[Devoted2Her] thoughts and musings

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Re: [Devoted2Her] thoughts and musings

Post by Devoted2Her » Wed Apr 10, 2019 5:57 pm

So we have been a bit busy since my last post and although we have had some play time this post is going to be about something more important especially to me.

I have to drive a lot around my state for work and I spend a lot of this time listening to podcasts. Recently I came across a cast called 'Loving BDSM' and although a lot of the episodes are kind of drivel I listened to one yesterday that made me want to come home and have a good talk with @IveGotTheKey .

The episode was basically the responsibilities of the sub in a D/s relationship. It made me realize that I need to really need to adjust my attitude. I read a lot of stories here where people say their significant others try, some more enthusiastically than others and that also some give up after trying.

This podcast episode made me think about the incredible amount of pressure we put on our KHs. We claim to want to be submissive and controlled but we all seem to want to tell everyone here what our KHs have done to surprise us.

I don't want @IveGotTheKey to feel like she has to 'invent' stuff to please me. I had a heart to heart with her last night and told her that I was going to step back and truly let her take the wheel. Other than affectionate kissing and such I wasn't going to instigate anything anymore. No more asking if she wants me to pleasure her, no more asking if she has plans, etc. If she wants me to do something to her she will tell me, if she wants to do something to me she will do it, if she doesn't want to do anything then that is her decision not mine.

She agreed that this would be a good thing, but if she asks me if I want something then I better have a good answer and that I shouldn't take her not wanting something personal.

I guess what I got out of the podcast is that I have to be patient. Being in a D/s relationship is as much about the mental as it is the physical, and again it was my idea, @IveGotTheKey has done very well embracing it for me, what more can I ask! I have to take care of her as much as she is taking care of me and not turn her being Domme into a chore. Now that we have reintroduced ourselves to each other a new way, I have to truly let go and let her set the pace and make the decisions after all I trust and love her with all my heart!
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Re: [Devoted2Her] thoughts and musings

Post by Devoted2Her » Tue Apr 16, 2019 4:22 pm

Springtime is so busy, the weekend was full of yard work spring cleaning as we finally had a nice Saturday to get stuff done (including mowing the lawn first time for the season), and then Sunday we had to lay flooring for our daughter in her nursery (first grandbaby coming soon!) So by Sunday afternoon we were just plain exhausted but we had a vanilla encounter (as directed by her 😁) and she said she wanted me to cum, which I did. It was very good and we both were still exhausted but relaxed and content.

This morning we both had a chance to start work late. Taking advantage of this extra time she uncaged me and edged me orally and with her hand until I was extremely worked up, she rolled onto her back spread her legs and told me to get to work, after some time and her gripping the back of my head and then clenching my head between her thighs she told me she wanted me inside her. As I was entering, she said "you cannot cum" but insisted I should go faster, harder and deeper. It was almost too much to take, but she kept telling me that me cumming was out of the question. Finally, she said she had enough and meant it, trust me I hovered just outside and kept kissing her and leaving it teasingly just outside of her. She did not relent and let me back in and finally told me to lay down beside her. As I was struggling to get back in the cage she told me I think your next cum is going to be in 47 days.

Later after we were both at work I texted her 47 days? That's arbitrary, she replied with a screenshot of the definition of arbitrary highlighting the part of the definition that said "unrestrained and autocratic in use of authority". Touche .... my love .... touche!
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Re: [Devoted2Her] thoughts and musings

Post by Devoted2Her » Fri Apr 26, 2019 5:41 pm

Serious mind fuck...for both of us!

Last night while cuddling @IveGotTheKey said that it's a shame I was locked up but she wasn't and that she didn't have any preferences what I did but that she wanted to be spent afterwards. So for the first time I got serious about putting on the strap on harness as close to where my member usually is on my body.

After I got situated we made out and had foreplay as if we were going to have normal vanilla PIV sex. Then when she was ready I entered her with the dildo and proceeded to do like we do.

It was surreal and my body was in an identical position as when we normally make love and all the sensations were there, even my balls were slapping around. My mind was having a really tough time wrapping around the sensations that were there and the obvious ones that weren't.

@IveGotTheKey also mentioned some during and more after that it was hard for her to feel those sensations knowing that I was feeling nothing and that she was feeling guilty. After the fact today, she even said she felt kind of cruel and a bit guilty because she couldn't deny the physical pleasure she felt while knowing I wasn't feeling a thing.

I have used toys on her many times and I have never felt this experience before, maybe because of the physical position of being face to face with her and all the muscle memory of the motions I was doing that my brain automatically associated with certain sensations. It was a serious mind fuck!
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Re: [Devoted2Her] thoughts and musings

Post by Devoted2Her » Sun Apr 28, 2019 1:41 pm

Friday n8ght I was pleasantly woken up by @IveGotTheKey who said she was horny, she continued to kiss me merciful allowing me to wake enough to be in the moment.

She mounted my face and was more forcefully grinding into my mouth and tongue than ever before. I was blissful and was straining forcefully against my cage. I was enjoying the helplessness of being 'trapped' underneath her.

After adequate attention was given to her orally she wanted to feel me inside her. It was a struggle getting out of the cage and ring. She wanted it hard and fast but she was having none of me cumming, and repeated over and over that it would be unacceptable for me to do so. I was about ready to explode and had to stop a few times which did not make her happy. She finally was satisfied enough and told me she was finished and for me to stop, she did not lock me up afterwards and said that I was by no means allowed to touch myself.

After a busy Saturday we were having a relaxing Sunday morning, getting out of the shower still locked up
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Re: [Devoted2Her] thoughts and musings

Post by Devoted2Her » Sun Apr 28, 2019 1:54 pm

Oops accidentally submitted the last part.

I meant to say I was still not locked up. I saw she was wearing her crotchless, black mesh teddy and had her strap on harness with her cock secured to it. She placed me in my collar and cuffed my hands. She told me to get face down on the bed and proceeded to redden my ass. She then entered me with her cock, this was the first time she was wearing her cock in the harness and she pounded me pretty hard while pulling me back with my collar. Before flipping me over she gave it to me harder and made my head bounce off the head board, and joked asking me how it felt, then she made it happen again and again, joke was over I guess 😀. She then flipped me over and was giving it to me missionary, it felt incredible and was pretty awesome to be able to wrap my legs around her! I think I almost came as I could feel a really different feeling as she was bumping against my prostate.

She then made me give it to her orally because "I got mine!"
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Re: [Devoted2Her] thoughts and musings

Post by cshorts » Sun Apr 28, 2019 10:00 pm

Devoted2Her wrote:
Fri Apr 26, 2019 5:41 pm
It was a serious mind fuck!
And for you, only a mind fuck!
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