Just trying again, I left a long post yesterday and it hasn't shown up yet, which may be normal, just testing this out again:
For background, my wife and I have been married for around 10 years, and dating for about 10 before that. We’ve had a sexual relationship for about 15 years, and well, it’s never been that good. In the early years it was a little more exciting, as I assume young sex usually is, but at the same time, we had been together for many years as teenagers before we started having sex, so I don’ think we ever had the “new partner wild sex” phase. Both of us have only ever had sex with each other, at least I know I’ve only had sex with her, and assume the same to be true for her.
My wife has never been interested in sex. There have been individual periods where she’s been wild in bed, but in 15 years, I’d say that’s happened about 5 times.
Now, I’m not trying to criticize her, sexually I’m no catch. I’ve been overweight most of the time we’ve been together, I have a pretty small cock, a little less than 4 inches most of the time, I don’t last a long time, and, on top of all this, I’m a bed wetter and sleep in diapers at the age of 34 (hence the username wettie). So like I said, can’t really blame her.
Recently, I’ve been unemployed for some time. Prior to that year, I was a frequent masturbator, and since I’d say I’m a chronic masturbator. I’ve pressured my wife for sex in the past, and she’s always resisted, but given it to me occasionally out of pity. After a year of her paying the bills, I start to feel guilty asking.
A few months ago while having horrible sex that I had begged for, I spontaneously asked her if she would be interested in a vacation from sex from a year. She quickly said yes. The prospect was interesting and exciting to me, but confirmed what I know, which is that sex with me is something someone would want a vacation from.
I gave it more thought, and talked to my wife about it. At first kind of as a joke, surprised that she said yes, but interested. The more I thought about it, the more I wanted to do it, but didn’t have faith that I could.
After doing a little research online, I saw a few articles about using female birth control to lower sex drive. My wife had a prescription for Yaz birth control, and since we would not be having sex, we decided that I would start taking her pills and see if it helped. If nothing else, it would give us another reason to not have sex since there would have to be condoms involved.
So, I threw out the condoms we had left, and started taking the pill! Now I know this is probably not a great idea, and actually illegal, but felt the risks were pretty low. We don’t want to have any more kids, so even if it messes with my fertility, well, that would be a good thing.
I’ve decided to start keeping a log of how taking the pill has affected me, and how a year of marital celibacy is working out. If I wasn’t clear before, I’m not only avoiding sex with my wife, I will not be having sex with anyone, or masturbating. I know I have set a really long goal for myself, and the likelihood of success is pretty damn low, but what the hell, aim high, the results of failure are pretty low.
I’m hoping that this will get me past my chronic masturbating, take pressure off my wife, and maybe, just maybe, eventually have her asking me for sex for a change. She’s totally into it, but I hope to have the chance at some point to deny her of sex. Is that a little cruel, probably, but I would give her release, just not with my cock. In the past we have used a penis extension sleeve so she could experience sex with a big cock. I don’t think I could use that on her, but I have to admit that I’d be a little excited to fuck her with a true strap on. Strange, right?
Anyway, there’s an account of my year of chemical chastity at
www.chemicalchastity.wordpress.com if you’d like to read the details. It’s not particularly interesting or well written, it’s mostly for my own record keeping.