a true anal orgasm after not having one today. Any more excitement and pleasure and I think my heart would give out before I reached orgasm. Holy cow!

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Discovered that I haven't posted my last several journal entries (I write these initially in my private journal, then post them here). So, it's catch up day.

14 July 2024

First morning of our Canadian Rockies adventure. We planned for our usual Sunday special time, tho it started with breakfast in the lodge, not in bed (no room service). During the playtime part of the morning, SL got me very ramped up with CBT and nipple torture, then gave me the key to uncage and instructed me that I was to have an orgasm “or else”. After other play, including her first several Os from fingers and tongue, we had a delicious fuck (she later said she came “two times, three, maybe more … I lost count” … with Bob the wand’s help) and I had the best O I remember having in some time.

RESTART 49 days

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9 Aug 2024

SL seems to be growing further into embracing and asserting her sexuality ... and controlling mine. We kept our granddaughter (whom we’re caring for while her parents vacation in Germany) home from childcare all this week so we could have all the time with her, but SL wanted to bring her there for a few hours today ... so we could have sexytime. "I enjoy your goodnight kisses (oral), but fucking is even better."

I was naked (at the piano when she got back, with her wand plugged in and the lube set out by the bed ... and that's where she led me. She gave me the key to unlock, then almost immediately proceeded to torture me with ball crushing and nipple biting. She continues to get more sadistically aggressive -- two nights this week while I was reading erotica to her she pushed me so hard I had to stop reading and bite down hard on a pillow to keep from waking the toddler. This morning she had me crying out so loudly, to the point of nearly screaming, that I even worried about neighbors who might be walking by outside, and started to wonder how much more she could push me before I had to safeword out.

Oh Lordy, I was rock hard and quite literally aching for release, and leaking precum all over. Next she grabbed her wand and started in on herself, my signal to lube my fingers and start playing with her G and A spots. She rocketed to a couple of explosions, and took a short breather, but not long before she said "mount me!". As I got in position, she asked if I had brought condoms -- no, forgot to restock my travel bag -- but instructed me I was NOT allowed to cum ... if I did, she would not touch me sexually for a week, *and* not let me go down on her for the week. ("But that would be unfair to you!" "Yes, but it's the only real punishment for you ... and besides, I didn't say I wouldn't use Bob" (her name for her wand).)

She was really revved up and she started yelling out as I entered, and kept crying out and getting louder as we went. I usually scoff when guys say this, but I swear I was harder and larger than usual ... and she was reacting more than usual (she really loves penetration). Two big Os later, she pushed me off and pulled me down on her, chest to chest, to cuddle and settle down. Five or so minutes later I asked if she wanted to feel my razor-clean face (6 days a week I use my electric shaver, normally razor only before Sunday mornings, but I prepared as if Sunday today), and she smiled and said yes so I went down on her for one more O. Then we spooned as she drifted off to sleep. Wow...this was one of the best times ever I remember with her ... we felt so close and connected, at the same time that we were delirious with raw primal passion.

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20 October 2024

We’re in Ann Arbor for the annual company bbq. SL has brunch at 11.30 with a friend, it wanted an abbreviated Sunday sexytime. I brought breakfast up from the hotel coffee shop, wake up kiss (oral), then gave her a shortened foot rub. Then a lovely romp … with me uncaged. Brief bj to get me warmed up, some ball and nipple torture. Went down on her again (with a great response), then she wanted me inside … not suited up and “no self control” (meaning, I should cum). Great fuck — she had two more orgasms (at least, one went on a long time), the first a “super” O. And I finished with a very powerful O of my own. Some cuddle time, then she was off to see her friend.

46 days. RESTART

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3 Nov 2024

Today’s Sunday playtime was different! Same initial routine: I got up to shower, shave, and prepare breakfast in bed (today baked a Sticky Lemon Curd and Blueberry Bread). Then gave my SL the usual 80 minute or so footrub, during which we had “book club” (today talking about chapter 10 in Emily Nagoski’s new book, *Come Together*).

But then, after a few minutes of making out, SL instructed me to prepare the underbed restraints: something she hasn’t used in over a year. (Indeed, coincidentally, we have scheduled an “Emily Morse 3Ts” conversation for this coming Weds evening, and I was going to use that time to ask about whether she wasn’t comfortable restraining me since it had been so long). She got out all of our impact implements (crop, flogger, tawse and strap), and used each of them on me for a while. Mostly on my butt, but some strokes to my back, and some to the back of my balls she had me restrained face down).

