Today is day 4 of my self imposed chastity. So far I have had only minor issues with the chastity device. The first day I realized I had too large a size on as while working, luckily at the end of the night, one of my testicles popped out. After switching to a smaller ring and spacer all fit well, and there has been no more slipping out.
Day 2 went smooth, but on day 3 I think there is some chaffing occurring. My testicles are use to retreating, but with the device they cannot, & the shape of the device while pointing down still has my package sticking out more than normal. I believe that my stretched testicles rubbing in my leg is what is causing the problem. I'll continue to monitor, because otherwise the for is good.
I found that today for the first time in a long time I didn't watch any porn in the morning. I did have to rush out of the house to avoid long gas lines, but even so I usually squeezed it in no matter what. Interesting to see if the trend continues.
Sadly as I haven't told my wife about my chastity tonight I will be unlocking myself and will be free for two days. So far I have been good about locking myself up each morning before being tempted to do anything, but to hold off for two days may be rough.
On a positive note my wife is having a girls getaway for 2 nights, so I will get the chance to be locked for those 2 days straight including over night which I have yet to do. (I plan on hiding the keys in her luggage so that I won't even have access to them.) If all goes well, I hope to show my wife when she returns, and have a talk about how to move forward with my chastity and have my wife become my key holder.
-MFL
CB6KS
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Device notes:
Friday November 9th was my 4 th day in chastity, and that night as I did every other night I took off the device so as to not alert my wife. I noticed that the skin at the top of the ring was a little raw. So far having used some lotion to sooth it has worked, but I will continue to monitor.
Relationship notes:
As my wife was going away this weekend, and we hadn't been intimate all week I had expexted that we would spend some quality time together. Friday night was our first chance to be together, but we were both exhausted from the week and we went right to bed. Saturday I decided to chance it and after a shower and shave I locked myself up again.
Saturday night came and I surprised myself in two ways. Based on posts I've read the male suddenly does more chores or such. Well I already do a fair share of the chores, more so even by my wife's own admission.
So my first surprise came from when I found my self cuddling with my wife. Not that we didn't in the past, but I would always jump right into kissing, and though we both enojy this, my wife misses the cuddling. So were I didn't think I would change here I was focusing on cudddling to make sure my wife was being satisfied before satisfying my own desires.
Secondly after having moved furniture from one apartment to another all day Saturday for a friend, I was physically tired. Somehow just from the cuddling I found a reserve of energy that would have kept me going all night it felt like. Unfortunately my wife spent the night packing for her getaway, so we again went right to sleep.
Personal Notes:
Sunday morning my wife left on her trip. I locked myself up, and attached the keys to her keychain. I can hope she notices them, but it is unlikely as she isn't driving. So I have been locked all day, but was at work until 12:30 am. I got on the computer and for the first time in a few days I watched porn as is my normal routine when left alone. What intense feelings from self teasing.
When I first decided to self chastize I understood the lack of masturbation, but what has shocked me was the inability to touch or feel sensation because of the thickness of the device. I am glad I chose a clear design, because I am not sure I could handle boh the loss of touch, and sight of my penis.
As I read the forum I realized more and more that this can be long term, and again I feel as if I am going through week one fairly well, but when I consider a 6 month period, I can't even say what I am feeling. Is it loss, fear, desire, passion?
All these emotions: frustration, loss, and passion roll over me and I am starting to learn to use that energy to fuel my conviction. I am still nervous about telling my wife, but since she has the keys I'll have no choice but to show/tell her about it. I hope to use this new energy to help bring my wife on board.
(Markbentorah: Thank you for the support.)
Now to see if I can sleep with the device. I am a fairly good sleeper, but this will be the first night.
-MFL
CB6KS
Since: 11/6/2012
Friday November 9th was my 4 th day in chastity, and that night as I did every other night I took off the device so as to not alert my wife. I noticed that the skin at the top of the ring was a little raw. So far having used some lotion to sooth it has worked, but I will continue to monitor.
Relationship notes:
As my wife was going away this weekend, and we hadn't been intimate all week I had expexted that we would spend some quality time together. Friday night was our first chance to be together, but we were both exhausted from the week and we went right to bed. Saturday I decided to chance it and after a shower and shave I locked myself up again.
Saturday night came and I surprised myself in two ways. Based on posts I've read the male suddenly does more chores or such. Well I already do a fair share of the chores, more so even by my wife's own admission.
So my first surprise came from when I found my self cuddling with my wife. Not that we didn't in the past, but I would always jump right into kissing, and though we both enojy this, my wife misses the cuddling. So were I didn't think I would change here I was focusing on cudddling to make sure my wife was being satisfied before satisfying my own desires.
