[Eddie] A Touch Here and a Touch There

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LuckyEddie
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Re: [Eddie] A Touch Here and a Touch There

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Well, been locked for a full week now (I know, does not seem like much to some of you), and its not really a record for me, it just “is”.

I was re-reading my posts here and noted that I tend to go back and forth a bit with what she wants and what she does. 2 posts ago I said that “She is now demanding that I remain caged”, and while that is truthful it didn’t go as far as it could have. She has asked that I cage, but there is no follow-up, no verification, just a small guilt trip (honestly, small) if she notes that I am not wearing it. That’s all. When I had the time a couple of weeks ago I explained that verification and her insisting on keeping the keys (there are 2 of them for this lock) was a part of the game. I put them both on the bathroom counter a week ago, and they have not moved unless I move them. I asked her to keep one in the bottom of her purse and the other in a kind of remote controlled vault (I ordered it last week, coming from China, another 2 weeks away). Nah, still on the counter.

If you read through everything here you will note that there are several mental issues in the background of this blog. One is that because of her past there is just no real desire for sex, or anything like it. 35+ years in a marriage with this disability, I could never have imagined I would last that long in such a situation.

Last week we were offered 2 paths by our therapist. Path one is a deep mental reconditioning to try and get her “back into her body”, meaning that she would not be divorcing her brain from the sensations her body is providing to her during intimate encounters. The second option was to teach her how to navigate the mechanics of sex without being revolted by it. No enjoyment for her, just a lack of disgust. Both have advantages and disadvantages, naturally.

She and I discussed both of these options the other day, and I asked her which one she would like to try. I didn’t push for either, just worked to clear up and questions either of us had. She has opted for the first option. It’s the one I was hoping she would choose, but also the one that I disliked the most. Hypnotism, EMDR, intense one on one therapy, ect. The caveat, no sex for a year. And we were just getting pretty good at it too. A soul crusher, another year straight without being physically intimate with my wife. Don’t get me wrong, given our history this wont be the first time, we have had several times where we went more than a year without sex, but this time I would not even be allowed to ask. I could have cried, both for joy that she really wants to get her past out of the way of her enjoying sex, and of sadness for another year long stint with enforced abstinence. I need a better hobby, the 12 I have now just wont cover it. And on we go…

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Re: [Eddie] A Touch Here and a Touch There

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So, strange as this may sound, there has been some improvement.

We had a pretty good session with the therapist, she kind of outlined the path forward (she is consulting with her mentor on specifics, her mentor is some kind of a BDSM specialist). It “should not” be a full year, its not going to be completely without sex (and believe me, any year that has more than 2 events of sex is a GOOD year), and the games can continue (chastity). Better than anticipated or hoped for, far better.

She and I had another frank talk about the cage, and I pretty much laid out some wishes that I have concerning the game. We talked about using alcohol or cannabis with the therapist to overcome her mental walls concerning sex, and she said as long as it was not being used as a crutch that it might work out. More on that later. On the way home we talked quite a bit about what I envisioned the game to be, and what she envisioned. I pointed out that she has seen some very real positives in the last few days from my being caged (she got some action on a few of her “Honey-Do’s”). I keep telling her this is far more about her pleasure than mine, but I’m pretty sure that she is still unbelieving. Anyway, she gets good stuff, and as I keep telling her I get to play the game I enjoy. Win-Win. Yeah, ok, right.

Event Turn: Sunday, I gets up, I needs a shower says I, and she tells me to make sure I am caged when I comes back out. She wants BOTH keys, says I am not playing to her satisfaction in that I use the other key whenever I want, and she wants me locked period. She even gave me a pair of her panties to wear. Odd that we both wear the same size, but then again neither of us are really small in most dimensions. She hands me the panties and says these will look “cute” on me. I just about lost it, right there, standing in front of her in a pair of my own, soaking them down. When I finished I handed her the other key, she physically checks to ensure that I followed instructions, and I finish getting dressed for the day. Since then she has refused to hand me a key, even for cleaning, says its my problem that I need to “figure it out”. OMG! SHE IS PLAYING!! I just about wet down another nice set of panties. She noticed and calmly says that I am not allowed to orgasm under any circumstance (2.5 weeks already caged and orgasm free), not even by accident. It was an “or else” kind of statement, no specifics on what “or else” might be. Another cage bending moment, and she is noticing that I truly enjoy those moments.

She really “is” playing. This afternoon as I was hooking up one of the dogs for a trip outside she reaches between my legs and does a hands on verification check. Shocked I was, very. This might not be so bad. We shall see….

Eddie
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