Since I received my cb6k I have tried couple different set ups. I started off with the largest ring and the second smallest spacer. This seemed to work good but soon found out that my right testicle would slide out, but only in certain situations. From there I was thinking that the ring was too big so I dropped down a ring size, that seemed to fit little better. Definitely a more snug fit, but found out that when I got a erection it wouldn't seem to go down very easily and started to cause quiet a bit of discomfort. So I scratched that set-up and went back to the largest ring and tried the smallest spacer. So far that seems to be working but I have still had my right (why always the right I have no idea) testicle slide out. I find it weird that side comes out when that side seems to be the tighter side on the ring or maybe it just seems that way.
The first time i wore it at night was definitely different, just like I have read before. Always start that part of your journey on a night you don't have to work the next day. I woke up several times the first night. I have worn it a total of three nights so far. I will say it is better even now then it was the first night.
The first day i wore it too work I was nervous about it since I work in a male dominated industry. But me knowing that it was pretty much undetectable under my uniform helped make me more relaxed about being around the guys I work with.
My GF is still not completely on board with this. She doesn't like seeing it on me, thinks it hurts. Even though I tell her it doesn't for the most part. She has always had mixed feeling about doing this, she has done some very light teasing but nothing excessive. I would really like it if she would be more responsive of it, I cant wait til I get to go down on her while locked up. But like i originally said, she has had some medical problems which are definitely getting better since we have found the root of the problem. But the down side of that is her libido is messed up right now from meds. So her interest in anything is very low, so I am hoping that changes also.
I did give her a whole body message on Saturday which was awesome. Was the first real thing that i had really done with her while wearing my chastity. I hope its a step in the right direction, I am very much enjoying my chastity and hope she can share in the enjoyment some day. But until then even though she does have a key and I am basically doing it myself. So that i can keep it clean and have been very good about making sure to lock myself back up in it asap after my shower. Being that its already getting hot here 80-90's I think by summer 110+F I will need to clean often especially since I often work outside.
Until next time
Gorion
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I guess I should tell you a little about myself. I am mid 40's, got married very young. (3 days after 20th b-day) Was married little over 20 yrs when she decided she didn't want to be married any more. Even though i wasn't completely happy, I still took it quite hard. We hadn't had much of a relationship for several years. In fact we had gone 3 1/2 yrs with out having sex at all. About half way through the marriage we went to an open relationship, and in fact that is when i found out that i had already been cuckolded with out even knowing it. But I had at that point longed to see her have sex with someone else. There was only one time that I came close to actually watching her with someone and would have been allowed to take pictures. But we had switched rooms at the hotel that day and so when her friend came over to have his way with her the hotel told him we had checked out. 
We were both very disappointed. But I always enjoyed her coming home and telling me what had happened to her on her date.
I have always been a submissive person in the bedroom, not all the time because I sometimes like to be in control. I have masturbated all my life as I am sure most people in this forum have. Sometime too much for sure. I know when i was married going through those years of no sex I was masturbating 2-3 times per day. Even so much that my body just kinda shut down sexually. I couldn't get it up and had absolutely no desire. It was actually nice not to have that feeling of needing to masturbate. I used it as stress/frustration relief. I have not always done it that much per day. Always seems to fluxuate. I have longed to not to have the feeling that I want to. It has gotten in the way of things because I had misjudged that something wasn't going to happen and let loose. Then later that day ah wow she wants some.
I have been dating my girls for 3 yrs now. She knows about my past and doesn't like it. She is my goddess for sure. I have done more things with her in and out of the bedroom then I ever have in my life. Gone out of the country to Ireland and England. We both loved it. To telling her my desire for chastity and why. Why is my reasoning..... I wanted a way so that I couldn't play with myself, although sometimes I can have very good control not to cum. I would often play still right to the edge and make myself sore. Like I said I am a submissive person so I wanted to have her control my orgasms. When, Where, and How. The thought of her teasing me while locked up just arouses me, or the thought of servicing her only. And maybe it would lead to other things happening in the bedroom between just the 2 of us. She is not interested in cuckolding me and I am fine with that. It was fun while I did it but wasn't good for relationship in my opinion. She is sometimes getting into it but still been very slow coming around to it. Some what discouraging because I would love to see my key on a chain hanging in her cleavage.
Will update some more later need to get going for now.