Secondly after having moved furniture from one apartment to another all day Saturday for a friend, I was physically tired. Somehow just from the cuddling I found a reserve of energy that would have kept me going all night it felt like. Unfortunately my wife spent the night packing for her getaway, so we again went right to sleep.
Personal Notes:
Sunday morning my wife left on her trip. I locked myself up, and attached the keys to her keychain. I can hope she notices them, but it is unlikely as she isn't driving. So I have been locked all day, but was at work until 12:30 am. I got on the computer and for the first time in a few days I watched porn as is my normal routine when left alone. What intense feelings from self teasing.
When I first decided to self chastize I understood the lack of masturbation, but what has shocked me was the inability to touch or feel sensation because of the thickness of the device. I am glad I chose a clear design, because I am not sure I could handle boh the loss of touch, and sight of my penis.
As I read the forum I realized more and more that this can be long term, and again I feel as if I am going through week one fairly well, but when I consider a 6 month period, I can't even say what I am feeling. Is it loss, fear, desire, passion?
All these emotions: frustration, loss, and passion roll over me and I am starting to learn to use that energy to fuel my conviction. I am still nervous about telling my wife, but since she has the keys I'll have no choice but to show/tell her about it. I hope to use this new energy to help bring my wife on board.
(Markbentorah: Thank you for the support.)
Now to see if I can sleep with the device. I am a fairly good sleeper, but this will be the first night.
-MFL
CB6KS
Since: 11/6/2012
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-MFL
Holy Trainer, small
Holy Trainer, small
Re: [darthball] Darthball's world
Device notes: I was thinking of swithing to a smaller ring size, as when completely soft I feel as if there is wiggle room, but since it has been pretty comfortable, even at times I can forget I have it on, why bother over doing it since it is still doing what it needs to do.
Relationship notes: I spoke to my wife on her return from her girls weekend, and we had a good long talk about my desire for chastity, and how I had been locked for the past week, including 24/7 during her trip. As it was a surprize to her, and she being vanilla she was taken back by it all. We talked, cried, and laughed, so that in the end over the past two days we had good, open conversations about our desires. My wife is still not keen on the idea, and she would perfer that I keep chaste without a device, she is at the moment allowing it all to play out. Which means that so far I am still locked in my device.
On a positive note we did end up having relations with each other, and though my wife refused to even look at the device, I was allowed to pleasure her while I was denied release which was a exhilirating feeling. For a good hour after I was still shaking from the pent up energy seeking escape. I was so turned on that I thought my member would break free of the CB6KS.
Personal notes: I thought I did fairly well on my first week, being able to stay locked, with periods of being unlocked and still managed to stay chaste. While there were moments of frustration and desperation I never had thoughts of wavering. After spending time with my wife, and now looking forward to future relations I feel truely tested. I was very happy to please my wife, and when she asked if I was dying to be released I said no, but as we left the bedroom, and proceeded to move on with the rest of the day, and I was still throbbing with desire, with no means of release I was truely tested. I am doing my best to chanel that energy into a fortified resolve, but I am not sure how long I can truely hold out. In my mind I have grandeous ideas of holding out until Memorial Day (6 months away) but that may not be very realistic for for either myself or my wife.
Moving forward: I know my wife feels in the dark about chastity, so I hope to help her find some more information online. This way we can explore my chastity together. I also feel like we need a plan of sort, something like rules of play. Though I am pretty sure these will develop over time, and as we explore the online sites together. -
MFL
Device: CB6KS
Locked Since: 11/5/2012
Release Date: TBD (at most by May 27th, 2013)
Relationship notes: I spoke to my wife on her return from her girls weekend, and we had a good long talk about my desire for chastity, and how I had been locked for the past week, including 24/7 during her trip. As it was a surprize to her, and she being vanilla she was taken back by it all. We talked, cried, and laughed, so that in the end over the past two days we had good, open conversations about our desires. My wife is still not keen on the idea, and she would perfer that I keep chaste without a device, she is at the moment allowing it all to play out. Which means that so far I am still locked in my device.
On a positive note we did end up having relations with each other, and though my wife refused to even look at the device, I was allowed to pleasure her while I was denied release which was a exhilirating feeling. For a good hour after I was still shaking from the pent up energy seeking escape. I was so turned on that I thought my member would break free of the CB6KS.