Then she released one ankle, had me flip over, and reconnected my ankle. With me face up, she gave me a number of flogger lashes to my caged cock and my balls, and used the crop (but rather gently) on my pierced nipples.

Much of this was mildly stimulating but not what I’d call painful, though some of the strokes (particularly with the tawse and the crop) on my ass had me biting down on the sheets and vocalizing!

Some novel twists (for her): she would stroke me with one of the implements for a bit, then take a break and go do something in the bathroom (like brush her teeth … not always sure what she did because I couldn’t sit up to look that direction). I didn’t know how long she would leave me alone, bound to the bed, or if we were even done.

After putting me on my back (still restrained), she got out the key for my cage, so I assumed she was going to free me and ride me cowgirl to an O. But apparently she changed her mind, because the key never got used and I stayed caged.

Instead, after the first round of flogging my genitals while I was on my back, she climbed up and sat on my face, riding me to two noisy orgasms for her. Then climbed down, took another break, then came back with the crop to my nips.

After that she released me and instructed me to come bathe her (in the shower), and to shave her legs. I gave her a long, thorough hair wash, conditioning, and body scrub (she likes using a salt scrub), followed by shaving her legs: she was standing over me while I knelt on a folded towel she had thoughtfully placed on the shower floor during one of her earlier breaks.

After I dried her off and we got out of the shower, she informed me I was released from service and we were done for the morning (well, 1pm now )

The disciplining, as I mentioned, was mostly mild, and even when more forceful was not pushing me as far as I hope she will some day. Both intensity, and the duration of each set of strokes (with the different implements), left me wanting more. But she is clearly trying to up her domme game for me, and I am very grateful for that and optimistic about the trajectory, especially since we continue with book club (which is improving our comfort and effectiveness in talking about sex, fantasies, and desires), and are adding in the Morse 3Ts conversations (for now on a monthly scheduled basis: this coming Weds is the first).

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(Catch up post)

23 Nov 2024

Had a wonderful, and even longer than usual time together this morning (9am - 1:30pm!). Long and interesting conversation about the next to last chapter of Emily Nagoski’s new book, *Come Together.* When we got down and dirty, SL immediately had me uncage, then started off with some medium ball crushing and then a really nasty (thank you mistress!) nipple twisting. Then she ordered me to “suit up” (which means put on numbing cream and condom so I can service her as long as she would like, without my having an O). I went down on her to warm her up (she is *so* responsive to oral), then, well, *railed* her. I don’t usually do jackhammer-style fucking, but when I sped up a bit at one point her cries of pleasure increased in volume and frequency, so I increased in frequency too and it seemed to be spot on. She had a big O, rested a bit (with me still inside), then revved up for round 2. She generally seems to get the most pleasure from relatively shallow penetration, focused on the entrance and her g spot, but lately she’s also been very turned on by deeper and harder penetration (I have 7-7.5 inches so can reach her cervix, which is risky, but sometimes just what the doctor ordered). After her round 2 O (which was the 4th or 5th of the morning including warmups), she was panting and cooing and generally over the moon.

We lay cuddling for a while, and I thought we be done. But then she got up, told me she wasn’t done, and strapped on our 7” Vixskin dildo and lubed me up. A few months ago she discovered that she can fuck me much more comfortably, and with more stamina, when she is standing with me also standing and bent over the bed. I discovered that she not only lasts longer, but she can rail *me* in that position … and she proceeded to do so. This time, shortly after she started pounding me, she reached down and grabbed my balls and started crushing them at the same time as she fucked my ass: wow! My head was spinning with the double delight of pain and pleasure — the triple pleasure actually, because her growing dominance is a delightful mindfuck. I didn’t come — never have yet from anal / prostate stimulation, which is also special because despite receiving the pleasure of a long fucking and ball-crushing session, it was still tease and denial, leaving me super hard and horny at the end. What a treat!