Gorion
We were both very disappointed. But I always enjoyed her coming home and telling me what had happened to her on her date. I have always been a submissive person in the bedroom, not all the time because I sometimes like to be in control. I have masturbated all my life as I am sure most people in this forum have. Sometime too much for sure. I know when i was married going through those years of no sex I was masturbating 2-3 times per day. Even so much that my body just kinda shut down sexually. I couldn't get it up and had absolutely no desire. It was actually nice not to have that feeling of needing to masturbate. I used it as stress/frustration relief. I have not always done it that much per day. Always seems to fluxuate. I have longed to not to have the feeling that I want to. It has gotten in the way of things because I had misjudged that something wasn't going to happen and let loose. Then later that day ah wow she wants some.
I have been dating my girls for 3 yrs now. She knows about my past and doesn't like it. She is my goddess for sure. I have done more things with her in and out of the bedroom then I ever have in my life. Gone out of the country to Ireland and England. We both loved it. To telling her my desire for chastity and why. Why is my reasoning..... I wanted a way so that I couldn't play with myself, although sometimes I can have very good control not to cum. I would often play still right to the edge and make myself sore. Like I said I am a submissive person so I wanted to have her control my orgasms. When, Where, and How. The thought of her teasing me while locked up just arouses me, or the thought of servicing her only. And maybe it would lead to other things happening in the bedroom between just the 2 of us. She is not interested in cuckolding me and I am fine with that. It was fun while I did it but wasn't good for relationship in my opinion. She is sometimes getting into it but still been very slow coming around to it. Some what discouraging because I would love to see my key on a chain hanging in her cleavage.
Will update some more later need to get going for now.
Gorion
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Things have started to change around here. Last week I was still handling being locked up myself for the most part. What does that mean, well she is not fully comfortable with this even though I discussed this with her before ordering my cb6k. Last week I went 3 full days w/o being let out. She let me out on our night of our 3 yr dating anniversary. Even though nothing happened I was glad she took charge. I locked myself back up myself the next morning. We have had sex twice in the last week. Each time I encouraged her to unlock me to do so.
Sunday she completely shaved for me, which I have never had no one do for me before and have always wanted. I never expected her to do that. I immediately pounced on her bald beauty. I was not locked up at the time but I locked myself up the following morning. Because I knew, knowing she shaved for me would drive me nuts at work and I might loose control. I didn't want that so I did it myself. The following day after I got home from work we ended up having a long discussion about my chastity. She still admits she needs more time to get use to it but agreed to hold the key around her neck on a chain. Every time i see that (even the chain) it makes me aroused. I know she has noticed the change it me since we have started this. She has hinted that she doesn't understand and I have asked her if she has read what I sent her. Which was "He Wants You to Lock Him Up!" on Tickleberry.com. Each time she says no. So I am not sure what to do, all I can assume is that she will when she in comfortable. I would like her to educate herself so she knows what to expected for what she can do. Just tonight she ground herself into me and then apologized for possibly hurting me. I told her don't worry about it I love it.
I gave her a wonderful message last night and today. Nothing else happened but i am definitely happy to do it because I know she likes it. I am so waiting for the time that she tells me to please her orally. I think its getting close but still have some time to go.
Every day I go I feel more connected with her and want to please her more and more everyday. I know i am not a good story teller so I am sure this isnt as good of journey story as some but I do my best.
Till next time
Gorion
Sunday she completely shaved for me, which I have never had no one do for me before and have always wanted. I never expected her to do that. I immediately pounced on her bald beauty. I was not locked up at the time but I locked myself up the following morning. Because I knew, knowing she shaved for me would drive me nuts at work and I might loose control. I didn't want that so I did it myself. The following day after I got home from work we ended up having a long discussion about my chastity. She still admits she needs more time to get use to it but agreed to hold the key around her neck on a chain. Every time i see that (even the chain) it makes me aroused. I know she has noticed the change it me since we have started this. She has hinted that she doesn't understand and I have asked her if she has read what I sent her. Which was "He Wants You to Lock Him Up!" on Tickleberry.com. Each time she says no. So I am not sure what to do, all I can assume is that she will when she in comfortable. I would like her to educate herself so she knows what to expected for what she can do. Just tonight she ground herself into me and then apologized for possibly hurting me. I told her don't worry about it I love it.
I gave her a wonderful message last night and today. Nothing else happened but i am definitely happy to do it because I know she likes it. I am so waiting for the time that she tells me to please her orally. I think its getting close but still have some time to go.
Every day I go I feel more connected with her and want to please her more and more everyday. I know i am not a good story teller so I am sure this isnt as good of journey story as some but I do my best.
