[jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby cycling2work » Wed Feb 17, 2016 1:28 pm

nice to read your joureney jasmic68.

I have been released from my Holy Trainer after 14 days.


so she freed the bird.. ;) but was there any action? or was it just so you could clean up and have a night in freedom? I have about another week to go and should be receiving an awesome night as my birthday treat. I know she is organising it. So very excited at day 13 now....
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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby Jasmic68 » Thu Feb 18, 2016 4:55 am

cycling2work wrote:nice to read your joureney jasmic68.

I have been released from my Holy Trainer after 14 days.


so she freed the bird.. ;) but was there any action? or was it just so you could clean up and have a night in freedom? I have about another week to go and should be receiving an awesome night as my birthday treat. I know she is organising it. So very excited at day 13 now....


It was just a release for a clean and a night of freedom. We were sleeping in our friends spare room, directly above the room her two teenage sons slept in, so no action was possible. Also I am denied for the whole of Lent, so I am not going to get any orgasms until at least 24 March.

My Wife on the other hand has already had two since we got home yesterday evening!
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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby Jasmic68 » Fri Feb 26, 2016 5:05 am

I have been wondering when I would start to feel overtly horny and worrying that I didn't seem to be getting to that point. It has been over a month now since my last orgasm and I felt quite happy in that situation. I have read a few people saying that long term chastity left them with a reduced libido, so I was getting a bit concerned that was happening to me.

I needn't have worried. I woke up at 05.50 this morning with a ridiculous attempted erection. I felt turned on and didn't know why. In fact it took me a while to realise what was going on. It has been a while since I woke up in the night and needed to pee to release the pressure of an erection, so it was a bit of a surprise when it happened. It has also been a week since I was last able to give any sexual attention to my Wife after she hurt her back, so it wasn't because of that.

All I know is that my balls feel like they are fizzing today. Before I started chastity I would definitely have masturbated. I am glad to say I am not tempted at all now, I made a promise I intend to stick to.

It does make me wonder how I am going to cope over the next month or so. I still haven't had confirmation from my Wife that I am to be kept denied for lent, but she is quite religious so it is possible. She doesn't agree with having set periods of denial, preferring to be unpredictable and spontaneous, but she seemed Ok with the idea when I suggested it. As for going until my Birthday in May I am now thinking that might be a bit ambitious!
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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby Jasmic68 » Wed Mar 02, 2016 7:32 am

The fizzing balls I wrote about in my last post decided to release a large amount of thick, gloopy semen unannounced after I had gone to bed. I was still awake, playing a game on my iPad when all of a sudden my penis twitched a few times and then it happened. I have never had anything like that happen to me before, so it was a bit of a shock. I wish my Wife had seen it as I was a bit upset by the experience. Not the actual release itself, more the fact I had promised not to masturbate in any way, I hadn't thought about involuntary relief!

There was no pleasure in the release, it just splurged everywhere.
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Recently I have found myself less and less interested in the type of post where someone goes into great detail about how much incredible horny sex they are having, denied or otherwise. I am interested in reading why people choose the chastity lifestyle and the effect it has on their life and relationships, but steamy details do nothing for me. I think it is because I am not having to put up with a fantasy of my own chastity life, my Wife and I are more active than we have been for years. I have pretty much stopped looking at any porn apart from the Only She Cums tumblr blog as well.
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That said my Wife and I did have quite a session Sunday night. I had my first orgasm in 35 days and my Wife thoroughly enjoyed herself. I had been unlocked all day first because we had been swimming and second because I had a slight rash developing on the underside of my penis. My Wife decided that I needed some time to recover, and she needed some attention.

I had asked to be denied for lent, primarily so she could see that I was able to put up with a long period of denial. The problem Is she has not yet learnt how to deny me without denying herself. She still feels guilty if she cums and I don't. I am going to have to get her to join and get some help in the Keyholder section as I know she is very close to being much more assured in what she does as she is just getting better and better at it.

