[mr_faithful] Denied until menopause

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Re: [mr_faithful] Denied until menopause

Post by mr_faithful » Thu Oct 03, 2019 2:43 pm

Thanks @cshorts and @wishful4, that's really good to hear that it will return to normal after a little while. I think what made me the most nervous, was that I couldn't seem to find much information about someone else who has experienced this, and what I did find seemed to suggest it wasn't a common thing. I definitely feel better about it. Thank you both for the reassurance.

I'm considering a way to try to work out a week or two to test the "return to normal" condition for myself, but I still worry about how easy it is for me to give in to bad thoughts. I have way too many years of wicked ways, if you know what I mean. I'm all for humbling myself, but that would be a really bad thing for me to fall that way again. It's not the masturbation that would get me, I feel pretty confident about staying strong against that. Rather, it's the ladies of temptation that I believe would defeat me.
If your hand or your foot should be your downfall, cut it off and throw it away: it is better for you to enter into life crippled or lame, than to have two hands or two feet and be thrown into eternal fire. And if your eye should be your downfall, tear it out and throw it away: it is better for you to enter into life with one eye, than to have two eyes and be thrown into the hell of fire.
I won't be cutting it off or tearing it out, but maybe a little shrinkage, even if permanent, is a small price to pay to escape eternal fire. This was on my mind in the first place when I agreed to wear a device. I had conquered masturbation, but I was defeated by the coochie, so I decided it would be best to take stronger precaution with a stainless steel barrier. I think that's probably still true. It helps me to write this down and convince myself.

Even when I removed the device to let it rest, it was only for a few hours at a time, and then it was back on at night. That seemed to be enough to let it heal. Everything is pretty much back to normal now.

I think I am going to look into a slightly smaller size for comfort. I do like the MCN Contender that I have, mostly because I can really forget about it most of the time. It's easy to keep clean and fresh. The only real downside, apart from metal detectors, is that it has become more bulky and unwieldy now that it isn't as snug of a fit as it used to be. For that reason, I think it makes sense to look at shortening it up.
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Re: [mr_faithful] Denied until menopause

Post by mr_faithful » Thu Oct 03, 2019 2:56 pm

wishful4 wrote:
Thu Oct 03, 2019 9:39 am
How are you dealing with the long term denial aspect?
Actually, last week was a challenge. For some reason, over a couple days, I got aroused anytime I was around my wife. It finally occurred to me that she was probably ovulating and once I checked the chart, sure enough, she was right in the window around day 14. I was definitely picking up the biological signals she was sending out.

So it was a bit more of a struggle than it has been before. I had become so well-adjusted to celibacy, that I was a little out of practice using the same tools I had in the past, prayer and reflection on what I have done. So at first I was a little off balance and struggling against my own unruly passions.

I finally thought it through seriously, and after some time in good thoughts and reminding myself of the reasons for my penance, I was able to quiet the passions.

I asked my wife the other night "do you consider the cage the reason for my celibacy, or do you consider my celibacy as the reason for the cage?" Her response was that both were true, I am celibate and I am locked away. She asked me how I felt about that, and I told her that it makes me happy to know that she is managing that part now and I don't have to worry about it ever again. All of that is true. I am really happy to be where I am now, and I don't want to go back to those dark days and thoughts.
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Re: [mr_faithful] Denied until menopause

Post by cshorts » Thu Oct 03, 2019 11:32 pm

"The only real downside, apart from metal detectors"

FWIW, I've got an MCN Contender and I've been through airport security over a dozen times now with no problem. Last week, for the first time, an alarm went off but when they sent me thru again it didn't alarm that second time so no need for explanation or inspection. I think there just isn't that much metal.
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Re: [mr_faithful] Denied until menopause

Post by mr_faithful » Fri Oct 04, 2019 3:52 pm

I think you're probably right. I think the Contender is bordering on the threshold of the alarms of those detectors. I've been through one twice while wearing it. The first time I walked through a detector, it went off, but the next day it did not. Same metal detector.

That tells me it is probably just on the threshold setting.
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