[sklavenAJ] a new year and a new hope
Posted: Thu Jan 23, 2020 12:08 am
I thought 2019 was the best year of my life. I didn't think it could get any better. I got a great job and I finally made full time. I am doing something I enjoy with people who are easy to work with. I got a cool girlfriend who's super smart and super sexy. I discovered this really amazing medication called Testosterone, which has set the real me, free. I don't have as much anxiety, or stress, or tears. I don't freak out as much, and not as neurotic. one thing that's been a huge benefit besides the growing muscles, is the growing libido! So, all in all, I was really depressed to see 2019 go.
I knew I was going to see Master on the 3rd of Jan. I wanted to start the new year off right, so I asked if I could be permitted to refrain from masturbation. I'm usually so horney, that I have to orgasm once, sometimes twice a day! He agreed, so I committed to three days. I had done short sprints before, and before testosterone, I could go months. btw, I hadn't had penile penetration in about two years. (PIV is fraught with anxiety, trauma, and sometimes PTSD.)
on the night I arrived, we played hard. I was given more orgasms than I ever remember Him giving me@ I was rocked to my core. Master and I don't have piv sex. it was a hard limit for him from the start, for his own personal reasons. Since I ahd my own for not wanting it, it's NEVER been a problem. In fact it's led me to trust Him implicitly.
after we played, we talked. somehow the mention of chastity was brought up. mostly because I want piercings. I want them so I can have my cunt spread wide open, or locked closed tightly. I want my nipples repeirced for the same reason, so that Master has beter anchors for His enjoyment. So we talkerd about chastity. the last time we tried it, I went over the top. I was insecure, andxious, and I almost pulled away from Him for perminant. I wasni prepared for the mental onslaught, and He was out of the country for three weeks@
He mentioned this, and I understood. I practically begged Him to give me anouther chance, so He did.
This time, it wasn't just a few weeks, this time it was a MONTH!! And it's ALL on the honor system. So My directive is, no masturbation, no cummin, no orgasms of any kind. nothing happening down there for pleasure. I have asked Him for a reprieve though. I need to tug on my cock on occastion (I have a micro penis, which is what I call my clit cause it doesn't act like a clit anymore. and it does half the thinking for me nowdays) cause it throbs and spasms uncomfortably.
HE's allowed me to tug on it to releive pressure and tension. Now, two weeks go by, and I'm at His house again for a playdate. I have never had anyone deny me and edge me before unless I have an orgasm at the end. Until Master' He wasn't joking. I didn't cum.
Now, I thought I would be able to sneak one by Him. Maybe He'd cause me the right amount of pain, that i could get off from the perception of it before anything could happen. NOPE!!! He had that shit locked down tight. He hooked me up to the tens unit He designed. He has a suction tube thing for my clit to fit into, and He has a electrode wired inside of it! So my clit gets sucked into this thing, which is really hot and makes it so sensitive...then the electricity starts! feels like someone sucking on it, amazing!!! But, not enough to ACTUALLY get off, Then He turnsp a tad, but this time He turns down the requency, so it feels like really rapid zaps, not one smooth pull. If that weren't bad enough, it is set to random, random frequencies and intensities..AND the algorythem is designed o keep the edge without gpoing over. Just as I thought I was building up to a really great orgasm within seconds, it abruptly stopped! I 'n no way making this up. Master is devious. It's why I chose to dedicate myself to Him.
So He's doing this to me, and at the same time He has my hands ziptied together in prayer form in front of me. My breasts are cinched in metal bands, and He's caning my NIPS!! forget the breast tissue, my freaking NIPPLES are getting caned! It hurt SO bad, so He distracted me by increasing the intensity of the damn tens unit. Did I mention I love Master as much as I love His mind?
Finally, He cums...making me lick His nipples as He's turning up the unit, shocking the hell out of my clit so I'm putting all that pain into energy for His pleasure, while He giggles, cumming HARD!!! I didn't even get the pleasure of tasting Him.
