Reset the timer?

[LockedandLoved]

My KH has me on a 30 day denial of orgasm schedule. I have a porn, masturbation , orgasm addiction so we thought it would be a good "reset" for me to go 30 days cold turkey...no orgasms.

I'm 18 days into it and its difficult.

I, like many here, am able to pull out of my Jailbird. Today in the shower I got a little carried away. I pulled out and started masturbating. I got close and finally a tiny spurt came out. It wasn't an orgasm per se but it was some cum.

My question is would you reset the counter given this event? Or would you only consider a full blown orgasm as a violation? My KH has yet to weigh in on this transgression.

[notbeinfringed85]

My KH considers just the act of pulling out cheating.

[LockedandLoved]

My KH considers just the act of pulling out cheating.

I DEFINITELY cheated. No question.

I'm just trying to figure out whether to reset the denied Timer or not

[Michele]

You son of a beeeeeeeeeeeech!

Hell yes you start over... if she even wants to play with your cheating ass anymore. So disappointing... I would not tolerate him touching himself in a sexual way even through the cage without permission.

Reset! Red ass spanking and a punishment...

[LockedandLoved]

You son of a beeeeeeeeeeeech!

Hell yes you start over... if she even wants to play with your cheating ass anymore. So disappointing... I would not tolerate him touching himself in a sexual way even through the cage without permission.

Reset! Red ass spanking and a punishment...

I respect your opinion Lady M and if my KH wants to punish me then of course I will accept it.

I'm my defense I genuinely have an addiction to PMO. It has rewritten the pathways in my brain and I have attended SAA meetings as well as seen a therapist. It's a bit like a drug addiction in terms of the brain so to go even 18 days was a big feat.

[Michele]

LockedandLoved,

Oh I'm well aware of addiction... and I'm well aware of the Steps to Recovery that's about all I'm going to say about that.

18 days is great but that doesn't mean, if you were mine, that I wouldn't be extremely disappointed and would really have to think if I wanted to play anymore or just hand you back your key. I know that sounds harsh but just like it takes an everyday all day conscience effort to stay sober, it sometimes takes that approach to be in chastity. An everyday conscience devotion to your kh. IMO, talk before you act out.

I wish you luck and I know your kh will make the decision she is going to make that is best for her... I'd just be very hurt.

[mellyshubby]

You may want to incorporate a more secure setup to avoid temptation in the future. If you look back a month or so, I explained how to make pulling out impossible with an open cage device. It really works.

[locked4her55]

I agree with mellyshubby. Now that you've been able to pull out the back you need to prevent the ability to do so in the future or you might as well just take the thing off. Who are you fooling?

[LockedandLoved]

You may want to incorporate a more secure setup to avoid temptation in the future. If you look back a month or so, I explained how to make pulling out impossible with an open cage device. It really works.

I agree.

I am willing to get a piercing but she isn't sold on the idea

It's tough because I know I can do it which makes me think I will do it. It becomes a cycle that builds over time.

I don't want to cheat. I also don't went to be ABLE to cheat.

Would I get bolt cutters and cut off the lock? No.

Will I pull out the back? Well I guess we know the answer to that question.