Till next time
Gorion
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So I guess when I tried to post earlier today it didn’t take for some reason. So I will try again.
Things have definitely started to make some changes around here. For me I have officially made a week without a release with only a couple hours out of my chastity. May not seem like a lot but its only a start for me.
Like I said last post, she actually closed the lock on my cb6k last Sunday. Then I secured the key on a necklace around her neck.
Not a lot transpired throughout the week, she unlocked me on Thursday so that I could wash everything good. Since, I took my shower in the evening. Due to being all dirty and sweaty from working around the house all day. She told me she would wait to lock me back up til bed time. So by the time bed time came we both got ready and about the time I was to turn off the lights. She days “I don’t think your ready for bed yet are you?” I just said “Can’t it wait until morning?” Her response was a definite “NO” So off I went to grab my cb6k. She locked the padlock and said “goodnight” and gave me a kiss. I was surprised by her response that night but excited too. Because she had actually held me accountable for making sure the chastity was resecured at bed time.
The weather has really been heating up this week and so the pool is ready early this year. So Friday and Saturday nights we skinny dipped after I got off work til we were hungry for dinner. Well Friday night since it was going to be the first night we were getting in the pool, I wasn’t sure if she would wear her necklace with my key on it. So when I came back out with just my towel and cb6k on I was surprised to see the necklace around her neck. Why? I just wasn’t sure if she was at that point yet to start wearing it all situations. I will say there has only been a couple things she really hasn’t worn it too. But for the most part the chain is long enough that she says the key rests nicely between her breasts. So it was nice to skinny with her even if nothing really happened as far as teasing or pleasing. It was just relaxing and good conversation. Then we got in the shower to rinse off. We were about to get in when she said “Ah I forgot to take off my necklace. I didn’t want to wear it in the shower” well since she was stretching to hang it up I thought I would help her. I reached up to grab it from her to hang it up. When she jerks it back and looks at me “What do you think you’re doing, that’s not yours. Keep your hands off!” I was pretty floored at that point and took me a second to answer. Finally I said “Was just trying to help” She didnt believe me
Then came last night. Wow what a shocker this was. I was going to a concert with some guy friends from work. I was a little nervous since this would be like my first time with them in a close quarters place. So when I got home from work my KH was already in her bathing suit and her girl friend was over. They were going to swim, have dinner, and get caught up since it had been a while since they had gotten together. Well her friend went to put on her suit. So I asked my KH “Do you think I could be let out for tonight, she said “What are you serious. I don’t believe you just asked me that. Are you trying to test my trust with you?” I was shocked, the first thing I thought to myself was “ah shit I just f’d up!” amount other things after that. I told her “No not at all, I was just wondering. I know your in charge if you say no then its no.” What happened next was just as amazing to me. I caught myself saying to myself. “Say NO Just tell me No, Say NO!” WHAT! Now I am wanting her to say no, but I was so aroused by what she said that it would have made me even more so if she said no. After a moment of silence she said “That’s fine but when you get home you ARE going back in before you go to bed, GOT IT!” “Yes and thank you princess” is how I responded. Even now typing about this I am trying to bust out of this plastic cage! So after the show I came home to her getting ready for bed. That was fine because I was ready and knew I needed to get up early for work. So I got myself ready also. After I was done I went and got my cb6k, put it back on and walked into the room to her side of the bed. She took the lock and put it back on with a smile. I told her “Thank You” She said “Goodnight” and gave me a big long kiss.
Alarm went off way too early this morning, so I just laid there for couple minutes. I always have a back up set just incase I need it. Well the alarm had woken her up so we chatted for a couple minutes before she just started rubbing my chest. She started playing with my nipples, rubbing them. I couldn’t believe how worked up I was getting just by her doing that. She obviously could tell because she started occasionally pinching my nipples and going to the other one once in a while. Well this lasted for about 10 minutes and she had me so horny. I looked up and kissed her then she said “No” So I took it that I was not supposed to touch her. When she stopped I almost begged for more. I didn’t want her to stop. I couldn’t believe she had done that or continued to do that for so long. I was so and still am, excited that she is starting to take more of a role in this. I know I know “Be careful what you wish for” and I am sure you may be saying “I told you so” later. But I am just so on the edge right now I hope she lets me to start satisfying her.
Until next time,
The very horny Gorion
Things have definitely started to make some changes around here. For me I have officially made a week without a release with only a couple hours out of my chastity. May not seem like a lot but its only a start for me.
Like I said last post, she actually closed the lock on my cb6k last Sunday. Then I secured the key on a necklace around her neck.