No cumming. No orgasm. Just edging for His pleasure and enjoyment. The way it SHOULD be. The way I always wanted it.
But the experience is nothing like the fantasy,. ITS BETTER.
So here I am, two days later. about to go to my sexy girlfriends house for dinner. I'm cooking. WE're on an even basis, but I'm much more dominant and aggressive than she is. We're secondary partners to each other, but our primaries are so busy with life, that we see each other more often than we see them sometimes, lol
I was so wet after seeing Master, that Ihad to buy underwear for the first time in fucking 20 years! So I'm at her house, wearing boxer briefs under my jeans. She knows I'm under restriction, and she can't believe I've lasted two weeks at this point. I get her off soon as I come in the door. It's kinda my sandard greeting whenever she and I get together and I'm in her ruck. I think that's why she likes picking me up! anyways...lol
So I get her off, and we eat. WE go back to her room, and start to fool around. I make her cum a few more times, and she starts touching me ALL over! I didn't cum, and I didn't orgasm. Iw as really surprised at the level of self control. Mostly cause I promised MAster I wouldn't do any of those things.
I let GF touch me south of the border, buit not enough to ge me off or even creamy. I made her stopevery few seconds,. It was HOOOOOTTTTT!!! I NEVER experinced sex like that without anxiety, nerves, distrust and discomfort. All the above, made me disengage in my prior life, and I'd lose the mood, so it ended up feeling mroe like rape or a duty than anything enjoyable. It'll
Biut this? without cummibng, I was in heavin! I loved everyhting and still, three days late,r have NO regrets.
Yesterday, I was talking about another fantasy I have about being loaned out. Master said He doesn't want to loan me to anyone! o hbe still my beating heart!!! I love posessive when it's done right.
I see Master again on the first of Feb. It'll have been the whole first month of the new decade and new year since I came. I asked if I will cum that day, He said He'd have to think about it. I'm SO glad that I can control myself well enough to give Maser the control! I asked Him why can't I just have a chastity device, or piercings> Not only would they take too long, but I like His answer the best. If I can't control it, how can I expect Him to?> In other words, if I can't handle the emotional aspect, how can I expect Him to be able to do it too>
I knew I was going to see Master on the 3rd of Jan. I wanted to start the new year off right, so I asked if I could be permitted to refrain from masturbation. I'm usually so horney, that I have to orgasm once, sometimes twice a day! He agreed, so I committed to three days. I had done short sprints before, and before testosterone, I could go months. btw, I hadn't had penile penetration in about two years. (PIV is fraught with anxiety, trauma, and sometimes PTSD.)
on the night I arrived, we played hard. I was given more orgasms than I ever remember Him giving me@ I was rocked to my core. Master and I don't have piv sex. it was a hard limit for him from the start, for his own personal reasons. Since I ahd my own for not wanting it, it's NEVER been a problem. In fact it's led me to trust Him implicitly.
after we played, we talked. somehow the mention of chastity was brought up. mostly because I want piercings. I want them so I can have my cunt spread wide open, or locked closed tightly. I want my nipples repeirced for the same reason, so that Master has beter anchors for His enjoyment. So we talkerd about chastity. the last time we tried it, I went over the top. I was insecure, andxious, and I almost pulled away from Him for perminant. I wasni prepared for the mental onslaught, and He was out of the country for three weeks@
He mentioned this, and I understood. I practically begged Him to give me anouther chance, so He did.
This time, it wasn't just a few weeks, this time it was a MONTH!! And it's ALL on the honor system. So My directive is, no masturbation, no cummin, no orgasms of any kind. nothing happening down there for pleasure. I have asked Him for a reprieve though. I need to tug on my cock on occastion (I have a micro penis, which is what I call my clit cause it doesn't act like a clit anymore. and it does half the thinking for me nowdays) cause it throbs and spasms uncomfortably.
