[secondthirty] New Rules
Posted: Fri Aug 16, 2019 6:26 am
It was a little less than two months ago when S surprised me with our first cage. For weeks, she would have me wear it for a day or two, then she would let me out and we would have great sex. But then she read A Keyholders Handbook — she may still be reading it; she doesn’t tell me. That book seems to have changed things. Instead of our fairly frequent sex, she has now kept me locked for 13 days, letting me out only to go running for less than an hour every 2-3 days (“physical exercise is important,” S likes to say, seemingly without irony). She has teased me, but only with the cage on, which is challenging. Four days ago that teasing included tying me up and using a powerful vibrator on herself only inches from my face. I could do nothing except smell her arousal and strain against the steel bars of my cage. After she had given herself her second orgasm, she said that vibrator is so good that she may never need me again.
She gives no indication that she will release me at any time. She has seemingly abandoned the idea of out-of-cage stimulation. I still feel very new to this and the severity and duration are a lot to take. Confusingly, her newly rigorous demands excite me almost constantly, and even just writing about these experiences makes my member try so furiously to get hard that i keep having to stop writing and take a few breaths until the pain of a straining partial erection passes.
I wish i had full privileges to post here, since i could really use some feedback and would like to start a thread about my newbie conflicted emotions. At this rate, I suppose those privileges will “come” long before i ever do.
Even though this is difficult — more difficult than i ever would have guessed — and even though S has quickly become quite demanding, about extending my denial but also about requiring household service, and even though my increasingly frequent “crushed arousal” is deeply and unignoreably painful, i am forced to admit that i would not ask her to be more lenient. Even with all of the suffering — or, more likely, because of it, i feel a tremendous appreciation and deeper love, and those feelings envelope the suffering like a fine leather glove pulled over a cold hand.
In the end, i must admit, i love her so much more for putting me through this.
It does help to put down in writing this intense, constant, writhing tangle of pain, longing, gratitude, love and despair. Thanks for reading.
She gives no indication that she will release me at any time. She has seemingly abandoned the idea of out-of-cage stimulation. I still feel very new to this and the severity and duration are a lot to take. Confusingly, her newly rigorous demands excite me almost constantly, and even just writing about these experiences makes my member try so furiously to get hard that i keep having to stop writing and take a few breaths until the pain of a straining partial erection passes.
I wish i had full privileges to post here, since i could really use some feedback and would like to start a thread about my newbie conflicted emotions. At this rate, I suppose those privileges will “come” long before i ever do.
Even though this is difficult — more difficult than i ever would have guessed — and even though S has quickly become quite demanding, about extending my denial but also about requiring household service, and even though my increasingly frequent “crushed arousal” is deeply and unignoreably painful, i am forced to admit that i would not ask her to be more lenient. Even with all of the suffering — or, more likely, because of it, i feel a tremendous appreciation and deeper love, and those feelings envelope the suffering like a fine leather glove pulled over a cold hand.
In the end, i must admit, i love her so much more for putting me through this.
It does help to put down in writing this intense, constant, writhing tangle of pain, longing, gratitude, love and despair. Thanks for reading.