[Nightguy50] The fascination of frustration.

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[Nightguy50] The fascination of frustration.

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I said hello in Hello World, but I'll say it again here.

Hello.

I'll start by saying well done and good for you, to all of you taking this Journey with someone by your side. Wife, Husband, Partner, Master or Mistress. You have found someone to share it with, to hold your keys, and keep those frustrations going. Their roles maybe be small, or very big, but just as important either way. So, good for you. I'm happy for all of you.

As for me, I'm not that lucky. I have to fend for myself, using timers and locks for the most part so I can indulge in our fetish for lockup. But I dont mind really, it still gets the job done, although it would be nice.

I've been doing chastity for years now, ever since first reading stories about it over ten years ago. Something about having such an intimate part of yourself locked away from you, was utterly facinating, and I had to try it.

I did, or at least I thought I did my research though before starting. And since I read so many horror stories about plastic cages and rings splitting and breaking all the time, I started at the very beginning with metal.

Well, not entirely. I did try that silicone Birdlock for a while, but hated it. It was nice for short time chastity, but I kept developing blood blisters, and it would start to stink very quickly.

Oh I suppose I should mention that I am uncut, which makes this harder to do, right guys? So loose foreskin can poke out of holes, or between bars or around things and pinch a lot more than you might imagine. It makes finding the right device a lot more difficult.

I think I tried maybe 6 or 7 different ones over the years, some full cages, some half tubes. Long, short, in between. Figuring out the base ring size I liked, and the lock type. Experimenting is how to do it, so dont feel frustrated at the whole fetish if you cant find something that fits right, just try another kind of device.

I eventually settled on a full tube with a caged end. I couldn't tell you its name, one of those chinese knock offs of some german type device. But it turned out to be the most comfortable I have ever had, and have used it for three years now on and off. It is one of those with a built in lock rather than a padlock, a design I really like since I never cared for the noise the padlock made as it smacked against the tube.

The tube is long enough to be comfortable while flacid, but short enough that anything more than a partial erection can quickly become very uncomfortable. So keeping my thoughts semi chaste is usually the goal. lol

And it is secure enough that while I probably could pull out, the pain of it would NOT make it worth it. And getting back in would be MURDER!

My lock ups generally last a month or two. I have done six months once, that was a challenge. But shorter works for me very well.

At the moment, I have been locked since the first of the year, so well into my second month, and I dont know yet how long I plan to stay locked. So far so good is all I can say.

Anyway, this is good for an into to this blog. I'll write more soon, about how it feels, and the whys and such. And I thank the Forum masters for giving us all a place to do this, especially us solo lockers.

Thank you.
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Re: [Nightguy50] The fascination of frustration.

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So, all my life I've had a pretty relaxed libido.

Sex was fun, but never a driving force in any relationship, and going without for periods of time was not a real hardship.

Which was kinda what drew me to chastity play, especially long term. I wasn't one of those guys that would go nuts after just a couple of days of being locked up!

But that's not to say that I dont eventually feel that frustration.

It's been a month and a half or so as I write this, and many times since I started this session I've had days when the frustration of denial makes itself very known to me.

Sometimes, it is just for a few hours, sometimes it can last almost a whole day. That awareness, that ache, to reach down and give myself some relief.

My cock, almost completely untouchable inside its prison, trapped.

But, the ache doesnt come from there, does it. The frustration of denial comes from some place deeper. A feeling in your gut, in your balls, and in your head when you wonder what the hell you are doing!

For those of us doing this to ourselves, this is when we are both glad we cant get to our keys and also crazy for making sure we cant get to our keys. And for those of you with keyholders, that is when you are both cursing them and doing what you can to please them so that maybe they will relieve that frustration.

Yeah, today was one of those days, the ache in my body, in my thoughts, never far away at all.
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I wore a butt plug at work for a few hours last night.

I know, what does this have to do with chastity. Well, like the cage, it is something else hidden from those I work with.

I mostly work at my desk, but do some walking around too, visiting different parts of the building and talking to coworkers. And I enjoy knowing that they suspect nothing of what Im doing. No idea about my chastity, and when I'm in the mood, my butt plug.

It vibrates too, and I'll let it run for an hour or so on low as I work, feeling it invade my thoughts and feel my chastity even more.

I get horny, I get frustrated, yet I also feel a deep satisfaction in what I'm doing.

It just feels, amazing, the quiet buzzing deep inside me while my cock strains against the tube, while at the same time I carry on a conversation in person with someone completely unaware.

It makes me wonder who else in my lifetime I may have met who has done exactly the same thing to me!
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As I recently did my monthly cleaning, my thoughts drifted toward vids I've seen of Dommes putting devices on helpless guys. How simple and fast it usually was for them to just grab the guys cock and slide it into whatever cage or tube they are using, before locking them down.
But what all those guys have in common is that they are all usually cut!

For us uncut guys, it is rarely that fast or simple, right fellas?

Me, I have found the stocking method to be best. For those of you that don't know that one, here is how it goes.

You cut about eight inches (or more if you have to) off the end of a women's stocking. After you have the base ring on, you slip your cock into the open end of the stocking just enough to cover it from base to tip, leaving the rest hanging down. Then, you thread the other end of the stocking through the device, and use the stocking as a guide and slippery surface as you pull the device onto you and into its final position. Then once locked, you carefully pull on the stocking to get it out of the tube.

