[Chosen_Jackal] Pinch me, is this really happening?

[Chosen_Jackal]

What is this? Two status updates in one day?
Well it’s my journey and I’ll do whatever I want

Red’s been busy today, so we haven’t had the chance to be together as much as I’d like, but I’ve managed.
At one point I got the idea to ask her if maybe I could change to a different cage. I’m so tired of the empty void of outer space, as I believe Herbie called it, that even the flat cage seems like a tempting change. Maybe even the negative one…

Well Red wasn’t having it. She beckoned me closer and started teasing my nipple and ball sack while she asked me in a patronizing tone “do you feel anything now?”
I nodded and enjoyed the attention, and then she told me to pull my pants down, go lie on the bed and squeeze my balls and pinch my nipple on my own since I was so desperate to feel anything.
She told me to do it for ten minutes.

It was both humiliating and exciting since I knew Red was keeping an eye on me while she worked.
After what I stupidly believed was ten minutes I stopped, and she immediately asked me what I thought I was doing?
I should have anticipated that she had a timer going, so I got back to it and kept going until the timer rang.

She then listed some chores she felt I needed to do and sent me downstairs.

I love that woman.

I got to massage her feet and shoulder and now we’re heading for bed…

[Tongue+groove]

All I can say is awesome.

[Chosen_Jackal]

Life has its ups and downs. I’ve healed well from my surgery, but I have some issues processing food properly so there’s a lot of trial and error in finding out just how much I can eat and what types of foods I can tolerate.
I’m also periodically suffering from inflammation in my right foot, and while there’s been relatively few flare ups over the last couple of years and they usually go away on their own after a day or two, this time it’s different.
Extreme pain and it’s been going on for five days now. It makes it hard for me to do all the things I want to do in the house as I can barely walk.

Anyway, there’s some good as well.
Red needed her little sleeping pill last night and whilst she didn’t feel like doing too much I got to hold her tight, kiss her, and caress her body as she used the small bullet vibrator to cum.
I believe the right term for Red is Demi sexual, which means she needs an emotional connection to really hit it off with someone, and she tells me it feels so much better when I wrap her in my arms and she feels my body close to hers.
It’s quite romantic when you think about it.

Now, another thing I have mixed feelings about happened right before we administered Reds little sleeping pill.
I’ve never been very interested in having my nipples played with before, but we’ve discovered that they’re quite sensitive since we started chastity. Now that my penis is largely off the table for stimulation I take whatever I can get.
Red found a way to drive the stimulation into overdrive by flicking her finger quite forcefully back and forth over my nipple. This led to a sensation of pain mixed with tickling, while also being highly erotic at the same time.
I’m almost embarrassed about how I would consent to almost anything to get her to stop while also wanting her to continue as it felt amazing in a way.
The thought of being restrained while she’s doing this to me makes me hard even just writing about it, and I could see an evil glee in Reds eyes as she saw the potential of this treatment.
I find myself hoping and dreading that she will do this and similar things to me in the future.

Oh, I’m a stupid man. I introduced her to he concept of post orgasm torture yesterday and she didn’t seem opposed to this. Another thing I have extremely mixed feelings about

[Tongue+groove]

Mrs. G figured out post o torture many years ago. She will take it to the point that I go numb and can’t feel anything. It’s painfully exciting.

In chastity she prefers to ruin the o, then use the dribbles (natural lube in her words) to keep me hard and play with me until it’s all gone. With a ruin there’s not all the sensitivity just the struggle to cum again.

As for nipples we have gotten to the point that she can send me into neo’s with just nipple work. She can be so rough that the skin on them will become calloused and take a few days for new skin to return.

Isn’t life grand.

[Chosen_Jackal]

I un/fortunately have no issues cumming shortly after having a ruined orgasm. It’s like I shoot my load with little to no sensation and immediately reload and I’m ready for the real deal. The following orgasm isn’t anything like a real orgasm, but it’s definitely more than a ruined o.

[Chosen_Jackal]

Today is day 16 since I last had a "real" orgasm. My current record is 18 days, and judging by how Red felt after we last talked about it I’m not going to get one in a long time yet.
The thought of that fills me with excitement. I love how my body keeps telling me that it needs to release soon. It fills me with desire for Red and I’m constantly horny now.
It took a while for the build up to properly start after my last orgasm.
I think it took at least a week before I started to feel much of anything down there and it’s only increased in intensity over the last few days.
I’m curious from others who have gone longer without release if it it’s likely to be a constant build up of frustration and arousal or if it’s going to come in waves?
Please feel free to post your experiences here.

