Since this is a site for male chastity, I thought it would be nice for a woman's view on chastity. I want to start a journal of my experience through this and have support and advice when I need it. It's nice to be able to talk to people who are going through the same thing. Let me start off by giving you all some background.
My husband and I have been together 9 years, but only married for 10 months. We are currently meddling in BDSM. He's the one that introduced me to this life style. We've been meddling in it not too seriously for about 7 years now. For the past couple of years, my husband has been requesting to get more serious about making this part of our life style. He is the submissive one, but I can go either way (he can too, but prefers to be submissive). I've been too lazy to take charge and be the dominant one. I think it's too much work and I'm not that creative in that way. I do enjoy taking charge so much, but like I said, I'm lazy. So we are getting more serious about this. Currently he is the dominant one. We are using this to correct some of my bad behaviors that have been issues over the years. We are both finally ready and feed up with my bad behaviors to do something about them. So far, it has been working, but I have a serious issue with authority and taking orders, so this is a real challenge for me. I never was punished as a child (only got spanked once). I had 2 older brothers that constantly got beat for being bad, so I learned how to be sneaky about the things I did that I knew would get me into trouble. I only look sweet and innocent
I've been put into a chastity belt because over the past few months, I've been cheating on him (don't judge please) so this is for his peace of mind while we work through this difficult part of our relationship. I've only had the belt for a couple of weeks. We bought a cheap one (well it was $250, but still one of the cheapest ones) to test out first and see how I deal with this before we spend some serious $$$$ for a good one. I bought Blue color Female Model-Y Stainless Steel Chastity Belt (it's straight from China. Got it off of dhgate.com). The problem that I'm having with it right now is chaffing real bad in the crotch area. It doesn't help that the silicone lining keeps coming off. The metal is so thin that it digs into my skin when the lining comes off. It still chafes no matter what though, it's just worse when the metal does it. We've tried gluing it, but I'm constantly tugging on it. We're going to glue it again and I'm going to try not to tug at the crotch area, but we'll see. Anyone have any suggestions? The hip chaffing isn't so bad. I do have some red marks on the side of my hips and an actual sore on one side, but it never bothered me (only when I pulled the belt away from my skin and the suction undid did I ever feel any kind of pain). How do you guys deal with the chaffing and any lubricating ideas? I've been using peterolum jelly and aquaphor to help lubricate. They do great until it absorbs into my skin and I have to reapply.
I'm having a hard time being locked up. I didn't really do a break in period. I just pretty much went to 24/7 wearing figuring why not. I don't like being locked up like this because it's giving someone complete control of me which I don't like. I don't like situations where I have absolutely no say in what happens. I am trying my best to stay in positive spirits about this because it's a way to help and work on my marriage. It's not so bad and I can tolerate it when the silicone lining stays put and doesn't expose the metal edges. I'm a CNA, so I'm constantly on the go and moving all around. I would appreciate any feedback from anyone. Support is going to the most important thing for me right now.......
