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Re: [cshorts] My (our) journey

Post by cshorts » Sun Jul 14, 2019 2:17 pm

My SL took over this morning, flipping the script in a most exciting way. Since I've been caged (nearing a year) our playtimes are mostly focused on my serving her pleasure (much to my pleasure). Started that way this morning, with me bringing her breakfast in bed and then giving her an hour-long foot rub. But then she laid me out flat on my back, handcuffed me to the headboard and blindfolded me, and took me to the moon with nipple torture, stroking my cock with lots of lube through the cage, and deliciously fucking me with the Njoy. Of course, leaving me unfulfilled, with swollen balls and cock squeezing through the bars. And a large wet spot after a gush of pre-cum leaked out. In the middle of all that she got herself off with her wand - I could only listen, no looking or touching her in my bound state. After all this she released me, smiled, and left me throbbing and frustrated as she headed to the shower.
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Post by cshorts » Tue Jul 23, 2019 12:58 am

For a variety of scheduled reasons, we didn't get to have sex over the weekend. Oh wait, not true! I was still in bed when she started to wake up Saturday, so I gave her a "wake-up kiss" -- went down on her, for multiple Os.

But no bigger playtime, and nothing that involved me. We had in mind we'd play Su day evening, but I had a lot of unfinished work, and tho I would have abandoned is she said she would have felt guilty and asked if we could have sex Monday night instead.

So here we are, Monday night.

From various looks and subtle comments it was clear all evening she was looking forward to it. So was I: took a viagra before I started cooking dinner. After dinner we took care of our poor, old, sick cat (shot and IV fluids). Then headed to our bedroom in the cottage. I asked her if she wanted a foot rub. She smiled and laughed and said "oh yes", and that she had been just about to ask for one...which might have been a first. So great to see her gradually emerging from her shell.

After an hour-long foot rub, during which she opened her legs and flashed he pussy at me several times, I asked how I might next serve her. She hesitated a bit so I started gently spreading her legs and leaning in, saying id just hang out a bit while she decided. She smiled and assented and spread her legs more and slid down her pillow -- she'd been sitting for the foot rub - pushing her pussy into my face.

I had a long lovely time licking, sucking her labia, sliding my fingers inside and stroking her g spot, fucking her with two fingers. She climaxed several times -- no I'm screaming Os, but intense enough she push my head away for a break.

And then...."thank you sweetie. good night." No touching of me. No teasing of nips or cock or ass. No sucking my caged cock, certainly o key to unlock me, no I tercourse. Nothing.

Not quite sure, still, how I feel about it. I love serving her. I want her to feel like she can accept and ask for pleasure without feeling any pressure. I enjoy the erotic thrill of denial. But I get more animal satisfaction out of *tease* and denial. I feel a bit neglected when I get no attention at all. So I'm conflicted: am I a full sub, happy just to serve? Or do I need some attention to feel loved?
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Re: [cshorts] My (our) journey

Post by cshorts » Sun Jul 28, 2019 12:27 am

Very special morning.

First: last night, I mentioned to SL that she hadn’t said or asked anything about my being in chastity to her for a while — was there anything she wanted to talk about. “No, not really.” That led to a short conversation in which she acknowledged that she generally isn’t inclined to talk about sexual matters, but that she wanted me to feel comfortable bringing up anything on my mind, or sharing my feelings. I did have a thought or two on my mind but reserved them, not because I didn’t trust her offer but because I’m trying to give her space to feel unpressured, and to figure out where she wants to go on this journey on her own — thought it would seem like a setup and pressure if I asked if *she* wanted to talk but then I immediately brought my topics out when given the opportunity. I was fine with this (holding back).

This morning was our regular weekend playdate — on Saturday rather than Sunday because she’s leaving early on a trip Sunday morning. I showered and shaved for her, and made her breakfast in bed. After breakfast, I offered a foot rub but she declined (perhaps because our time wasn’t unlimited: cat had a vet appointment). When I asked if she wanted a story or video (a pretty standard offer for us since a sex counseling retreat we went on a number of years ago — it has helped her get into the moment and out of her head, reducing her inhibitions and self-consciousness), she said she’d like a video. A bit into that, I started gently stroking her vulva with my finger; that pretty quickly led to her first O or two (she’s *so* responsive! I still marvel), so I prepped a vibrating dildo and inserted it. She continued enjoying the video, and the dildo, moaning and squirming and cumming a couple more times, before bringing her magic wand in to replace my fingers on the outside of her vulva. Two vibrators going now, and she was going too — loud and intense with at least two more, this time explosive, orgasms. She then sort of collapsed in a puddle.