Not a lot transpired throughout the week, she unlocked me on Thursday so that I could wash everything good. Since, I took my shower in the evening. Due to being all dirty and sweaty from working around the house all day. She told me she would wait to lock me back up til bed time. So by the time bed time came we both got ready and about the time I was to turn off the lights. She days “I don’t think your ready for bed yet are you?” I just said “Can’t it wait until morning?” Her response was a definite “NO” So off I went to grab my cb6k. She locked the padlock and said “goodnight” and gave me a kiss. I was surprised by her response that night but excited too. Because she had actually held me accountable for making sure the chastity was resecured at bed time.
The weather has really been heating up this week and so the pool is ready early this year. So Friday and Saturday nights we skinny dipped after I got off work til we were hungry for dinner. Well Friday night since it was going to be the first night we were getting in the pool, I wasn’t sure if she would wear her necklace with my key on it. So when I came back out with just my towel and cb6k on I was surprised to see the necklace around her neck. Why? I just wasn’t sure if she was at that point yet to start wearing it all situations. I will say there has only been a couple things she really hasn’t worn it too. But for the most part the chain is long enough that she says the key rests nicely between her breasts. So it was nice to skinny with her even if nothing really happened as far as teasing or pleasing. It was just relaxing and good conversation. Then we got in the shower to rinse off. We were about to get in when she said “Ah I forgot to take off my necklace. I didn’t want to wear it in the shower” well since she was stretching to hang it up I thought I would help her. I reached up to grab it from her to hang it up. When she jerks it back and looks at me “What do you think you’re doing, that’s not yours. Keep your hands off!” I was pretty floored at that point and took me a second to answer. Finally I said “Was just trying to help” She didnt believe me
Then came last night. Wow what a shocker this was. I was going to a concert with some guy friends from work. I was a little nervous since this would be like my first time with them in a close quarters place. So when I got home from work my KH was already in her bathing suit and her girl friend was over. They were going to swim, have dinner, and get caught up since it had been a while since they had gotten together. Well her friend went to put on her suit. So I asked my KH “Do you think I could be let out for tonight, she said “What are you serious. I don’t believe you just asked me that. Are you trying to test my trust with you?” I was shocked, the first thing I thought to myself was “ah shit I just f’d up!” amount other things after that. I told her “No not at all, I was just wondering. I know your in charge if you say no then its no.” What happened next was just as amazing to me. I caught myself saying to myself. “Say NO Just tell me No, Say NO!” WHAT! Now I am wanting her to say no, but I was so aroused by what she said that it would have made me even more so if she said no. After a moment of silence she said “That’s fine but when you get home you ARE going back in before you go to bed, GOT IT!” “Yes and thank you princess” is how I responded. Even now typing about this I am trying to bust out of this plastic cage! So after the show I came home to her getting ready for bed. That was fine because I was ready and knew I needed to get up early for work. So I got myself ready also. After I was done I went and got my cb6k, put it back on and walked into the room to her side of the bed. She took the lock and put it back on with a smile. I told her “Thank You” She said “Goodnight” and gave me a big long kiss.
Alarm went off way too early this morning, so I just laid there for couple minutes. I always have a back up set just incase I need it. Well the alarm had woken her up so we chatted for a couple minutes before she just started rubbing my chest. She started playing with my nipples, rubbing them. I couldn’t believe how worked up I was getting just by her doing that. She obviously could tell because she started occasionally pinching my nipples and going to the other one once in a while. Well this lasted for about 10 minutes and she had me so horny. I looked up and kissed her then she said “No” So I took it that I was not supposed to touch her. When she stopped I almost begged for more. I didn’t want her to stop. I couldn’t believe she had done that or continued to do that for so long. I was so and still am, excited that she is starting to take more of a role in this. I know I know “Be careful what you wish for” and I am sure you may be saying “I told you so” later. But I am just so on the edge right now I hope she lets me to start satisfying her.
Until next time,
The very horny Gorion
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chastityrandy
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Thanks for sharing! I am in the very bgunning stages with my wife. At this point it seems more like something i am doing to myself rather than something she is a part of. She said if chastity was something i wanted to do she did not have a probmem with it, but she has asked no questions about it or tried to understand my expectatiins. While i wait to recieve my cb6000s in the mail it's almost as though none of the conversations ever took place. So i worry that this whole journey is going to fail. I would be very dissappointed if this doesn't work out. We have a great relationship in every way except sex. Time will tell i guess.