Anyway, I have lost a considerable amount of weight this year. for UK readers it amounts to 1.8 stone, for Europeans that is 11.5 kg and my American friends 25 pounds. It means I am lighter than at any time since my mid 30's, over 20 years ago. This was the first time we had had full sex since the weight loss and associated fitness improvements and it translated itself into me being able to go much longer, harder and faster just when my Wife needed it.

I had the pleasure of hearing her say things like 'Oh God', 'That is nice', 'Oh, oh, oh,' and, when I had finished 'That was FANTASTIC!' with a big smile on her face and a lovely red sex flush to her cheeks. Best of all we had a simultaneous orgasm, and I cannot remember the last time that happened.

Chatting afterwards she admitted that she has been denying herself to please me. How on earth do I get her to understand that is not at all what I want? It is incredible though that since we started the chastity lifestyle within 4 months she is wanting much more sex and general sexual attention than for the past ten years at least. Just through being in charge, being given the space in which to relax and not having to worry about what happens.

I have been released for the past three days and my penis looks much better. I really hope she decides to lock me up again tonight.
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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby newbie » Wed Mar 02, 2016 7:45 am

Nice post. I love reading your Journey entries.
Last orgasm: October 20, 2016. Masturbated while locked. :(

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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby Jasmic68 » Fri Mar 04, 2016 6:19 pm

This is not an easy post for me to write, but I have to be honest with myself. As far as I am concerned honesty is the natural partner to chastity.

I need a new chastity device. My Holy Trainer just doesn't cut it any more. In the evenings I can pull my penis out ridiculously easily, and put it back almost as easily. There is literally no point me having it on apart from the fact I like it. I probably couldn't pull it out in the mornings as my balls are tighter, I haven't tried.

I am also having issues with an area of skin on the underside of my shaft. Last Sunday I noticed that It had got very red and the skin was close to breaking. I was only locked back up last night after my Wife said I had to let my penis recover. Tonight I started getting a bad itch so I pulled my penis out and the redness is coming back already. I have cleaned the area and put him back in the tube.

The HTv2 was a perfect way to start as after the disaster of my first three devices we were on the verge of giving up. When it arrived it fit from the moment I first put it on. It gave us the opportunity to work through all of the early issues and actually decide that yes, this really is the way things are going to be from now on. I am a week away from wearing it for four months and I am so relieved it worked.

I know not everyone needs a chastity device and I think I have learnt enough about myself to be sure I would be able to keep myself chaste without one. The issue is I want to keep my glans covered up and I cannot have a PA, so I need to find an alternative metal device. If I could have a PA then the Evotion custom devices are tempting, but not suitable for me.

Buggrem buggrit, as one of my favorite Pratchett characters would say.
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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby Jasmic68 » Mon Mar 21, 2016 2:59 am

I have been away from home on my first business trip in Germany. Locked up for the duration, it was the first time I have been away from my Wife whilst locked. It really gave me an opportunity to think about what we are doing. I spent five nights in a Gasthof room eating salads for my dinner and not watching TV. To say I got bored is a bit of an understatement and I thought a lot about chastity and how it has changed me. The most obvious change is I did not masturbate once, or even really want to. I did ponder on the fact that before chastity I would have spent hours paying with myself!

Instead I waited until I got home and reaped the rewards this weekend. My Wife and I had a shower together after swimming on Saturday and she stimulated me so much I actually couldn't stand up anymore and collapsed in a heap at her feet. No orgasm for me over the weekend, it has now been three weeks since my last, but this weekend there were two very nice ones for my Wife.

The best one was when I started orally pleasuring her when she was doing some German lessons with the Duolingo app. It was so funny listening to her say phrases in German whilst moaning and making other pleasurable noises. She was getting more and more of the phrases wrong as time went on and in the end she gave up and put the iPad down. I was soooo turned on by the noises and movements she was making.