I needed to shower and clean properly down there yesterday. It’s become a habit for us to have Red casually watch me while I shower. I find it hot and it excites me that I’m being monitored while I clean. I feel exposed and vulnerable, but also turned on. I can tell that Red enjoys watching me.
I guess I’ve gotten greedy or at least presumptuous.
I’ve gotten used to receiving an edging or a ruined orgasm when she’s watched me like this until now, but it was clear that wasn’t on the table yesterday.
Red still not very dominant in the classic sense, but she’s getting more and more comfortable with controlling my pleasure.
She saw the expectation in my eyes and asked if I wanted to put it in her mouth.
I eagerly agreed, but she stopped me from doing so and just teased my tip with her tongue for a second or two before she told me to lock up.
That wasn’t easy as I grew harder and harder, but somehow I managed.

We ended the night with her getting one of her little sleeping pills. I love how hot she is when she’s moaning with pleasure and nothing gives me more satisfaction than being able to give her that. I’ve gotten so used to being in the cage that it’s almost like me penis knows it’s no use trying to get fully hard, but last night was different. It was almost painful how hard it tried to press through the cage. Painful and delightful.

A final note. I’ve never been a leaker. I get incredibly aroused but there’s nothing leaking out. Red has gotten more and more into the idea of me leaking while in the cage and I stupidly suggested I’m not allowed out until that happens. She eagerly agreed to this.
I don’t even know I’m capable of leaking!
Why do I say these things?!?

[Tongue+groove]

. it’s almost like me penis knows it’s no use trying to get fully hard,

Yup, that’s me when I get cleaned up. I had a similar incident last night . I truly think our girls talk. Behind our backs.

As for leaking give it time and tease. I’m to the point that sometimes she teases me until I leak just for the sake of leaking. She thinks it’s fun to leave me with wet undies for the day. I’m not allowed to change, she wants me to know what she has to deal with.

Sometime back I was required to leak every day before she left for work. It was fun and I guess i learned a little about her world.

[Chosen_Jackal]

I believe Red would enjoy putting me through that as well. My only concern is that some people aren’t wired to leak like others are. I’ve never been one to emit any sort of precum during sex or masturbation so there’s a part of me that doubt I’ll be able to do so.
I’m certainly up for more teasing from Red though
All in the name of science

[Chosen_Jackal]

It’s hard being this aroused all the time and waking up knowing that nothings going to happen until tomorrow at the very earliest. Tomorrow marks 18 days since I last had an orgasm. My current record is 18 days and I know I won’t be cumming tomorrow, but I’ll at least be able to change to a different cage.
I’m looking forwards to that, but the cobra nub is also becoming so safe and familiar now that I’m suddenly starting to have doubts if I really want to change. Luckily it’s up to Red to decide and not me.

I also have another cage on the way in the mail. It’s quite short, but a little more close off than my other metal cages, thus (hopefully) making it harder for me to touch myself through the bars. I’m a notorious fidgeter.
It’s also got a thicker urethral tube than the ones I’ve got so far and it’s also got a bulged end, so I’m confident it’s going to work better for long term wear.
I hope Red will let me try it out and change it if we need to when it arrives.

I’ve mentioned this earlier, but Red is in her busiest part of the year for her work. She stopped working at midnight last night and while she’s taking some breaks her and there during the day, her mind isn’t on sex most of the time. Yesterday I was less than subtle in how I showed how my ch I desired her and she firmly shut me down at least two times. I told her that she’s more than welcome to make some rules for me and I’ll do my very best to adhere to them.
She said that she welcomes my advances most of the time and finds them flattering, so it’s easier to just tell me when they’re too much.

That didn’t mean she didn’t want her sleeping pill when bedtime came though.
It started with her snuggling up to me and fondling my balls for a little while.
It felt so lovely and good, but as horny as I was it was also frustrating. It was nice yes, but also frustrating because I knew that it wasn’t going to be anything more than that nice and cozy feeling.
I can’t remember exactly how long she was at it, but I can’t tell you it didn’t feel like nearly enough when she stopped and focused shifted back to her.

She’d pulled her small vibrator out and I asked if she wanted the dildo or anything else, but she wasn’t in the mood for making things more complicated than needed. Just her vibrator and my fingers.
It’s nice to keep it simple and just focus on our connection as well. I have tendency to want to do more elaborate and kinky stuff, but it’s important to do it this way sometimes to put things into perspective.

So she came and that means the end of playtime.
She’s turning more and more into a man!
I’m starting to understand how so many women around the world must feel!
Being left there, horny and unsatisfied after their partner has had their orgasm, feeling the sexual frustration lingering in their bodies.
Longing for more as their partner turns around and prepare to drift into blissful sleep, satisfied and happy.

We briefly talked about it before we fell asleep, and I told her she deserved a hundred orgasms for every one I get, and she didn’t disagree.
I chose this lifestyle and I enjoy almost every aspect of it.
I at lest get to snuggle up to her and spoon her delicious bubbly butt as we both fell asleep.

As always, thoughts and replies are welcome!

[Tongue+groove]

. It’s nice to keep it simple and just focus on our connection as well.

Without the connection none of this is possible. There’s a difference between making love and fucking.

You sir, made love to your wife. It was what she needed and it helped you to reset your mind. It was good.


Around our house we focus on using the KISS approach with almost everything.

Keep It Simple Stupid