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Your welcome Randy,
I am no expert on this by any means, after all I am only really in the beginning stages. I just started off slow with my GF/KH. She was little disappointed when I had ordered my cb6k without her when she finally decided that she would be willing to give it a try. Even after I got it in the mail, it took I think little bit before I even tried it on. Just didn't seem the time was right or that I was just too busy. Then I tried it on several times with out involving her. Just to get the feel for it, since I didn't think she was ready to see it yet. Then the morning I decided to show her she did seem curious when I asked her if she wanted to see it on me but after she did. I will admit she was shocked and didn't seem to like it because she said it looked like it hurt. Then after that yes I too just basically did the journey myself. She would ask about it from time to time and for a while I didn't lock it. We talked about it several times through out the journey so far. She knows that this in arousing to me and is open to it and I think she likes that I am not trying to force it on her. So I guess just take your time and you continue to take the journey on your own. If its something that you want to do that is. For myself I knew that I have had problems with masturbation in the past and it had caused some problems. So I wanted to try and take control of that because I didn't want to have it get in the way, so that's what I had as a goal.
In fact last night we had a conversation about what had happened that morning with the teasing in bed. She just came right out and said "I wasn't sure how to end this morning?" to which I replied "How ever you want it too" she asked me if i enjoyed it and I said "Hell YES!" I explained to her that I never would have guessed her playing with my nipples would have caused that to happen and that I had also got aroused because she was actually teasing me. I told her that I was also very turned on when she told me not to touch the key when we were at the shower. Plus that I had gotten extremely aroused when I asked her if I could be allowed out for the concert. I explained why and actually told her that in my head I was actually saying "Say NO, Tell me NO" she was surprised at that and I am sure I will get that response next time. She explained that she didn't understand why I had asked since she thought the whole idea was she was in charge. So we talked about a lot of it last night, told her basically it ultimately is up to the 2 of us as to what chastity becomes in our lives. She agreed, so I think at least for me letting her slowly move into it and test the waters so to speak that it will continue to change and grow. Who knows where it will lead and I believe that when she is ready she will take control a little more. I truthfully have always had problems giving her an orgasm orally. I told her already that I look forward to her telling me to learn how to do that.
So sometimes I feel that I just ramble on but I hope it helps you. I am sure everyone's Journey in here has been different then the rest. Some faster then others and some slower. I want my Princess to be comfortable with what we are doing and so I don't push or force the issue. Might encourage her to do things, like actually lock the lock herself or wear the necklace. But never more.
Til next time
Gorion
I am no expert on this by any means, after all I am only really in the beginning stages. I just started off slow with my GF/KH. She was little disappointed when I had ordered my cb6k without her when she finally decided that she would be willing to give it a try. Even after I got it in the mail, it took I think little bit before I even tried it on. Just didn't seem the time was right or that I was just too busy. Then I tried it on several times with out involving her. Just to get the feel for it, since I didn't think she was ready to see it yet. Then the morning I decided to show her she did seem curious when I asked her if she wanted to see it on me but after she did. I will admit she was shocked and didn't seem to like it because she said it looked like it hurt. Then after that yes I too just basically did the journey myself. She would ask about it from time to time and for a while I didn't lock it. We talked about it several times through out the journey so far. She knows that this in arousing to me and is open to it and I think she likes that I am not trying to force it on her. So I guess just take your time and you continue to take the journey on your own. If its something that you want to do that is. For myself I knew that I have had problems with masturbation in the past and it had caused some problems. So I wanted to try and take control of that because I didn't want to have it get in the way, so that's what I had as a goal.
In fact last night we had a conversation about what had happened that morning with the teasing in bed. She just came right out and said "I wasn't sure how to end this morning?" to which I replied "How ever you want it too" she asked me if i enjoyed it and I said "Hell YES!" I explained to her that I never would have guessed her playing with my nipples would have caused that to happen and that I had also got aroused because she was actually teasing me. I told her that I was also very turned on when she told me not to touch the key when we were at the shower. Plus that I had gotten extremely aroused when I asked her if I could be allowed out for the concert. I explained why and actually told her that in my head I was actually saying "Say NO, Tell me NO" she was surprised at that and I am sure I will get that response next time. She explained that she didn't understand why I had asked since she thought the whole idea was she was in charge. So we talked about a lot of it last night, told her basically it ultimately is up to the 2 of us as to what chastity becomes in our lives. She agreed, so I think at least for me letting her slowly move into it and test the waters so to speak that it will continue to change and grow. Who knows where it will lead and I believe that when she is ready she will take control a little more. I truthfully have always had problems giving her an orgasm orally. I told her already that I look forward to her telling me to learn how to do that.