With regards to the way my chastity device fits, or doesn't as the case may be, I am now OK with it. My Wife talked to me about how much she completely trusts me not to break our contract and do anything naughty whilst she is not around. This has made the device very much a symbol of the chastity rather than the enforcer. I would never break that trust and the way she spoke about me made me feel really proud to be her husband, and of course hugely lucky that I am married to this incredible woman.
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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby Jasmic68 » Tue May 17, 2016 4:03 am

It has been a good few months since my last update. I didn't realise I had left things so long.

Things have developed very nicely. My Wife has had 35 orgasms this year (yes, I like counting them!) to my 3 full and 2 accidental emissions that expelled semen from me with no orgasm. My last orgasm was on Sunday and was incredible. My Wife, without telling me that it was going to be so long, denied me for 2 months, 2 weeks and 2 days.

The extra part to that story is that the day before, Saturday, was my birthday. My Wife totally led me on, making me think I was going to get to cum, and then denied me. On my birthday! She took my device off in the morning (which was the day before our swim when I normally get released, so very unusual.) We had a shower together where she stimulated me to near orgasm by rubbing my bottom, then standing behind me rubbed her pussy up and down my buttocks while she reached around and played with the base of my penis.

This was extremely significant. It is the first time she has touched my penis since last August. That was when I modified my glans which started the entire journey into chastity in the first place. I nearly collapsed in her arms. We went to her bed and continued to fool around. She had a grand time and eventually I started licking first her bottom, then flipped her over and started licking her pussy.

I was expecting her to get close then to pull me up and ask me to make love to her. Any second now, I kept thinking. She is getting really close to an orgasm. It is building up. Any second now.... now.... er, now?

Then it hit me. She isn't going to ask me. On my birthday! I immediately got a raging erection as the realisation hit home, that she had got to a point where after two and a half months of no penetrative sex she was going to let me give her an oral orgasm on my birthday, and I wasn't going to have an orgasm at all.

The next morning it was cold in Germany so we decided to stay in bed and fool around again. It was unusual that she pushed me back down to lick her again, so soon after her previous orgasm. This time though she did pull me up, but insisted I put on the delay spray we had recently bought. Also that I completely cover my shaft and glans with a good spraying. It was bizarre, the stuff totally worked, ten minutes later I couldn't feel my penis at all as it entered her.

The thing was I could feel my abdomen pressed against hers and my balls smacking against her bottom. I tried really hard to stop it happening but before she managed to orgasm I came, and with such power there was no way I was going to be able to continue.

She wasn't disappointed with me having an orgasm, she treated it more like an experiment. Her feeling is that the spray worked but we need to find some other way of stopping me having an orgasm. Her thoughts are that a few ruined orgasms first might work. She doesn't want to use condoms as well as the spray just yet, so we will see.

I shall split this post up here as there is still quite a bit to go!
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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby Jasmic68 » Tue May 17, 2016 4:21 am

There is a well known claim made regularly in chastity captioned images and in forum posts. You all know the one. It says that after a man has an orgasm he loses interest in his partner. I have claimed to never 'suffer' from this issue, if anything I love my Wife even more when she has been so considerate and privileged me this way. I have never taken the fact she wants sex with me for granted.

Anyway, she decided to test the claim. She also wanted to find out if my response to her stimulation had dipped after the orgasm. So, after a really nice day, we went to her bedroom and got into the shower together. She let me wash her back and bottom and was pleased to note that being allowed to do that still aroused me appreciably.

She then proceeded to stimulate me to the point of collapse. She stood behind me, washed my back, then my buttocks. She then kept rubbing me between my buttocks, caressed my balls, rubbed my abdomen, kissed my ears and tweaked my nipples. Eventually I couldn't take it any more and I slid down the wall of the shower to kneel in a heap at her feet.