Personal notes: I thought I did fairly well on my first week, being able to stay locked, with periods of being unlocked and still managed to stay chaste. While there were moments of frustration and desperation I never had thoughts of wavering. After spending time with my wife, and now looking forward to future relations I feel truely tested. I was very happy to please my wife, and when she asked if I was dying to be released I said no, but as we left the bedroom, and proceeded to move on with the rest of the day, and I was still throbbing with desire, with no means of release I was truely tested. I am doing my best to chanel that energy into a fortified resolve, but I am not sure how long I can truely hold out. In my mind I have grandeous ideas of holding out until Memorial Day (6 months away) but that may not be very realistic for for either myself or my wife.
Moving forward: I know my wife feels in the dark about chastity, so I hope to help her find some more information online. This way we can explore my chastity together. I also feel like we need a plan of sort, something like rules of play. Though I am pretty sure these will develop over time, and as we explore the online sites together. -
MFL
Device: CB6KS
Locked Since: 11/5/2012
Release Date: TBD (at most by May 27th, 2013)
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-MFL
Holy Trainer, small
Holy Trainer, small
Re: [darthball] Darthball's world
Device notes:
So far so good with the device. Last night I woke up in. the middle of the night with an erection, and for the first time it hurt as the skin was being pinched around the base of the ring. Luckily I had some lotion on hand and was able to smooth everything out and go right back to sleep.
My only gripe is the hole the lock passes through has loosened slightly, which is allowing the lock to move around easily, so when wearing loose pants (such as my pj's) I hear a clicking sound with each step as the lock bounces around. I may just have to tape it down.
Relationship/Personal notes:
Its awesome how smart my wife is, and how quickly she figures out how chadtity is more than just a deterant but a new form of play. She joked the other night that it would only.be fair to keep me locked up for as long as many times as she has had to fake orgasams. Which she had counted out to be 50 times. So that would mean I need to please her 50 times before considering release. 2 down 47 to go.
In reality though she wants to release me. She has been wanting penetration and since I have refused to unlock myself telling her only she can let me out I haven't been released yet.
She told me that she was going to release me last night, so I went the whole day thinking of freedom. After work we went out to dinner, and she told me she had bad news, her monthly visitor came, and so there would be no sex or release. I could not beleive the wave of feelings that came over me. My wife was still talking, so I had to ask her to stop as I couldnt concentrate. I was instantly aroused, straining at the cage, pleasure, and frustration wadhimg over me for a good 2 to 3 minutes. I'm calling it a chadtity orgasm. It was amazing.
Later that night we took a shower together and my wife asked if we should unlock the device, but I said I shouldn't be allowed out if she can't enjoy it. She agreed and so here I am locked up for at least another week until her period passes. The shower was amazing as well for a few rasons. First its the first time my wife evrn looked at the device, but she didn't touch it. But every touch either me to her, or her to me had me on high, at times even moaning with pleasure.
We then went to bed, my wife relaxed after giving her a massage, and me with a straining hardon. What a wonderful night.
-MFL
CB6KS
Locked since 11/5/2012
Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving
So far so good with the device. Last night I woke up in. the middle of the night with an erection, and for the first time it hurt as the skin was being pinched around the base of the ring. Luckily I had some lotion on hand and was able to smooth everything out and go right back to sleep.
My only gripe is the hole the lock passes through has loosened slightly, which is allowing the lock to move around easily, so when wearing loose pants (such as my pj's) I hear a clicking sound with each step as the lock bounces around. I may just have to tape it down.
Relationship/Personal notes:
Its awesome how smart my wife is, and how quickly she figures out how chadtity is more than just a deterant but a new form of play. She joked the other night that it would only.be fair to keep me locked up for as long as many times as she has had to fake orgasams. Which she had counted out to be 50 times. So that would mean I need to please her 50 times before considering release. 2 down 47 to go.
In reality though she wants to release me. She has been wanting penetration and since I have refused to unlock myself telling her only she can let me out I haven't been released yet.
She told me that she was going to release me last night, so I went the whole day thinking of freedom. After work we went out to dinner, and she told me she had bad news, her monthly visitor came, and so there would be no sex or release. I could not beleive the wave of feelings that came over me. My wife was still talking, so I had to ask her to stop as I couldnt concentrate. I was instantly aroused, straining at the cage, pleasure, and frustration wadhimg over me for a good 2 to 3 minutes. I'm calling it a chadtity orgasm. It was amazing.
Later that night we took a shower together and my wife asked if we should unlock the device, but I said I shouldn't be allowed out if she can't enjoy it. She agreed and so here I am locked up for at least another week until her period passes. The shower was amazing as well for a few rasons. First its the first time my wife evrn looked at the device, but she didn't touch it. But every touch either me to her, or her to me had me on high, at times even moaning with pleasure.
We then went to bed, my wife relaxed after giving her a massage, and me with a straining hardon. What a wonderful night.