So sometimes I feel that I just ramble on but I hope it helps you. I am sure everyone's Journey in here has been different then the rest. Some faster then others and some slower. I want my Princess to be comfortable with what we are doing and so I don't push or force the issue. Might encourage her to do things, like actually lock the lock herself or wear the necklace. But never more.
Til next time
Gorion
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chastityrandy
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I really relate to your posts. It sounds as though you and your gf have a strong relationship and very good communication. As I said my wife and I have a great relationship, but she has always had a very low sex drive and not very creative when it comes to the bedroom. I am basically the opposite and probably oversexed - at age 50 I still masturbate at least 1x per day. Years ago in our marriage, sex caused a lot of stress in our relationship so I decided to take matters into my own hands (pun intended) instead of having our relationship suffer. As a result I never ask for sex, but now we only have sex once or twice a year. I've also noticed now I have a hard time keeping an erection during rare times we do have intercourse which doesn't do anything to encourage more frequency.
For as long as I can remember, I have had a strong desire to take a submissive role in a relationship with a woman. All my fantasies and the porn I watch is of this nature; however, fantasy and porn have been insufficient towards fully satisfying my desires. I am currently living in Belgium as an expat from the United States and I found a dominatrix near where I live that I wanted to see so I made an appointment. I am not so much into bondage and corporal punishment, but she also specialized in humiliation which is what attracted me. As I got closer to the appointment, I realized that I couldn't go through with it unless my wife knew and consented to it (I have never been with anyone other than my wife since married) so I asked her. She did not say no, but I knew it bothered her so after she spent many days thinking about it I told her never mind and decided I just needed to be content with masturbation, fantasy and porn. A few months later and I was still struggling a lot. I actually never gave chastity much thought, but as I tried to think of "easy" ways for my wife to dominate and humiliate me I became more and more aroused by the idea. My wife and I communicate very well on everything except sex given our past, but I finally broke the idea to her and I got the same "I have to think about it" response. After days and days of nothing, I became very frustrated and disappointing, but patiently told her given how long it was taking to think about it, it was clear that she had problems with it so I didn't want to do it. Later that evening she said if it was something I wanted to do she did not have a problem with it, but she did not understand why. Given her shyness about the topic, I sent her several e-mails explaining why it aroused me and explained that her role did not have to be difficult. She only acknowledged that she got the e-mails, but there was no feedback or discussion about them.
Your posts encourage me to have the resolve to just do this on my own for a while. Besides, I've read that it takes some time to fit, adapt and feel comfortable with the CB6K so I could use the coming weeks to get the fit right. I'll be patient and not pushy and see where things go, but if she doesn't take a controlling role in this I doubt I will want to continue with it because it a lone would do nothing to satisfy my needs. I guess if it fails, I'll see if a doctor can do something to reduce my libido and/or see a psychologist - or I hear they legalized pot in Colorado since I've been away; I can move back there and just smoke a lot, lol.
For me the journey began in puberty or perhaps even earlier. It has been a difficult, lonely and dissatisfying one. I don't know where it goes yet, but for now this is at least a path.
For as long as I can remember, I have had a strong desire to take a submissive role in a relationship with a woman. All my fantasies and the porn I watch is of this nature; however, fantasy and porn have been insufficient towards fully satisfying my desires. I am currently living in Belgium as an expat from the United States and I found a dominatrix near where I live that I wanted to see so I made an appointment. I am not so much into bondage and corporal punishment, but she also specialized in humiliation which is what attracted me. As I got closer to the appointment, I realized that I couldn't go through with it unless my wife knew and consented to it (I have never been with anyone other than my wife since married) so I asked her. She did not say no, but I knew it bothered her so after she spent many days thinking about it I told her never mind and decided I just needed to be content with masturbation, fantasy and porn. A few months later and I was still struggling a lot. I actually never gave chastity much thought, but as I tried to think of "easy" ways for my wife to dominate and humiliate me I became more and more aroused by the idea. My wife and I communicate very well on everything except sex given our past, but I finally broke the idea to her and I got the same "I have to think about it" response. After days and days of nothing, I became very frustrated and disappointing, but patiently told her given how long it was taking to think about it, it was clear that she had problems with it so I didn't want to do it. Later that evening she said if it was something I wanted to do she did not have a problem with it, but she did not understand why. Given her shyness about the topic, I sent her several e-mails explaining why it aroused me and explained that her role did not have to be difficult. She only acknowledged that she got the e-mails, but there was no feedback or discussion about them.