HE's allowed me to tug on it to releive pressure and tension. Now, two weeks go by, and I'm at His house again for a playdate. I have never had anyone deny me and edge me before unless I have an orgasm at the end. Until Master' He wasn't joking. I didn't cum.
Now, I thought I would be able to sneak one by Him. Maybe He'd cause me the right amount of pain, that i could get off from the perception of it before anything could happen. NOPE!!! He had that shit locked down tight. He hooked me up to the tens unit He designed. He has a suction tube thing for my clit to fit into, and He has a electrode wired inside of it! So my clit gets sucked into this thing, which is really hot and makes it so sensitive...then the electricity starts! feels like someone sucking on it, amazing!!! But, not enough to ACTUALLY get off, Then He turnsp a tad, but this time He turns down the requency, so it feels like really rapid zaps, not one smooth pull. If that weren't bad enough, it is set to random, random frequencies and intensities..AND the algorythem is designed o keep the edge without gpoing over. Just as I thought I was building up to a really great orgasm within seconds, it abruptly stopped! I 'n no way making this up. Master is devious. It's why I chose to dedicate myself to Him.
So He's doing this to me, and at the same time He has my hands ziptied together in prayer form in front of me. My breasts are cinched in metal bands, and He's caning my NIPS!! forget the breast tissue, my freaking NIPPLES are getting caned! It hurt SO bad, so He distracted me by increasing the intensity of the damn tens unit. Did I mention I love Master as much as I love His mind?
Finally, He cums...making me lick His nipples as He's turning up the unit, shocking the hell out of my clit so I'm putting all that pain into energy for His pleasure, while He giggles, cumming HARD!!! I didn't even get the pleasure of tasting Him.
No cumming. No orgasm. Just edging for His pleasure and enjoyment. The way it SHOULD be. The way I always wanted it.
But the experience is nothing like the fantasy,. ITS BETTER.
So here I am, two days later. about to go to my sexy girlfriends house for dinner. I'm cooking. WE're on an even basis, but I'm much more dominant and aggressive than she is. We're secondary partners to each other, but our primaries are so busy with life, that we see each other more often than we see them sometimes, lol
I was so wet after seeing Master, that Ihad to buy underwear for the first time in fucking 20 years! So I'm at her house, wearing boxer briefs under my jeans. She knows I'm under restriction, and she can't believe I've lasted two weeks at this point. I get her off soon as I come in the door. It's kinda my sandard greeting whenever she and I get together and I'm in her ruck. I think that's why she likes picking me up! anyways...lol
So I get her off, and we eat. WE go back to her room, and start to fool around. I make her cum a few more times, and she starts touching me ALL over! I didn't cum, and I didn't orgasm. Iw as really surprised at the level of self control. Mostly cause I promised MAster I wouldn't do any of those things.
I let GF touch me south of the border, buit not enough to ge me off or even creamy. I made her stopevery few seconds,. It was HOOOOOTTTTT!!! I NEVER experinced sex like that without anxiety, nerves, distrust and discomfort. All the above, made me disengage in my prior life, and I'd lose the mood, so it ended up feeling mroe like rape or a duty than anything enjoyable. It'll
Biut this? without cummibng, I was in heavin! I loved everyhting and still, three days late,r have NO regrets.
Yesterday, I was talking about another fantasy I have about being loaned out. Master said He doesn't want to loan me to anyone! o hbe still my beating heart!!! I love posessive when it's done right.
I see Master again on the first of Feb. It'll have been the whole first month of the new decade and new year since I came. I asked if I will cum that day, He said He'd have to think about it. I'm SO glad that I can control myself well enough to give Maser the control! I asked Him why can't I just have a chastity device, or piercings> Not only would they take too long, but I like His answer the best. If I can't control it, how can I expect Him to?> In other words, if I can't handle the emotional aspect, how can I expect Him to be able to do it too>