It takes a little practice, especially the last bit. Too tight, or too much stocking on you, and you end up pulling a lot of foreskin out the end of the device with the stocking. Which is in NO way comfortable. But once you get the hang of it, it becomes a simple and painless method of getting you properly seated in the device.

It also helps to have the device sized correctly. Im a grower, so my tube is about an inch longer than I need when I am fully flacid. This allows room for the smaller "growths and shrinks" that happen naturally through the day, but not so long that I pee into my device.

But still, to just be able to slip the thing on would be nice. lol
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Re: [Nightguy50] The fascination of frustration.

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I am also uncut, a grower and have been doing this for 9 years, over which time I have developed a different approach. Depending on the design of your device, it may not work for you.

First of all, if a chastity device just slides onto a guy’s penis, well lubed or not, the tube /cage’s diameter is way too big for him. My Jail Bird is perfectly sized to the point that, when I pull back my foreskin and put the cage on, the foreskin remains behind the head about 95% of the time for weeks at a time.

I prefer this since I don’t want my foreskin sticking out of the front and possibly getting pinched by underwear. Once or twice a day, if serious shrinkage has occurred, the foreskin may start to work its way onto the glans. Then I push it back with the back end of an old toothbrush.

Putting the cage on I just sort of jam my flaccid penis in head first so it starts out very scrunched up. I put a little baby oil on a couple of strategic spots and gently work my penis into its proper position with the end of that toothbrush. Obviously this technique won’t work if your device has a solid tube or a tube with small openings, but it works perfectly for my Jail Bird.

Oh, and the other perfect dimension about my Jail Bird is the cage length. The tip of my penis touches the end of the cage when I am in a normal flaccid state, maybe 95% of the time. As mentioned above, shrinkage does happen from time to time. Growth does not. It is prevented by the cage. However, the sensation when the penis tries to grow . . . is wonderful.
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Nice idea, W.I.V. I may try that, although my tube is a solid one except for the end where there is a very small cage.

What prompted me to write today though, was something I came across accidently on the net, cooking with semen.
Yeah, I know, strange topic for here, but I couldnt help laughing about it. :) After all, it's not like many of us can rustle up that ingredient at will when we need it. lol
Still, looking at a few of the recipies I found, and being the evil bastard that I am, it would have been fun to try one or two.
I guess I'll have to save them for later! ;)
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Yesterday was my birthday and I spent the day working on the RV. Got hung up testing out the TV system. The front works fine and I was able to pick up around 50 stations on the antenna. Unfortunately I'm not getting any signal at all to the bedroom cable outlet. I'm going to start some wood working projects on it today and try to get the back up camera system installed that came in yesterday.

The goal is to have her ready to roll for a trip on St Patrick's weekend. The lifestyle resort we want to try out has what is called a 'Trailer Crawl' that week end. It's a group tour of different RVs that want to open up and participate. We will be far from finished but we should be able to showcase some improvements.

On the way to dinner last night M'Lady said she thought about unlocking me for my birthday but since I was busy all day she didn't see any reason to. (Actually I was hoping to be restrained for an extended tease and denial session.) Oh well! It had only been 63 days..... :cry: We went to Twin Peaks for dinner and our youngest joined us. I even got a pass on he and I checking out and discussing the waitresses. Because of COVID birthday pictures with a group of the girls has been put on hold but I did get a picture with our waitress. I'll add it after M'Lady sends it to me.
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Another day of increased frustration, and a little corrective pain too.

For some reason, a favorite fantasy of mine kept echoing in my mind, and as it did my cock would swell and push my device forward, pulling hard on my balls in a not very comfortable way. It would even start to hurt at times, and it took a good deal of focus to calm my mind and body again each time.
Now, wearing these things doesnt stop us from having any adult thoughts at all! But, at least for me, those thoughts never get a chance to stay long or go into any real detail.
Which I guess is the point, right ladies? Keeping us calm and docile and...frustrated. lol
Our frustrations are not just in our locked up cocks, straining to be free and stimulated and orgasmed. Oh no, the frustrations go deeper than that, int our minds where our very natures and urges are held back.
It is happening even now as I type this, my cock pressing hard against the tube, while I pause several times to calm it down so I can keep typing.
I really want to cum, but with no access to my keys the best I could do would be a very painful, unsatisfying ruined orgasm that would only serve to make the frustrations stronger!
So, like all of us locked up guys, I have to turn my mind elsewhere.
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I miss porn.

Yes, that's what I said, I miss porn. I MISS PORN!!!!

I miss being able to dive into that rabbit hole, of going from image to image, story to story, vid to vid, indulging myself in what I find and seeing what is new.
I miss the smiles, the laughs, the horny stories and fascinating tales.

And why do I miss all that stuff?

Cos every time I do more than casually look at something my cock cage makes itself known. Actually, not so much the tube itself, although the end of it holds back my growing cock very well, but the way the base ring and tube conspire to pull hard on my balls, which can quickly go from uncomfortable to downright painful if I let it go too long.

So, I have to find something else to think about, something else to do. That way, things calm down and get comfy again.

It's frustrating, it drives me crazy at times. But, while locked, nothing I can do about it!

I miss Porn.
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