Your posts encourage me to have the resolve to just do this on my own for a while. Besides, I've read that it takes some time to fit, adapt and feel comfortable with the CB6K so I could use the coming weeks to get the fit right. I'll be patient and not pushy and see where things go, but if she doesn't take a controlling role in this I doubt I will want to continue with it because it a lone would do nothing to satisfy my needs. I guess if it fails, I'll see if a doctor can do something to reduce my libido and/or see a psychologist - or I hear they legalized pot in Colorado since I've been away; I can move back there and just smoke a lot, lol.
For me the journey began in puberty or perhaps even earlier. It has been a difficult, lonely and dissatisfying one. I don't know where it goes yet, but for now this is at least a path.
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Re: [Gorion] Off to a slow start
Wow I guess its been long then I thought it had been since I last posted anything. Things have been very busy around here for sure.
There has been some ups and downs around here. The first week of may things were going basically as they had been. Some small teasing here and there whether it was verbal or actual touching. Not a lot since like I said I had been doing some repainting in the family room. Took quite a while especially trying to do the faux painting on one wall for the first time. Suggestion, try to get out of doing that at all costs. LOL Royal pain, had to redo 1/2 of a wall. Then she had me pull all the furniture out of the room, vacuum and mop. In order to put down this one large large rug in the room. After it was all done it did look very nice and the best part she was very pleased with the room and me. So the next night we decided to take a break and go skinny dipping in the pool. We were in there for quite some time, chatting, floating, relaxing, having some drinks. Then out of the blue she told me to come over to her, which I did. She said that I could have my chastity off for a while and unlocked me. That surprised me since only a couple days before she had brought up that I wouldn't be getting out for at least. Which at the time prompted a short discussion about why so long. She just flat out said "Because I said so. Don't complain about it" Her boldness at the time very much surprised me and she turned me on big time. Just by being that bold and stern made me try and bust out of my chastity. But anyways. Once she unlocked me we floated around for while longer and she was keeping her distance and intentionally adverting my advances. Well I had too at least try I told myself. After I calmed down for a little while she slowly worked her self to me. She was just hanging on to the raft with the rest of her just suspended in the water. Then helped take the pressure off her hurting back. I was standing in the shallower end and she floated over to me. We started kissing and I was trying to be good and not go too fast, heck I wasn't even sure how far it was going to go. Of course I grew hard which made her grind herself into me. She stopped kissing me to tell me that I could touch her but by no means was I suppose to enter her. She was doing a very good job at driving me crazy. I played with her and rubbed myself along her. I had lost track of time of how long we were like this, seemed like forever. When she reached down and guided me in to her but then promptly grabbed my shaft pretty tight and told me "Only the tip, anymore and your done" I couldn't believe she was actually doing this, it was very arousing to be told like that what to do and my consequences if I was too make a mistake. So I slowly started to concentrate on making sure I didn't get int trouble. I had to slow even more and once stop so that I wouldn't come. She eventually asked me if I liked it and I responded and a "OMG YES!" Then she said "I will allow you a release, If you think you can with just the head. It only took me a couple more pumps before I was climaxing. You know I will say that her control and the dominating me part is definitely arousing. Knowing that I have to wait til and if she allows me a release, heightens it even more I think. But the much larger releases that I have since I am not masturbating and the intense orgasms after the release are way better.
But then she didn't tell me to get back into my chastity. Being since I had just released I didn't feel like going back in so I didn't do it on my own. Like I should have. After that she had a couple bad days of pain and didn't do much, one thing lead to another and it wasn't until last night that she clicked to pad lock shut and dawned the key again. There were many factors that contributed to that. Some of them were mine and some where hers. For me I was wanting her to tell me to get locked back up. It wasn't making sense to me how she can be so bold and stern leading up to this and then nothing. Of course during that time I had masturbated several times and made myself more frustrated. Until I had a talk with her last night. I told her that she needed to be more stern with that part and make sure I lock back up. Watch me do it if necessary. So after a good talk she told me to go get her key and come back ready to be locked up. Which I gladly did. I am not sure what will happen at the end of the month. We are going on a big family vacation to the Caribbean with my family for a week. So I will have to discuss that with her and see if we are going to leave it home or take it with us. Since I have no idea how it hides under my swim suit, which I guess I can test tonight. But either way I know that at least when we get back she will make sure I am taken care of.