After some cuddling and calming down, I pointed out that I’d shaved for her, and when she didn’t demur, I slid my body down between her legs and started orally pleasuring her. A couple more quick Os, so I brought my fingers inside her to stroke her g-spot before she stopped me altogether. With tongue and fingers she exploded one more time before really collapsing, and gently signaling to me to stop.

After some more cuddling her breathing slowed closer to normal and she asked me if I’d enjoyed that too. I honestly told her I had: I really do love getting her off. But I honestly said that didn’t mean I wouldn’t mind something more. She pushed me onto my back and enthusiastically went down on my caged cock, delightfully tormenting me with sucking and licks between the steel bars. Then some nipple torture, which gets me just as — sometimes more — excited, in a different way. Some more oral, some hand work with one hand while torturing a nipple with the other….now was my turn to get loud and writhe. Then….done.

While we were both lying there in afterglow — mine delayed in coming because I was still so horny! — with my cock gradually straining less at the cage and then releasing copious amounts of pre-cum all over the sheets — we had a terrific conversation. First, me: “Did you even bring the key in?” (She hides it in another room.) Her: “No. It’s such a cliche to let you out the morning before I leave on a trip.” Da-dum! Of course, this means that I won’t get out for at least another 8 days, until after her trip…and who knows then.

Then we talked some about having me in chastity — how it’s a kink and I’m a perve, but the torment gets me off, and especially the way I stay horny and excited for days on end, rather than the big but brief bang from an O, followed by several days of letdown. I asked if our increasing use of various dildos and my fingers helped her not feel too deprived without my cock inside her — that had always been a must for her when we made love. She smiled and said yes, that was working, and she didn’t feel deprived. That made my heartstrings zing! I’d been worrying since we started this that it was what I wanted but that she felt deprived — the last thing I want to do is deprive her sexually. “But it is different.” So I then said that if she wanted, we could try having me wear a strapon when I’m caged and fuck that way. Her eyes widened, clearly indicating that this had never occurred to her but sounded intriguing, and she said, “let’s try that.” Double zing! I’ve been wanting to try that for months, but have not been sure how to broach it — she tends to be averse to things that seem like kink for her. Tra-la-la…..I’m really looking forward to giving this a try.

All in all, things are moving smoothly and steadily forward: our sex life is better than ever, we’re both more relaxed and open (not that it’s suddenly easy for us, but we’re definitely getting better), she is more able to focus on just her own pleasure and accept it without feeling obligated to get me off every time. And slowly but surely we’re trying new things.
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Re: [cshorts] My (our) journey

Post by Schnoff » Tue Jul 30, 2019 8:01 am

“So I'm conflicted: am I a full sub, happy just to serve? Or do I need some attention to feel loved?”

I don’t see a conflict there. People have needs. Subs have needs! This idea sloshing around in kink circles that a “true sub” does not need attention or pleasure is balderdash.

It’s also rooted in an unspoken assumption: We have a scene, during that scene one person is wearing the domly pants and the other is being submissive, and then the scene is over and normal life resumes. Unscientifically, here on the US east coast, fully half of the “kink scene” thinks that any kind of power dynamic that isn’t limited to a scene is abusive.

That in turn stems from those cliches about D-types being stern and forbidding and there not being any kind of supporting loving relationship between D-types and s-types.

Pish-posh. People can structure their scenes and lives any way they darn well please. In your case, the power dynamic is there 24/7 because you are refraining from orgasm without permission. From where I’m at, definitely make sure to communicate your genuine needs and make sure that yours and hers are met.

This gets into the lament often heard in kink circles about dating vanilla people, “oh my god they don’t talk about sex, how are you supposed to know what turns them on!”. Learning to be comfortable in being vulnerable with one’s partner and clearly stating one’s needs, wants, preferences, fantasies, is definitely a journey. A worthwhile one.
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Re: [cshorts] My (our) journey

Post by cshorts » Fri Aug 02, 2019 12:04 pm

[Long, and not PG]


These are happy days.

