[LockedNick] Talk is Hard
Posted: Tue Jan 26, 2021 1:41 pm
I think I was probably born at the ideal time as a kinky guy. In the mid-to-late 90s, just as I was starting secondary school, broadband became a thing and I was able to explore porn that spoke to my interests that didn’t take half an hour to buffer. If I could successfully bypass my father’s AOL parental filters.
By my early 20s, smart phones came on the scene along with WiFi. And around this time I discovered chastity. I’d always been quite into tease and denial but at this stage had had relatively few sexual encounters and no longterm relationships. At the time there was a message board (now extinct and the name is long forgotten) that specialised in cuckolding, mainly sharing links to porn DVD rips that people could download - streaming porn was still some masturbating entrepreneur’s wet dream at this point. On that board one day I found a topic for chastity. I’d never heard of it so clicked in and found a link that sounded good. That video had a guy wearing what I later found out was a CB3000. With that image something clicked and I found the concept very appealing. I sought out more of the same.
Eventually I bought myself a CB6000. I gave it the old college try but the device was just awful. Especially for an uncut guy. Not much better was self locking or online keyholders. I had a job, after graduating university, working airside at an airport. Going through metal detectors and hand searches over a dozen times a day made wearing a device at work impossible so I just occasionally locked on my days off. And in that device going for more than a few days wouldn’t have worked for me.
Later on I tried a Birdlocked silicon device which was horribly difficult to get on, quite visible under clothing and not very comfortable. I also got a CB6000S which was marginally better than the other two. This was my go-to device for a while but was not at all practical for anything longterm. I also tried some online keyholders which again didn’t work well and had a slightly more enjoyable time mutually locking online with another locked guy. I’d lock after work and send a verification pic and he’d do the same.
So over the next few years chastity was an occasional private kink but I still lurked on message boards and sought out chastity-related porn.
Also while working there, I had an affair with a married colleague for a couple of years and while certainly not ideal, it solidified my absolute love for tease and denial. Due to her being married and me still living at home, opportunities for sex were few and far between but I could often get her off and she could tease me but not let me orgasm. As ill-advised as getting involved with a married woman is (and believe me I would advise anyone to stay well away) that relationship did give me a massive boost to my confidence. She was six years older, confident, sensual, sexually dominant and probably just what I needed at that stage in my life.
Eventually this relationship crashed and burned which was inevitable. Her marriage survived and as far as I’m aware her husband never found out about me although he did find out about another guy she was seeing in addition to me! I left my job shortly after this which was for unrelated reasons but fortuitous timing.
In my new job I found, for the first time in my working life, that I had every weekend off. I also ended up sleeping one weekend with an acquaintance I knew from the pub, after going back to her house for an ‘after party’. We ended up becoming friends with benefits which was quite fun. She was almost 18 years older than me and the age gap was probably important because it made it unlikely that either one of us would ever want a relationship, which helped stop us becoming emotionally attached beyond the sexual aspect.
She was adventurous and open to try new things. Ultimately we started exploring some kinks together and eventually I introduced chastity. She became my first in-person keyholder and I bought a custom-made Jailbird from Mature Metal. This helped me to go for longer spells locked and the open design allowed me to properly clean under my foreskin.
In-person keyholding was another level and worked for me in ways that self-locking and online could never touch. It’s a while ago now so I can’t be sure of the dates but I went over 4 weeks in one stint with her. Chastity became something that we dipped into every so often with agreed durations.
After a couple of years I met the amazing woman who is now my wife. We’ve been together four years, married for two. Chastity went by the wayside, although it was still an interest of mine and I still had my Jailbird. I never brought up chastity and my wife had never heard of it. Until this Sunday.
By my early 20s, smart phones came on the scene along with WiFi. And around this time I discovered chastity. I’d always been quite into tease and denial but at this stage had had relatively few sexual encounters and no longterm relationships. At the time there was a message board (now extinct and the name is long forgotten) that specialised in cuckolding, mainly sharing links to porn DVD rips that people could download - streaming porn was still some masturbating entrepreneur’s wet dream at this point. On that board one day I found a topic for chastity. I’d never heard of it so clicked in and found a link that sounded good. That video had a guy wearing what I later found out was a CB3000. With that image something clicked and I found the concept very appealing. I sought out more of the same.
Eventually I bought myself a CB6000. I gave it the old college try but the device was just awful. Especially for an uncut guy. Not much better was self locking or online keyholders. I had a job, after graduating university, working airside at an airport. Going through metal detectors and hand searches over a dozen times a day made wearing a device at work impossible so I just occasionally locked on my days off. And in that device going for more than a few days wouldn’t have worked for me.
Later on I tried a Birdlocked silicon device which was horribly difficult to get on, quite visible under clothing and not very comfortable. I also got a CB6000S which was marginally better than the other two. This was my go-to device for a while but was not at all practical for anything longterm. I also tried some online keyholders which again didn’t work well and had a slightly more enjoyable time mutually locking online with another locked guy. I’d lock after work and send a verification pic and he’d do the same.
So over the next few years chastity was an occasional private kink but I still lurked on message boards and sought out chastity-related porn.
Also while working there, I had an affair with a married colleague for a couple of years and while certainly not ideal, it solidified my absolute love for tease and denial. Due to her being married and me still living at home, opportunities for sex were few and far between but I could often get her off and she could tease me but not let me orgasm. As ill-advised as getting involved with a married woman is (and believe me I would advise anyone to stay well away) that relationship did give me a massive boost to my confidence. She was six years older, confident, sensual, sexually dominant and probably just what I needed at that stage in my life.
Eventually this relationship crashed and burned which was inevitable. Her marriage survived and as far as I’m aware her husband never found out about me although he did find out about another guy she was seeing in addition to me! I left my job shortly after this which was for unrelated reasons but fortuitous timing.
In my new job I found, for the first time in my working life, that I had every weekend off. I also ended up sleeping one weekend with an acquaintance I knew from the pub, after going back to her house for an ‘after party’. We ended up becoming friends with benefits which was quite fun. She was almost 18 years older than me and the age gap was probably important because it made it unlikely that either one of us would ever want a relationship, which helped stop us becoming emotionally attached beyond the sexual aspect.
She was adventurous and open to try new things. Ultimately we started exploring some kinks together and eventually I introduced chastity. She became my first in-person keyholder and I bought a custom-made Jailbird from Mature Metal. This helped me to go for longer spells locked and the open design allowed me to properly clean under my foreskin.
In-person keyholding was another level and worked for me in ways that self-locking and online could never touch. It’s a while ago now so I can’t be sure of the dates but I went over 4 weeks in one stint with her. Chastity became something that we dipped into every so often with agreed durations.
After a couple of years I met the amazing woman who is now my wife. We’ve been together four years, married for two. Chastity went by the wayside, although it was still an interest of mine and I still had my Jailbird. I never brought up chastity and my wife had never heard of it. Until this Sunday.