[Parky14] The start of my denial

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Re: [Parky14] The start of self denial

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Just starting day 4, it is 6:30am an my night time erection has just subsided.
It was not quite a bad tonight, perhaps I am just getting used to them.
I know it started around 3am, just like the other nights, but tonight I think I managed to get back to sleep.
I did take a piss, but it did not seem to help at the time, but maybe it did.

I'm trying to assess how I feel, can't really say I feel physically 'strained' at the moment, but mentally there is something going on. Not sure it is giving me the focus I need right now, I seem to be obsessing with the chastity, reading about it looking at others, etc. Perhaps it is just the novelty of it. I do know that just writing this diary has now started to give me another hard on :-(

I will use self control today once I have written this and I will not use the internet to look at porn, etc see if that helps. Also decided not to go out to the sex club tonight, it would be torture and silly to be honest. Until I get more comfortable in my chastity I will keep to myself for now. I do intend to go back to being a sex toy for others, i.e. getting fucked, oral, piss drinking, etc but there will be no sexual satisfaction for me. This is important, as a slave (which is what I want to be) should service his Master and not service himself.

I will be looking to find a Master soon who can then really control the keys and the slave rather than me just not knowing where they are.

It quite interesting getting my thoughts out in the open like this, and I hope my particular sexual perversions are not offensive for others. I'm just being honest and open :-)
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Re: [Parky14] The start of self denial

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Parky14 wrote: It quite interesting getting my thoughts out in the open like this, and I hope my particular sexual perversions are not offensive for others.
Those who aren't interested can discontinue reading about your 'journey'.

I have some similar fantasies, about being *forced* to serve as a 'toy' in the manner you describe...but mine include women as well.

Edit:

I have a few fantasy scenarios that are even kinkier (which I won't get into right now) so, no worries.
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TwistedMister wrote:
Parky14 wrote: It quite interesting getting my thoughts out in the open like this, and I hope my particular sexual perversions are not offensive for others.
Those who aren't interested can discontinue reading about your 'journey'.

I have some similar fantasies, about being *forced* to serve as a 'toy' in the manner you describe...but mine include women as well.

Edit:

I have a few fantasy scenarios that are even kinkier (which I won't get into right now) so, no worries.
Please feel free to private message me with the fantasy :-)
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Just thought to myself "I will have a wank", then remembered :-)
Oh well........

Fatal mistake this afternoon, looked at some porn, got a massive hard on and tried to wank :-(

Of course after 30 mins I got nowhere and when I stopped trying it just shrunk away :-)

Must stop this, the whole point is to not come, but now I know I can't I won't bother trying again.
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Latest update, due to bad weather I'm not going out to fetish night :-(
Probably a good thing as I have been hard so much today, feel I could be getting a bit sore in there, so will let it rest a while and no PORN!

I'm keen to partake in sex, but not come, need to be fucked hard, but not sure how it will feel to then not release as well.

So I'm now at 80 hours, coming to end of 3rd day (was locked in at 14:00 on Tuesday 22nd Jan.
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Weather got a bit better, so I did go out :-)
Have avery good time, won't go into detail as it may offend others.
All I need say is I had a very long sex session with quite a few guys and because I could not come I could take it for so much longer. Usually once I cum the excitement passes and I have to stop, but tonight they were at me like a rabbit and I could take it for ages.

I also don't feel the need to cum, somehow the hard sex satisfied me :-)

On to day 5, soon we a week.

Have found a good rubber squezzy bottle that I can put over the end of the tube, means I can really jet sone soapy water up there, and it needed it tonight!

Night all.

Ian
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Not to bad sleeping last night, some discomfort but not much, just a little nipping around the cock ring.
Can't believe I am on day 5 already, will reach 96 hours locked in at 14:00 today.
Not frustrated or in need of finding the key - yet.
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I have noticed over the past few days a problem has developed.
It is when I go to pee.
I have a long foreskin and I don't know if there is a bit of swelling or just how the foreskin is sitting in the tube but it is blocking the hole in my Steelheart.
When I pee rather than draining from the hole the pressure builds up and piss squirts out of the hole but also ove the top of the CD, making a big mess.
I suppose I can make sure the hole is clear first, but it is a bit annoying.

Any ideas, rather not get released as I have no pain or discomfort.
I will just have to live with it and be careful I suppose. Or plan a circumcision :-)
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I am circumcised and still have to watch out for this. Having a tight tube contributes greatly, I don't remember ever having it happen on the larger diameter tubes. Now that I know that it can happen and to watch for it, it is no longer a problem. I can usually tell when it is likely to happen so I go real slow. As soon as I start to go I can tell if I am ok or not by the way it feels and the how the stream looks coming out. If it isn't right then I stop and adjust a little. Usually just pulling the device away from my body a little is enough. I wish I had something specific to offer but it is all just feel. I suspect that being uncircumcised will make it more difficult.

One sure fire solution would be to get the fixing with penis plug. When I used that it always lined up perfectly.
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I was think abou the penis plug, but will it be ok with a PA?
Is it ok to have the two bits of metal through my cock?
I guess I could move to a very thin PA as that would still serve its purpose to retain my cock in the device.
I assume I can order the penis plug from Steelworxx, but will the CD have to go back?

A bad night for sleep last night, so many erections.
Even waking up with just a bit of a twing can then result in me thinking about my situation which immediately gives me another erection.

Soon coming up to the end of my first week.
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