SL went to Chicago 6 days ago to help with our grandchild while our son had an off-site week of training (he commuted, but long days, thru dinner, and long drives). I arrived yesterday to spend a long weekend with them all. SL and I did a fair bit of kissing and cuddling, but indicated she didn't want more last night. But with a smirk in her eyes said she was thinking we might have some fun after breakfast.

I set my alarm 10 minutes earlier than hers. When it went off I started slipping below the covers to wake her with my tongue between her legs. She immediately realized what I was up to and tossed off the covers, spread her legs and welcomed me. I lapped very slowly and gently for several minutes, along her lips, avoiding the nub of her clit. She started to squirm and whimper, and I knew her alarm was coming so I began more direct attention to her erect clit, while slipping two fingers into her very wet interior. Her quiet mini-Os suddenly became a rigid, straining, exuberant O. After a minute of gentle tonguing to let her settle, I raised the intensity again and she went off, very vocally this time. Then the alarm went off, punctuating her climax.

We went across the street to get some healthy breakfast food at Whole Foods then came back to get naked and eat it in bed. After I asked if she wanted a]me to read a story or to watch a video -- those used to be a quite standard way for her to relax her inhibitions and get in the mood. The past year, as chastity has heightened our experiences and (perhaps due to a growing sense of confidence, control, and lack of pressure for her) increased her awareness of her own lust, erotic stories and videos have become I frequent but I still offer. Today she said yes, she'd like a story. I quickly found what turned out to be a very sensuous and also hot story about two women on vacation in the perfume region of southern France.

Before we started reading SL uncaged me. She started casually stroking me while I read -- lightly and aimlessly enough that she kept me hard but didn't overly distract me. I returned the favor with my fingers, gentle stroking, just enough to tease. The story switched gears from sensuous to steamy (jealousy about flirting with the cute French tour guide led to a primal stand-up, D/s finger fucking in the bathroom stall) and my SL grabbed her magic wand. I rolled on my side so I could balance my Kindle in one hand, continue reading quietly but breathlessly into her ear, and slip two fingers of my other hand into her, stroking her g-spot as she buzzed away. I love the sensation of the vibrations coming thru her, buzzing my fingers inside while she is pressing the wand hard against herself outside.

Big, loud orgasm for her, then a collapse onto the bed as her taut and straining muscles suddenly relaxed.

She asked me to keep reading, But after a few minutes for her breathing to slow, she took the kindle and dropped it to the floor, spread her legs, and ordered me to fill her up. I lubed and obliged, sliding in and pulling her hips up on top of my thighs. This is her favorite position -- a modified missionary with be upright, resting on my heels, her legs either wrapped around my back or, as it was this morning, stretched up with ankles on my shoulders, and her hips pulled up on top of my thighs which serve like they were a wedge pillow. We've learned that this maximizes the pressure and friction of my cock head against her g-spot, which is insanely excitable. Her entrance is also nerve-rich,and I've learned that she gets most excited from shallow thrusting that presses my cock head against her entrance muscles, repeatedly just leaving and re-entering, and only going deep enough to then massage and stimulate her g-spot. Ironic that I have a larger than average cock, but much of the time she only wants a couple or three inches of it, leaving the rest outside. (Though she does like to mix it up with some deep thrusting sometimes, too.)

This was the first time in a bit over three weeks that she had uncaged me and fucked with PIV. She'd been getting penetration from fingers and vibrating dildo in between, but SL loves her some live, warm, throbbing cock, and she really rocked out this morning. The several Os she's already experience had grown from mild squirmy to raucous, but they were just prelude. She was yelling and thrashing about as the big one hit her. Another collapse, but this time with me collapsing on top, to nuzzle her neck and earlobe as she caught her breath. My cock had loved the warm wetness and sliding inside her, but fortunately I'd been able to maintain control despite the three plus weeks since my last release. (That's another advantage of this favorite position of ours -- by angling things so that the top side of my cock head is pressing up against her g-spot, there's not as much friction on the super sensitive underside, and I can more easily last a long time.)