-MFL
CB6KS
Locked since 11/5/2012
Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving
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-MFL
Holy Trainer, small
Holy Trainer, small
Re: [darthball] Darthball's world
Another wonderful night. I went the whole day with barely an erection. I didn't think we would have any relations as my wife is physically out of commission at the moment, and I haven't watched any porn because well I can't do anything.
Well after a long day for both of us, we retired to bed early. My wife's back was hurting so I decided to give her a massage. This had me very excited, and after working out all knots we cuddled up under the covers.
Here I am laying down lightly brushing my hand over my wife when she reaches over and starts playing with the cage of my device. Well what I mind game for me. I was quivering in delight. Not only wss this the first time my wife had touched my privates since putting the device on, but I know she is touching me, but I can't feel a thing except when she brushes past my exposed parts.
I was nonstop quivering with frustration and pleasure. In my head I wss screaming for the key, but I couldn't resist wanting to continue feeling this good. I look forward to my possible release, but I also look forward to remaining locked up.
Oh what fun.
-MFL
CB6KS
Locked since 11/5/2012
Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving
P.S. Just in case she's counting we are now at 5 out of 50. Only 45 more orgasms for her to go before I can rekease.
Well after a long day for both of us, we retired to bed early. My wife's back was hurting so I decided to give her a massage. This had me very excited, and after working out all knots we cuddled up under the covers.
Here I am laying down lightly brushing my hand over my wife when she reaches over and starts playing with the cage of my device. Well what I mind game for me. I was quivering in delight. Not only wss this the first time my wife had touched my privates since putting the device on, but I know she is touching me, but I can't feel a thing except when she brushes past my exposed parts.
I was nonstop quivering with frustration and pleasure. In my head I wss screaming for the key, but I couldn't resist wanting to continue feeling this good. I look forward to my possible release, but I also look forward to remaining locked up.
Oh what fun.
-MFL
CB6KS
Locked since 11/5/2012
Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving
P.S. Just in case she's counting we are now at 5 out of 50. Only 45 more orgasms for her to go before I can rekease.
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-MFL
Holy Trainer, small
Holy Trainer, small
Re: [darthball] Darthball's world
Starting on week 3. Based on my work schedule and with the Holiday I may not be released until this Saturday. At which point my drive to do things to the extreme will kick in and may just beg to wait the extra week so I can say I made ot a month on my first go. Ofcourse that competitveness may come back to haunt me, because if I beg for one month, whose to say my wife may just say to eait until new years.
I doubt that would really happen, but it excites me to fantazie it's possibility. The reality is the other day after giving my wife her third orgasm of the day I just jumped on top of her and atempted to have penetrative intercourse, regardles of the fact that I was trapped in my device. My wife just whispered in my ear, "soon,." and got out of bed. she even joked with me, she daid , "I would tell you to put your boy away, but that's pointless it already is."
It has been 3 days since she said "soon", and all I can think about when I'm near her is how I want to be with her so badly, but when I'm away all I want is to remain locked up.
Overall I am very happy to have tried chastity. I just hope my wife comes to appreciate it as well.
-MFL
CB6KS
Locked since 11/5/2012
Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving
5/50
I doubt that would really happen, but it excites me to fantazie it's possibility. The reality is the other day after giving my wife her third orgasm of the day I just jumped on top of her and atempted to have penetrative intercourse, regardles of the fact that I was trapped in my device. My wife just whispered in my ear, "soon,." and got out of bed. she even joked with me, she daid , "I would tell you to put your boy away, but that's pointless it already is."
It has been 3 days since she said "soon", and all I can think about when I'm near her is how I want to be with her so badly, but when I'm away all I want is to remain locked up.
Overall I am very happy to have tried chastity. I just hope my wife comes to appreciate it as well.
-MFL
CB6KS
Locked since 11/5/2012
Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving
5/50
0 x
-MFL
Holy Trainer, small
Holy Trainer, small
Re: [darthball] Darthball's world
I am so mad at myself, and I have yet been able to forgive my indiscretion.
Its the day before the holiday, and work is slow. I have to go to the bathroom (stupid water pill) and since there is no rush to get back to work I reverted back to an old habit, I watched porn in the stall. Now since locking up I have cut back greatly on the amount of time spent watching porn, but out of habit, and desire I still watch evrn if I can't do anything.
Also out of habit I stroke the device as if I was masturbating, and this just usually does nothing, but its fun to struggle. Well unfortunately yesterday I was not fully erect and found that I could move the device back and forth, which did stimulate me. I could feel the orgasm rising, and I had to scream at myself to get up and leave. I was still shaking but willing myself to ignore the pleasure when I left the bathroom.
