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Lockedwithlove wrote: Since my generation grew up with the Internet I found my treasure trove of porn and indulged myself daily with whatever I wanted and believe me when you've been looking at it as long as I have you get into some fairly strange stuff in order to "get off" because you become so desensitized to what you previously considered hard core.

The internet is a porn tsunami for sure, but let me tell you young guys something -- there was porn before the internet too.

I'm 50 years old, so if you do the math, you will see that I was in puberty in the late '70s. No internet, but the golden age of T&A on tv. Charlie's Angels, Three's Company, and of course, Wonder Woman.

That was total soft-core, clothed television stuff, to be sure. But there was also Playboy and Penthouse. I discovered my older brother's stash of naked magazines in the attic when I was about 11 years old -- before I learned to masturbate. I stared at those pictures and stared and I thought "These pictures make me want to do something, but I'm not sure what!" Sometime later, in the shower with a soapy hand, I figured it out.

And then there came the VCR. Operative word being "came". Nina Hartley, Heather Wayne, Erica Boyer, Selena Steele, Sharon Mitchell, and -- oh my god! -- Zara Whites, to name just a few.

Porn addiction is a real thing. That doesn't mean there should be censorship, but we shouldn't pretend that it isn't a real thing either. And yes, with the internet the delivery of the drug has been totally perfected. No embarrassment at all, because you don't have to interact face-to-face with anybody to get it.

And man-oh-man, on the internet can you "get it"! Any kink at all that you can think of is out there. For free if you aren't too picky, for a modest monthly fee, if you want a lot of full-length of something in particular.

And then you can wank to your heart's content, looking at anything you desire. It is kind of crazy. I am a man with an intense desire to be sexually submissive to women. And so I express the desire by masturbating to images of dominatrix women on my computer screen -- an act I have absolute and total control over!

I don't know about you guys, but my hard drive is like a dominatrix buffet. Hmm, what am I in the mood for? The Huntress? Such a magnificent young British Lady, and so talented with a cane! But she doesn't do nudity, and I am in the mood to see boobies along with the whipping. So how about Mistress January Sereph? Which video? The whipping one? The pegging one? Hmm, decisions, decisions.

And if you make your choice and then decide you want something else you can always switch, right?

And last but not least, there are the videos I've made for myself with an editing program. You take a video from the StraponDreamers website, chop and cut it till all you've got are the "good parts" and then lay a soundtrack of Katy Perry's "Roar" over top of it and. . . damn, am I really sure I want to be locked up?

Yes. Yes I am. Because there is a real woman in my life who loves me, and this adolescent shit is hurting her. But it is an addiction and I can't stop without help. And so we click the lock.

Just my two cents.

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Lockedwithlove wrote:STILL MAKING ADJUSTMENTS TO MY DEVICE.

I'll update tomorrow sometime and let you all know if my edema issues are solved, everybody cross there fingers for me, if anybody even reads this .

Good luck!

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