Once SL recovered some, she started to play with my nipples, which almost always gets me very worked up, very fast, especially when she skips gentle and goes right to torment. I lost myself in the thrilling, agonizing sensations, getting outside of my head and just enjoying the feelings in my body. As I raised myself off her chest to give her easier access, she switched to running her nails along my sides, and over my chest and belly -- I'm quite ticklish! That's another type of delicious torment, but different -- very sensuous but not as sexually hard-wired to my cock. Gave me a chance to remember where I was, and that she had not given me permission to come. So I started pulling my my mind out of the pure sensation, not over-thinking but distancing myself a bit as if in an out-of-body experience, still enjoying the sensation and the warm haze of loving feeling, but not quite as intense and headed towards loss of control.

Less lost in my own pleasure, I started gently moving my cock inside her again. Of course thru all of this tease I was hard as could be. She started to moan, so I reached for her wand to amp things up. Hah! She immediately grabbed it from me to press against herself. Though inhibited in some ways, from nearly the beginning of our relationship 25 years ago SL has been completely uninhibited about using her wand during our sexytimes. She is addicted to the combined feeling of my cock inside and her wand pressed herd and directly on the nub of her clit outside, sometimes she'll let me play the wand against her, but usually she wants to be in charge of that part of the operation -- I think in part because I hesitate to push it hard enough against her! She almost scares me, so hard she brings it down against herself.

I thought she'd done herself in on the previous O, but no, she surprised me. Longer, slower buildup this time, which caused me a bit of anxiety -- the feelings in my cock were also building towards an explosion and I wasn't sure I could hold back u til she gave me permission. I could have pulled out but she absolutely hates that when she is riding me up the heights to her own orgasm, I mentally gritted my teeth (in reality my mouth was open as I was groaning and helping myself) as she started shouting obscenities mixed with unintelligible sounds of sexual transport. (I love fucking like this in hotels, the exhibitionist in me getting off on thoughts about the people passing by outside our door.) Wow! Enormous climax for her, followed by total collapse. I could tell she was truly done in now.

After cuddling on top of her for a bit, I slipped from between her legs and moved up alongside her, draping myself on her. Ummm ...she never told me I could come, and it was clear she wasn't taking me back inside now, nor did she have any energy to give me a handjob. Would she ask me to jerk myself off for her? (She likes to watch.) "Sweetie, would you mind if I took a nap now?"

So here I am, writing in my journal, while she sleeps beside me, breathing heavily and snoring just a bit now and then. I'm writing my floridly than usual, and my cock is ... well, dripping is too mild. My balls and inner thigh are slick and there's a sizable wet spot on the sheets between my legs. And with no release, plus the excitement from reliving the experience by writing it down, my cock is still standing upright and throbbing (no doubt helped a bit by having the base ring of my cage still on -- she always leaves that when she u cages me for sex.

I think this is the first time since starting chastity last October that she's made me go longer than three weeks. Just before she dozed off she said one advantage of for her of going longer without my cock inside her was that it was even more exciting and pleasurable than usual for her. Between that, her realizing from times like today that she can *have* my cock but still deny me release, and her telling me last week that she;d like to try my flicking her with a strap-on while I remain caged, I'm starting to see a future in which I maybe having even fewer orgasms. But more sex: chastity is definitely leading her to take her pleasure more often.

These are happy days.
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Re: [cshorts] My (our) journey

Post by cshorts » Sun Aug 04, 2019 9:23 am

We're having fun on this mini-vacation. After that wonderful morning two days ago, she let me wake her up with what I've taken to calling the "wake-up kiss" (first thing oral) yesterday , before we headed over to visit with our granddaughter. Then last night she said that even though we're expected at granddaughter's about 10, SL wanted to have another morning romp. So romp we did.

She uncaged me again. After some lovely playtime, including her first few orgasms with he help of fingers, mouth and wand, she said "I want you to cum inside me." Or was it "come inside be" as in "enter me"? Not clear. I resolved to hold off unless she explicitly instructed me, but things got very hot, oh too fast. (I used to pride myself on nearly flawless control, but I'm finding that when I go weeks without cumming, it's harder!) I pulled out to rescue things, but she gave me that horrified look she does, that clearly says "get the fuck back in there". I took that as my instruction to orgasm, since she knew I was on the edge. Ah, sweet bliss. (Though just a touch of sadness -- this was the longest she'd kept me denied, by just a few days... I wanted to keep going, especially since I knew would be at least another 8 or 10 days before we even have another opportunity. But her cries of transport made it worth it.)