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30 Nov 2024

Another Saturday session (Sunday conflict). Yesterday was travel day (return from Thanksgiving week with son A and his family), and SL was too tired to read a chapter of Nagoski's, so no book club … instead we answered a few questions from the “Our Moments” card deck. (I was a wee bit disappointed because we’re on the last chapter of Nagoski's, and SL proposed our next book be “Femdom for Nice Girls” and I'm really looking forward to that — very excited that *she* suggested it! But I can wait another week.)

I hinted by setting out nipple clamps — the ones with the teeth that are quite fierce. She applied them and tugged on the chain multiple times while we were playing …. very intense, very wonderful. And she had me remove the cage. She spent some time playing with my cock, then used the Magic Wand on it while bugging on the clamps … it wasn't long before I was close to losing control and told her to stop. She bridled at that, reminding me that I'm not to tell her what to do —if I'm near coming, it’s my job to hold off. I can let her know, but she decides what to do (or not do). As punishment she stopped playing with me and told me to ‘suit up” (condom with a healthy dab of numbing cream). She used the wand on herself while I did, then I used a clit-sucking toy on her for a bit — she seemed to enjoy it, but it's not the magic experience that some women report (SL gets the “magic” from her wand — always been her favorite toy).

Then we fucked (while she, as usual, used her wand on herself clit). I seemed to be more engorged than usual after her playing with me, so harder and bigger. She really likes my girth, and before long I found the angle and rhythm that most stimulates her g-spot (and a-spot? My cock is big and penetrates pretty deeply if I let it). She had three super intense orgasms (with a break to recover between each) — even she commented on how strong they were today, but I could see had hear that without being told. Wow! I get such a thrill from her pleasure. (Lucky me…since I was very numb. I get a mildly pleasurable feeling fucking while suited up — I feel more than when I'm caged and using the strap-on, but not much more. But I love giving her pleasure, and that I can last indefinitely — always longer than she needs or wants. I’m always ready and willing to continue.

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Another amazing morning. We read the last chapter of Nagoski’s book (*Come Together*) which was about experiencing erotic ecstasy (she calls it “the magic trick”; she means something transcendent, well beyond “mere” sexual pleasure. We both thought the chapter a bit woo-woo, though we recognize that ecstasy is possible. But then, during play time: wow. She got me very wound up with nipple biting and the wartenberg wheel, then started fucking me with a vibrating prostate toy. While fucking me, my ass propped up on our Liberator wedge pillow, she continued teasing me with the wheel — it's very stimulating almost everywhere she uses it, but it instantly doubles in intensity when she applies it to my scrotum: jiminy! She also slapped my balls several times (not my cock, which was caged of course). But, the protstate: she found its sensitive spots better than she ever has before, and worked them over, with a side-to-side and twisting motion, that did more for me than she ever has. I was squealing and gasping and getting hysterical. At one point I realized this was much more powerful than any feeling I can remember from having my penis in a vagina. I didn't have an orgasm, but quite a bit of seminal fluid was squeezed out. After I just lay there recovering for about ten minutes, with her lying beside me, cuddling. Perhaps the most ecstatic sexual experience I've ever had.

And then, when I'd recovered enough to start returning the cuddles, and starting to kiss her, she told me to strap on. We fucked in her favorite position: modified missionary with my feet folded back under my butt, the back of her thighs up on my thighs to elevate and angle her vagina some the dildo stroked her g and a-spots directly, and me leaning back, away from her, to increase the angle and pressure of the dildo on her special spots. And she used her magic wand on her clit. Nothing unusual, but, for her as for me, it went over the top. She was squealing and panting and thrashing and making hysterical noises, just as I been. She started cumming and it just wouldn't stop: I kept moving inside her and she kept squealing and spasming for a long time. Then she collapsed, but after a few minutes of recovery (with the dildo resting inside her), I started gently moving again, and she signaled she wanted more by re-starting the wand. And it happened again: she was transported, savoring and lost in the overwhelming pleasure, and when she came it again was huge and long-lasting. We both thought she had a huge ejaculation, but later we were surprised to find the bed relatively dry. She was spasming so hard and was so wet it had felt like a flood.

After another several minutes of recovery, with me lying on her, “second cock” inside her, she laughed and said “wel, maybe we got more out of that chapter than we thought! That was amazing..” we felt so fortunate to both have such a peak, ecstatic experience, the same morning. Lots of words of love and gratitude and appreciation.