So Randy, things are still a learning curve here. Yes we had a lack of communication which I am sure always happens in every relationship from time to time. So I knew I needed to start it or just go ahead and put it back on myself. Yes I would actually like her to work me up to several months to see what its like going that long w/o a release. I know she very much enjoys sex and just hasn't had the libido lately. I also know I don't want to get myself worked up and masturbate, at least not w/o her there. She had even admitted to trying some of her toys and just couldn't get into it. So I hope sometime this year she gets back to being more of herself.
Until next time
Gorion
There has been some ups and downs around here. The first week of may things were going basically as they had been. Some small teasing here and there whether it was verbal or actual touching. Not a lot since like I said I had been doing some repainting in the family room. Took quite a while especially trying to do the faux painting on one wall for the first time. Suggestion, try to get out of doing that at all costs. LOL Royal pain, had to redo 1/2 of a wall. Then she had me pull all the furniture out of the room, vacuum and mop. In order to put down this one large large rug in the room. After it was all done it did look very nice and the best part she was very pleased with the room and me. So the next night we decided to take a break and go skinny dipping in the pool. We were in there for quite some time, chatting, floating, relaxing, having some drinks. Then out of the blue she told me to come over to her, which I did. She said that I could have my chastity off for a while and unlocked me. That surprised me since only a couple days before she had brought up that I wouldn't be getting out for at least. Which at the time prompted a short discussion about why so long. She just flat out said "Because I said so. Don't complain about it" Her boldness at the time very much surprised me and she turned me on big time. Just by being that bold and stern made me try and bust out of my chastity. But anyways. Once she unlocked me we floated around for while longer and she was keeping her distance and intentionally adverting my advances. Well I had too at least try I told myself. After I calmed down for a little while she slowly worked her self to me. She was just hanging on to the raft with the rest of her just suspended in the water. Then helped take the pressure off her hurting back. I was standing in the shallower end and she floated over to me. We started kissing and I was trying to be good and not go too fast, heck I wasn't even sure how far it was going to go. Of course I grew hard which made her grind herself into me. She stopped kissing me to tell me that I could touch her but by no means was I suppose to enter her. She was doing a very good job at driving me crazy. I played with her and rubbed myself along her. I had lost track of time of how long we were like this, seemed like forever. When she reached down and guided me in to her but then promptly grabbed my shaft pretty tight and told me "Only the tip, anymore and your done" I couldn't believe she was actually doing this, it was very arousing to be told like that what to do and my consequences if I was too make a mistake. So I slowly started to concentrate on making sure I didn't get int trouble. I had to slow even more and once stop so that I wouldn't come. She eventually asked me if I liked it and I responded and a "OMG YES!" Then she said "I will allow you a release, If you think you can with just the head. It only took me a couple more pumps before I was climaxing. You know I will say that her control and the dominating me part is definitely arousing. Knowing that I have to wait til and if she allows me a release, heightens it even more I think. But the much larger releases that I have since I am not masturbating and the intense orgasms after the release are way better.
But then she didn't tell me to get back into my chastity. Being since I had just released I didn't feel like going back in so I didn't do it on my own. Like I should have. After that she had a couple bad days of pain and didn't do much, one thing lead to another and it wasn't until last night that she clicked to pad lock shut and dawned the key again. There were many factors that contributed to that. Some of them were mine and some where hers. For me I was wanting her to tell me to get locked back up. It wasn't making sense to me how she can be so bold and stern leading up to this and then nothing. Of course during that time I had masturbated several times and made myself more frustrated. Until I had a talk with her last night. I told her that she needed to be more stern with that part and make sure I lock back up. Watch me do it if necessary. So after a good talk she told me to go get her key and come back ready to be locked up. Which I gladly did. I am not sure what will happen at the end of the month. We are going on a big family vacation to the Caribbean with my family for a week. So I will have to discuss that with her and see if we are going to leave it home or take it with us. Since I have no idea how it hides under my swim suit, which I guess I can test tonight. But either way I know that at least when we get back she will make sure I am taken care of.
So Randy, things are still a learning curve here. Yes we had a lack of communication which I am sure always happens in every relationship from time to time. So I knew I needed to start it or just go ahead and put it back on myself. Yes I would actually like her to work me up to several months to see what its like going that long w/o a release. I know she very much enjoys sex and just hasn't had the libido lately. I also know I don't want to get myself worked up and masturbate, at least not w/o her there. She had even admitted to trying some of her toys and just couldn't get into it. So I hope sometime this year she gets back to being more of herself.
Until next time
Gorion
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