Fulfillment
Posted: Sun May 15, 2011 12:45 pm
Since my late teenage years I have known that I have a very strong submissive streak.
For many years I fought tooth and nail against this understanding mostly because the sort of day to day life that I lead makes it all a little impractical.
Rather than go into this here and bore everyone half to death, please will anyone reading this post cut me a little slack and kindly accept that it is the situation.
About twenty years ago, whilst in bed one morning I was reading the newspaper when suddenly I found that I was in a space where I was confronted by my feminine side, it really was there staring me in the face and there was nowhere to run.
The upshot was that I had no option but to accept it, since the whole situation felt so much bigger than me I could only surrender to it, I suspect that if I had not done so I would be stuck there until I did.
That was the new situation, it was now a given that I was half male, half female and it has taken a long time for the two halves to join and integrate.
Spooling forward to today I am in a situation where I long for an FLR, to be with an assertive lady who I can serve and will keep me chastised.
What hinders this is that since the beginning I have been married to a lady who has no interest in these matters, she married one type of person and now she is landed up with someone else, really is not her fault.
Divorce is out of the question, whatever I am, I am not cruel and since she loves me it would be totally selfish of me to leave. I do understand that this may not be a fashionable view but having been brought up to believe that divorce is a no-no it really is not a realistic proposition,
You guys on this site are living in a great space, if what you write is true then you have found a form of fulfillment and you are most fortunate to have done this. Against this is the probability that there are hundreds of thousands of people who long to be in your situation.
There really is no need for anyone to respond to this, there seems no present resolution to my own situation, it is as it is.
Many thanks,
All the best to you all,
Trissie.
For many years I fought tooth and nail against this understanding mostly because the sort of day to day life that I lead makes it all a little impractical.
Rather than go into this here and bore everyone half to death, please will anyone reading this post cut me a little slack and kindly accept that it is the situation.
About twenty years ago, whilst in bed one morning I was reading the newspaper when suddenly I found that I was in a space where I was confronted by my feminine side, it really was there staring me in the face and there was nowhere to run.
The upshot was that I had no option but to accept it, since the whole situation felt so much bigger than me I could only surrender to it, I suspect that if I had not done so I would be stuck there until I did.
That was the new situation, it was now a given that I was half male, half female and it has taken a long time for the two halves to join and integrate.
Spooling forward to today I am in a situation where I long for an FLR, to be with an assertive lady who I can serve and will keep me chastised.
What hinders this is that since the beginning I have been married to a lady who has no interest in these matters, she married one type of person and now she is landed up with someone else, really is not her fault.
Divorce is out of the question, whatever I am, I am not cruel and since she loves me it would be totally selfish of me to leave. I do understand that this may not be a fashionable view but having been brought up to believe that divorce is a no-no it really is not a realistic proposition,
You guys on this site are living in a great space, if what you write is true then you have found a form of fulfillment and you are most fortunate to have done this. Against this is the probability that there are hundreds of thousands of people who long to be in your situation.
There really is no need for anyone to respond to this, there seems no present resolution to my own situation, it is as it is.
Many thanks,
All the best to you all,
Trissie.