Does anyone else get a feeling of disappointment after their KH gives them an orgasm? The last couple of orgasms I have had, that is how I felt. I mean, the orgasms felt amazing, and I was very grateful for it, but I was a little disappointed afterwards that my KH allowed me one. It feels to me like we put a lot of effort into denying me (on average, we go about 3-4 months between my orgasms), and then after the orgasm, we have to start all over again.
I remember reading posts from other members saying that they go a year or more without orgasm. And I thought that they were fucking crazy! But at this current time, I am over 6 months without an orgasm, and I want to go longer. When my wife teases me, I beg her for an orgasm. But I feel like if she did give me one, the 6 months would be wasted. So while I beg for an orgasm, and I legitimately want to have an orgasm in the heat of passion, deep down I really DON'T want an orgasm.
I would like to think that I reached some kind of turning point in our chastity relationship. I think I legitimately enjoy the tease & denial aspect, more than the orgasm. I get more pleasure in giving her orgasms, than I do having orgasms myself. Is this a normal step in a chastity relationship?