Days since last orgasm: 25
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Post by cshorts » Mon Sep 02, 2019 2:34 pm

Long play session. Smoothies and coffee in bed for breakfast, then I gave a full length foot rub. Followed by exuberant play. SL de-caged me, and after we'd gotten all hot and bothered with other action, told me to climb on. She had a louder than usual, longer than usual peak orgasm (after several strong starters), complete with drenching the bed -- the most she's ever squirted, I think.

As we started to quite down, we noticed the voice of a neighbor calling out, "is everything ok?" I realized I'd been hearing her for at least 30 seconds, but hadn't processed it. I called out to reassure her, and she sheepishly apologized. (We realized after that SL should have called out to reassure, lest she think I was beating SL into submission and covering up!) Then we burst out laughing -- broke the mood but it was a funny experience.

I had actually tried not to cum ... only 16 days and I've been wanting to lengthen it. Even suggested that to SL during that good conversation a couple of weeks ago, but apparently she'd waited long enough. I even tried to convince to let me use her new Vixskin dildo but she insisted on the real thing, and when she was so wild, I lost control.
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Post by cshorts » Sun Sep 15, 2019 1:38 pm

Amazing session this morning. We got high while eating breakfast in bed, and I think that really enhanced things for both of us. SL got very wild and had multiple explosive orgasms as well as multiple building up. She had pleasure from her wand, my fingers, my mouth, her vixskin and my cock.

When she asked me to enter her, I put on a desensitizing condom --- haven't worn any condom for at least twenty years! I was hoping it would slow me down -- I used to have near perfect control and could go any length of time, but since my orgasm frequency has been so drastically reduced by chastity, I can't maintain control as long for her, and have come once or twice when she hadn't instructed me too. It seemed to work well -- we fucked a good long time, until after two extended, explosive orgasms she wanted a break. I didn't have any trouble maintaining control.

She really went to town on me today. She edged me with a hand and mouth job, then tortured my nipples with her mouth (including teeth). Then nipple clamped me for the duration. Then, after her long bout of Os, she started edging me again, bringing me to the precipice 3 or 4 more times. Once just with nipple torture -- very very intense, I think she was less inhibited while high. A couple of hand jobs, then she let me edge myself -- not sure I could have stopped, but she made me. We cuddled for a while, and started sharing fantasies about each other getting fucked by someone else, while we each, respectively, were in the room. (In her fantasy she is directing the action. In mine, I'm just allowed to watch, or assist as instructed, cuckold style.) That turned us on again, but she wouldn't let me play with her...just her edging me with her hand again, and then after a breather, letting me edge myself one last time.

The condom stayed on until we were done. And I never came through the two hours of exquisitely torturous lovemaking and edging.
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Re: [cshorts] My (our) journey

Post by cshorts » Sun Sep 22, 2019 10:45 am

Lordy. Home last night for 16 hour stay between trips. I’m heading to airport now for the second trip, then just before I come back SL is leaving in her own trip so another 8 days apart. Was pretty clear playtime was in the cards last night, so took a viagra. Learned, after a long session that involved multiple rollicking Os for SL (fingers, magic wand, tongue, vixskin in various combos — *she* was basically getting a threesome 🙂) that I wasn’t getting unlocked. All of that action and a viagra while caged — MAJOR blue balls and cock trying to burst through the bars discomfort. Took a long time to settle down so I could get to sleep. (In case it’s not clear, this is not a complaint. Was fabulous)
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Re: [cshorts] My (our) journey

Post by KittensBoyToy » Mon Sep 23, 2019 9:49 am

cshorts wrote:
Sun Sep 22, 2019 10:45 am
All of that action and a viagra while caged — MAJOR blue balls and cock trying to burst through the bars discomfort. Took a long time to settle down so I could get to sleep. (In case it’s not clear, this is not a complaint. Was fabulous)
All doped UP and not allowed to go anywhere... :o Don'tcha just love it!!!! :oops: :shock:
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