I've known from reading the posts here that it was still possible to masturbate, but I just told myself I couldn't. Now that I know I can I'm not sure I can honestly stop myself. If I had the will to stop I wouldn't need the device.
Wish me luck.
-MFL
CB6KS
Locked since 11/5/2012
Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving
5/50
Its the day before the holiday, and work is slow. I have to go to the bathroom (stupid water pill) and since there is no rush to get back to work I reverted back to an old habit, I watched porn in the stall. Now since locking up I have cut back greatly on the amount of time spent watching porn, but out of habit, and desire I still watch evrn if I can't do anything.
Also out of habit I stroke the device as if I was masturbating, and this just usually does nothing, but its fun to struggle. Well unfortunately yesterday I was not fully erect and found that I could move the device back and forth, which did stimulate me. I could feel the orgasm rising, and I had to scream at myself to get up and leave. I was still shaking but willing myself to ignore the pleasure when I left the bathroom.
I've known from reading the posts here that it was still possible to masturbate, but I just told myself I couldn't. Now that I know I can I'm not sure I can honestly stop myself. If I had the will to stop I wouldn't need the device.
Wish me luck.
-MFL
CB6KS
Locked since 11/5/2012
Release date: Sometime after Thanksgiving
5/50
0 x
-MFL
Holy Trainer, small
Holy Trainer, small
Re: [darthball] Darthball's world
It has been some time since I've posted, mostly because I haven't been in chastity based on my experience in my last post (being able to masturbated through the device).
Recently though my wife threw a bacherlorette weekend for her friend. I decided to lock myself up, and when I learned her with the lock my wife was so happy. She mentioned how she missed the chastity play, and she really likes the idea of having me locked up.
After her weekend away she returned eager to have sex, and we had a great time, she released me, and we had PIV and brought her to orgasim, all while some how keeping myself from reaching climax. (The extra thick condom had a lot to do with it, I think) She felt a little bad, but I assured her that locking me back up right away made me very happy.
Based on this experience though I know my wife desires PIV, and if I truly want to stay in charity for longer than a few days or aweek, I would need to find a new way of satisfying her needs. So I bought a vaculock strapon, with a dildo that was similar in length and width (ok its really 3" longer, but who's counting).
We ended up trying it out right away, and at this point I had been locked up 6 days, and dripping with anticipation all day. I positioned the stapon to rest slightly on top on my cage, and as we got in to this I could feel my pressure mounting. As my wife started moaning in the ecstacy of her build up to climax, I felt myself do something unexpected and unintended, I came in my charity device. My wife shortly after came as well with a face of such pleasure that I have rarely seen. We both collapsed and cuddled in the glow of our orgasims.
I can't wait to do this again. Hopefully with our new found toy, we can extend my luck up period to a month, assuming I can hold out that long.
MFL
CB3KS
Recently though my wife threw a bacherlorette weekend for her friend. I decided to lock myself up, and when I learned her with the lock my wife was so happy. She mentioned how she missed the chastity play, and she really likes the idea of having me locked up.
After her weekend away she returned eager to have sex, and we had a great time, she released me, and we had PIV and brought her to orgasim, all while some how keeping myself from reaching climax. (The extra thick condom had a lot to do with it, I think) She felt a little bad, but I assured her that locking me back up right away made me very happy.
Based on this experience though I know my wife desires PIV, and if I truly want to stay in charity for longer than a few days or aweek, I would need to find a new way of satisfying her needs. So I bought a vaculock strapon, with a dildo that was similar in length and width (ok its really 3" longer, but who's counting).
We ended up trying it out right away, and at this point I had been locked up 6 days, and dripping with anticipation all day. I positioned the stapon to rest slightly on top on my cage, and as we got in to this I could feel my pressure mounting. As my wife started moaning in the ecstacy of her build up to climax, I felt myself do something unexpected and unintended, I came in my charity device. My wife shortly after came as well with a face of such pleasure that I have rarely seen. We both collapsed and cuddled in the glow of our orgasims.
I can't wait to do this again. Hopefully with our new found toy, we can extend my luck up period to a month, assuming I can hold out that long.
MFL
CB3KS
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-MFL
Holy Trainer, small
Holy Trainer, small
Re: [darthball] Darthball's world
darthball wrote:Hopefully ... we can extend my luck up period to a month,
I know that was probably a typo but I like it.
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It does sound pretty good that way. Sadly it is a typo, thats what I get for posting from my phone. There goes my career as a proof reader.
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-MFL
Holy Trainer, small
Holy Trainer, small