I mentioned to her that I had noticed a change in her, that all of a sudden she was having a lot more fun with her power. She agreed that she was feeling more confident. She demonstrated that confidence yesterday, Monday, with an incredible display of control.

She worked at home as it was a public holiday in Germany, and all her work colleagues were off. It was lovely as my son goes to an international school so he didn't have the day off and we had the house to ourselves. I made her really happy by getting some significant jobs done. In her words I had been a very good boy.

We went upstairs in the evening to do our German lessons (we are learning, or at least attempting to learn to speak the lingo.) When we had finished we cuddled and smooched a bit. I wasn't expecting this to go anywhere as she doesn't really feel like much during the week. All of a sudden she pushed one hand up my top to play with my nipples, shoved her other hand inside my jeans and played with my bottom, all while sticking her tongue in my ear which I find a huge turn on.

She waited until I was panting with desire before getting up, brushing herself off and declaring that she was going downstairs for a cup of tea! She laughed at the state I was in and just smiled as I begged her to stay.

Bedtime. I have got ready and am told to leave the bathroom so she can prepare herself. I clearly hear her washing her pussy and buttocks and I get very excited. She is so happy with my efforts I am going to get to pleasure her again! My thoughts are confirmed when she climbs into bed, totally naked, and wraps her still slightly damp things around my legs.

She then goes to town on me. I cannot exactly remember what happened but she had her leg pressed up against my device, my penis desperately trying to get hard, and got me closer and closer to feeling like I was going to cum. I actually got to the stage where I was desperate to lick her and asked her to let me. And she told me no!!!! She said that in that case it was time for sleep, and pushed me away, giggling at the look of desperation on my face.

She told me that if I am a good boy all week that I will be allowed to pleasure her with a good licking at the weekend. Where on earth did that come from!? This really is an escalation of her demonstrating the control she has over me, and it really, really turned me on. I struggled to get to sleep.

I am stunned. This is way beyond what I was expecting from her and yet again demonstrates how lucky I am that this gorgeous woman is my Wife.
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Re: [jasmic68] Making it real. Slowly.

Postby Jasmic68 » Tue May 24, 2016 7:06 am

The Crash

I have experienced something that has really shook me up. It was an experience that has been hard to process and to deal with, and I am not sure how to move forward after it.

Basically I lost complete control. I was in a rapture, totally consumed by desire. Sunday afternoon my Wife decided we would share a shower. As is her usual practice these days she invited me in, let me wash her back and bottom, then told me to turn around so she could wash and stimulate me.

I was already aroused as I was putting shower gel onto my hand. By the time I finished washing her and playing with her bottom I was beginning to lose control. My Wife washed my back then played with my bottom until I was unable to stand up any more.

In her bedroom I started kissing her back and basically this was where I completely lost the ability to control myself. When I orally pleasure my Wife I am usually calm and listen to her body, the sounds and movements she makes, to ensure she gets the best possible reaction. Not this time. I was frantic.

After a while she pushed me away and told me to stop as I was making her sore. She had definitely been enjoying some of what I was doing but it was almost pornographic in its intensity and she couldn't keep going. She looked shocked when she saw the state I was in.

And that is when I had the crash. The emotional turmoil I experienced when I realised just how far down the rabbit hole I had plummeted was horrible. We sat on the bed, unable to talk. I tried to cuddle her, more because I was desperate for some kind of contact from her, to know that she was alright and to start feeling alright myself.


It took my Wife a good few hours to calm down but she has been great since. Monday was a bad day for me as I continued to go over in my head what had happened, to try and understand what I had been through. As much as I want her to have a certain amount of power over me, I want to feel aroused and passionate, this was a dark experience that I want to avoid. My Wife has insisted that if we do this it has to be fun. This was not fun, it was way too intense.

If she had had a powerful explosive orgasm from what I was doing then obviously the feelings I have now would be utterly different. But the look of shock on her face is not something I want to ever see again.
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